-Karen- When I woke up it was very dark outside, so I was pretty sure we slept the small remainder of that second day. Conor was still snuggled up to me with his mouth open. I carefully kissed his cheek. He smiled in his sleep for a moment and then went back to having his mouth slightly open. I was hungry but I wanted just to watch him sleep for a little while. After about an hour he started mumbling in his sleep again. Today, I was able to make out the words ‘pretty Mage’ and ‘mother’ but that was all. I have found something more precious to me than I could have ever dreamed. More precious than my love of magic. I can't believe I ever hated you. I can't imagine my life without you now, Conor. I stopped for a moment and thought about his words. Mother? What did he mean by mother? Does he want me to try and make amends with his mother? I can try but given that meeting, I doubt there’s anything I can do to fix that aside from dropping dead.I slowly crawled to the end of the bed and gr
-Karen-I gave him a sympathetic smile and continued sewing as I spoke. “It was hard. There were many times that I thought about running away but where would I go? There definitely were times when I just wanted it all to stop but there were a few good people in my life that did their best to help me through it all.” I finished the set and started on another one. “Novo was the biggest support. Julie and Sophie helped when they could, but they had their own children to take care of. And then Lizette.” I paused from my work and met his gaze. “When I was seven, I met Lizette for the first time. I don’t remember why I had to meet her, but she was really bubbly around me and she scared me a bit because I wasn’t used to someone talking so much and asking me questions about myself. It took a while but eventually I warmed up to her.” I looked away as I thought about Lizette and how much I missed her. Oh Lizette… I miss you so much. Joanne reminds me of you though. We fell into silence for a li
-Karen-I felt hungry after being awake for an hour. Carefully, I kissed his cheek and then slipped out of bed to get a snack from the basket. I found some crackers and some berries. I was still thinking about my feelings for Conor when he startled me by wrapping his arms around me. He nuzzled my neck and then gave me a love bite. “A love bite for my lover.” He whispered as I chuckled. He kissed my cheek and hugged me tighter. “I had a dream about us.” I looked up as he spoke. “You agreed to have children with me, and we had a daughter. She looked like you except her eyes were gray. We called her Elizabeth Adrianna Helena…” A daughter. So, what did he mean by four more? Four more babies?I felt my cheeks get hot as he laughed lightly. “Was she feisty?” I asked while I hunted for more snacks out of the basket.“Absolutely feisty and so much sass for being a small baby. She was truly her mother’s daughter.” He mused while I offered him a blackberry. He took the berry and an ‘Mm’ could
-Karen-“You’re just staring at your hand. Are you alright, Karen?” Conor asked setting down his cards. I looked up unsure of how to say what I felt. I felt like I got punched in the chest in front of the entire Royal court. I feel so nervous and like I’m going to cry.I got up and hugged him tightly. There’s no doubt anymore. But how do I say it? He was silent but returned the hug. “Excuse me for a moment please.” I whispered. I left the main room and slipped into the armoire room. I paced around the room trying to figure this out as best I could. That feeling I felt… It was just like Bart had said. You just realize out of the damn blue that you you’re in love with them. I smiled sweetly to myself as the realization sunk in deeper by the second. I’m in love with him. There’s no way I could ever deny my feelings for him. But how do I say it to him? “Karen? Are you feeling okay?” Conor asked from by the doorway. I’m fine… I think. “Do you want me to send for Bart?” I heard him walk o
-Karen-“I hope you like Zargo, Kay. I plan to give you at least one of my estates when I take you home with me.” I looked over in surprise. “The first one I want you to have has a large garden. Your rose garden is only half the size of that garden. I want you to feel at home there.” I watched him in silence. “The manor house is kind of small next to the others, but it has a small library, an art studio, a music room, six bedrooms, four large spa bathrooms with a nice big soaking tub in two of them, several other rooms and a basement. The best part is it’s in the quiet countryside where you won't have to be worried about being stared at if you go outside.”“You know you don’t have to give me something like that. I can just borrow it.” I whispered and then giggling at the dirty look on his face.“Listen here, woman. I’m giving you this estate because I want you to have something of your own. Also, I’m going to make sure that you have at least three servants, a personal chef.” I shook m
I narrowed my eyes. “No way Conor! I have a score to settle with you!” I proclaimed defiantly. He laughed and then we kissed. I smiled, cupping his face. “I hope you’re finally ready to lose!” I will defeat you!“We’ll see won't we?” He replied kissing me several times. “You’re going down!” I went to get off his lap, but he wouldn’t let me move. He stood up and carried me out into the main room kissing me the whole way. He gently set me down on my chair and then sat in his chair giving me a sneaky grin. “Ready to lose, you sexy vixen?” He asked, shuffling the cards.“Hmph!” I pulled out the bottle of whiskey and gave it to him.“Yes! Best lover ever!” He cried, drinking the entire small bottle in one shot. “Ah! I love that burn!” He picked the cards back up while I finished emptying the contents of the basket. “You got a bunch of good stuff!” He nodded approvingly. We played for three hours and I finally managed to win four of the nine games. “You still lost.” He teased with a smug s
-Karen-“There’s probably going to be a lot of people out there waiting for us when you take the seal off. Just be prepared because they are probably going to think you are holding me hostage.” Conor warned putting his forehead against mine. “Well… I was! That’s not a lie, Conor. I will always hold you hostage.” I replied walking to the doors. He chuckled under his breath. I quickly braided my hair in hopes that was going to make me feel a little less anxious. I touched my hand to the door and took a deep breath. “Dispel.” I whispered softly. As soon as the seal disappeared you could hear the commotion we had caused.“Where the fuck is he at?!” I heard Zachary screaming at everyone. “It’s been two days and there still isn’t an update?!” I felt my anxiety shoot up about eight levels as someone started pounding on the door. Uh oh. I could hear someone say something to the king, but I couldn’t make out what was said. “Then kick the damn door down! Burn it down! Blow it off the fucking h
-Karen-I felt my stomach start to ache from hunger and my nerves as I sat on the edge of the bed. “Can I ask you something, Karen?” Bart asked moving the chaise back in front of the fireplace and sitting down across from me. I nodded quietly. “I’ve been meaning to ask you this for a while now. If it were possible, would you want to be a mother?” Conor asked me that when I showed him how to sew. Would I?I thought about the question for a several minutes. “I don’t think I’d be a very good one. So, I’d be inclined to say no. I’d be afraid that I would be a horrible one. I wouldn’t want any child to go through what I have. I’d make so many mistakes.” I bet I would be terrible. Where would I even start? “I know you have been giving Joanne and I pointers, but I don’t think that’s going to help me at all.”“Have you ever met your mother? Do you remember her at all?” Bart asked with a sad note in his voice.“I remember her standing over me in the garden, but the image is just a shadow now.