"Really Amber? you will treat me like that just because of that!?"I dont care if I am now shouting my ass here but I am certain that I did not violate any rules this time!I walk straight to her office and her secretary didnt do something about it, I just saw this woman actingh weird on me and then sit in her chair in cross arms and cross legs."I didnt do anything wrong that is why I dont deserved that treatment!"She slowly look at me wearing those eyes, seriously I dont like her looking at me like this, damn, I miss the old Amber!"You seem to miss my point Esther, like I told you, I saw both of you, what makes you think no one others saw that?"And now I lost for words...alright, fine! she win this time!"Alright, my fault, but you can talk to me properly Amber, you even say it out loud there, you almost embarrased me as well, I am not where that angst of you come from! you could at least talk to me like a friend! right?"I said and then rolled my eyes on her going out of her off
How much it takes to hurt a person? when you know that it would be the best for both of you, even if it will kill you within, like what I am about to do right now, facing the smiley Amber."Hey, are you okay?""Y-Yeah...""Okay, what do you want to eat?""Ahm, I not really hungry...""Seriously? I heard that you just had your surgery with patient in 107""Yes, though I am a little preoccupied of something"After saying that, she suddenly stop from eating and just look at me, I am about to speak when she start to talk."You shouldnt think about it, it's just a kiss"I am dumbfound hearing what she just said...damn, why didnt I think of that, this woman in front of me isnt no longer Amber, I mean there is a possibility that it will be nothing for her."Oh, yeah, well I was just thinking if...ahm...well--""--it's nothing, dont get lost about it, last time I check, I am still straight...though I should say sorry for doing that...""Ahmm it's okay, like you said, it is just a kiss...it me
Expect the unexpected, standing outside Frances room while she is sleeping, I just dont understand why on earth she got this illness, brain and heart, after testing her an Echocardiogram for her supposedly cardiomegaly but I have found out that she has a heart valve disease.She has meningioma and a heart valve diseases but looking at her face, she is sleeping nicely like there is nothing wrong with her, a deep sigh is what I just let out when Amber appears at my back."Hey"She said which I totally forgot that I supposed to see her right now, Geez!"I am sorry, I just had an echo to her, I totally forgot""That is fine, so how is she now?""Meningioma and heart valve disease, both operable though I am not sure if her body can handle two major surgery""About that, I already know it from Felisa, if both of you think that she will be at risk, I cannot allow the double major surgery to perform together, I am sorry"I am stop hearing that from her, right now all I am seeing is the boss
Pressure is one of the compensatory illnesses in the heart that may indicate a worse heart problem, high pressure is always the indication of something to worry about, and at this moment standing naked in front of Amber, I feel like I am having a high pressure within me...or I just simply feel pressured...her question is indeed squeezing me tight right now!"I-I don't know...I am not sure, I-I have been working for twelve years in different hospitals so I may bump into you somehow...I don't remember now, I am sorry"I said still controlling my arms from shaking while she is just staring at me that way, damn, I am not good at this, I manage to act normal and simple like I don't know her at all since day one but right now, her questions, somehow making me realize I am not really good on acting.Seeing her silent makes me really want to go to move and make a step a little and speak again."This has been a long day for me, can I just go home instead..."I said and then face the washroom a
Between two important things, how will you weigh which is which to prioritize? standing and staring at the patient in bed three, my mind is now playing with that thoughts, looking at my watch I can only have one and half hours for Frances's surgery, but this patient in front of me, without further tests yet, I already have the idea of what he is suffering from.I just swallow a deep breath and then walk toward the patient."Hi I am Doctor Esther""Hi Doc, I am Rina I am his wife, he is George""Okay, George, can you tell me how you feel right now? any pain?""Well aside from the sudden change of my color, I always feel pained in the back and in here, also I feel bloated at times"The patient said I am about to say something when his wife speak."Oh and I want to add, he seems very lethargic and low energy, you see he is the only one who works in our family, but these past days, he cants go to work anymore""Because there is something that causes him that and that is what we are going
"Charge 300!!! Clear!!!""Oh god Lisa please hold on!!!"And then I go back doing the CPR but the patient isnt responding anymore, the heart stops and so I need to call it.I look at the clock and then announce the time of death.I am still exhaust doing all I can but I guess not everything we want isnt entitled to happen, as doctors, as much as possible we need to avoid patient's death but the word avoid is overrated! dealing with death...or simply dealing with what we dont want to happen.At this moment when my patient die I just couldnt take hearing the relatives crying, yes I should be get used to it but I am not, I need to escape my ass from it.Still feeling exhaust I walk towards the cafeteria and have some sugar liquid, it really helps my brain to get relaxed.It has been four days after knowing what my bestfriend Monica tries to do with Amber, I dont know but I just couldnt believe she will end up doing that, stealing my position in Amber's mind, pretend to be me is just unfo
Opening my eyes felt like I have been sleeping for a hundred years, I feel tired and exhausted for some reason.I try to look around and it is dark, really dark, until she appears in front me, this woman without face, she keep on talking to me but I cant hear it, I cant even hear a sound, what is really going on!?My eyes starts to get wet, I feel like I am going to burst out in tears...hmmmm sob*sob*hmmm...why is this happening to me?"Dad..."I keep shouting for Dad but he isnt around until I heard it a sound..."Tooo...toot..tooo..toooot!"And then my eye open...shit! another dream again, or I can say nightmares or just a fractal of my memory that I have lost two years ago.That moment when I woke up in the hospital, I barely can move, I feel like I have something within me...my chest hurts, my heart hurts...I try asking myself what happen to me when Monica appear at my door, a person I dont even remember I met.She is all smile greeting me, I have no time for that, what I want is
When people say changes is risky considering you are afraid of disturbing of what you have used to be done, or what you used to see or feel, opening my eyes in a very different mood, damn, I feel happy, I feel not the one I am used to be, after that night with Amber, when we become open and I follow Vannie's advice, I just let what will happen and just see the outcome and here it is, I am smiling like idiot!Everything I have right now with Amber, I never had or felt before, this is really different, our initial time before our relationship happens is just so fast, we just go with what we think off, we never try to think first, we just had a small talk and then we are good until our relationship sucks, I never know the real Amber within, she never knew me as well within and now things is just...things seems to be in process...it isnt so fast but we talk a lot...we do arguments...I am not sure if this is for the better or not, but I like the flow...I kind of like the changes somehow."