Valerie
“Enough,” I spoke, using a tone that quieted them. I felt like I was a Luna again. Fighting the penetrating stare by my side looked away before continuing. “Lets resolve this issue.” As a mediator I was meant to listen before making my judgment. Both of them stated their case, the latter being one of the Beta's daughter getting injured by Alyn before a break was proposed. I was free to walk around as I thought over my judgment but stopped when I overheard murmurs from a corner. It was my former pack members talking. “This is so annoying. Alpha Tristan barely said a word.” one of them hissed which I frowned at. I noticed it and was equally confused. How did the man who supported Alys suddenly fall silent? “Is he still sick? The pack doctor didn't say there was something wrong with him though…” Someone whispered, making my ears perk up. “Alpha Tristan hasn't been the same since he suddenly fainted.” the other hummed, “It's been two weeks since that happened and suddenly this conflict started. He must be going through a lot.” “And now Lu- the Former Luna joined the Shadow Moon pack? What the hell? Do you thi-” I walked away before I could hear anymore. ‘He'd fainted two weeks ago?’ my brows furrowed. That never happened in my memories. What changed? ‘Many things could have taken place.’ I justified, It was the same way I was surprised that Alyn wasn't Luna yet, or called ‘Future Luna’ at least. It has been months since I'd left. I would have expected them to have a mating ceremony by now. Was this the reason why? I quickly pushed the thoughts away. It wasn't my place to think about that anymore. When we returned for the meeting I was ready for the judgment. The conflict that had taken my life in the past life was ending today. As I took my seat, I spoke. “The end of this conflict is simple and could have been solved easily if it weren't for pride. As it was the Eclipse pack who had done the first offense, it would be them who would pay the price. Alys Valentine of the Eclipse pack is to make a public apology to the Shadow Moon pack and the Beta's daughter. Based on the tradition of packs, the Eclipse pack is obligated to declare a public apology and send an offering to the pack.” It was the easiest and simplest resolution. The Eclipse packs weren't short of resources. But would they accept it easily? I held my breath, waiting for resistance when Tristan suddenly stood up. “I, Alpha Tristan, accept this punishment.” be announced. I stiffened. Of all the people I would have expected him to argue. His eyes were still looking at me in that strange way. I forced myself to look away. Meeting Alistair’s gaze, I relaxed. My worries faded as he looked pleased with the judgment, smiling. “In that case, the conflict between us is resolved,” he announced. It was like a weight had fallen off my chest. After Tristan made an apology on behalf of the pack, Alyn was forced to publicly apologize. I felt her and my parents glare my way. I ignored them. It was harder to ignore how Tristan gaze penetrated me, but I was set on ignoring it. It didn't matter when I was leaving soon. But I couldn't. To my surprise, Alistair suddenly proposed an impromptu party to celebrate the realliance of their packs. There was no way to escape as the moment he spoke, suddenly servants and other pack members came in with food, drinks and music. All of a sudden the hall filled with tension had reduced to music and joy, like nothing ever happened between them. I stepped out nearly 20 minutes after the party began, slipping into the nearby garden for fresh air. It was evening when I'd arrived in the pack and now that things were resolved it was already nighttime. After sending a quick text to Nina, I relaxed against one of the pillars and looked up at the sky. The crisis that had taken my life had been fully averted. Once they left now, there was no reason for me to contact them. “Valerie.” I froze at the voice behind me, snapping backwards to find my ex mate behind me. He should have been celebrating. The Eclipses pack had left without bloodshed and Alys was with him, so why was he here? Heat prickled me at the look he gave. “What are you doing here?” I snapped defensively. “To see you.” Before I could comprehend his words I was suddenly crushed by his arms. Shocked, I realized that he was holding me. Panicked, I pushed him away, stumbling. “What the hell is wrong with you?!” I cried out, wrapping my arms around myself. “I needed to see you Valerie,” he breathed out, reaching out to grasp my shoulders. I flinched at his touch yet it was gentle as he looked over me. “Excuse me, Alpha Tristan, but we're no longer mates and …” “That doesn't matter. What matters is knowing why the hell are you here?” he snapped, shutting me up, “What were you thinking being in this pack? Were you captured? Are you hurt? How is the baby?” ‘Wait…’ I froze as I realized. “How did you know about the baby?” I asked, horrified. Even now it didn't show and he definitely didn't know back then, unless... Looking at him, my heart trembled. That same look came into his eyes, “I saw it. The baby you lost…when you died.” he said. Disbelief pricked me. This couldn't be happening. He looked up at me resolutely, something akin to desperation and sadness in his face. “I know everything.”‘Impossible’ I wanted to say if my breath hadn't been caught. But it wouldn't feel true even if I wanted it to be.How else then, would he know that I died?I wanted to shove him away, but his hold was firm.“Valerie,” he called out his eyes in the same emotions.“Answer me. Why did you come here? Is Alistair holding you?” he asked, the same strange sad desperation written all over his face. This couldn't be happening.“No,” I breathed out instinctively. I wasn't answering his question, but the effect was still the same as he reared back. He looked hurt.But I couldn't care less about him. Not when I couldn't understand.Why? How did he know? Was this some sick joke from the Goddess?“You have to go. Leave me alone!” I finally bursted, pushing him away with all my strength. I stumbled in shock but quickly recovered. He still looked like he was in a daze.“Valerie.” he called out.“How do you know?” I snapped, frightened.“I don't…” he said, shaking his head, “I don't know how, but I
ValerieI twisted back as fast as I could to search for the voice. The moment I found the person all the tension left me. I knew I recognized that voice.He walked out of the shadows, his silvery blond hair glowing in the moonlight. As he approached us, I felt tense for a completely different reason.I felt him beside me, his gaze focused forward.“I asked a question, Alpha Tristan.” He said arrogantly, making me stiffen, “what are you doing here with my Advisor?”Tristan still looked pale, but I was surprised when his gait suddenly changed into something narrow.“I was talking to Valerie. My mate,” Tristan said, “Ex mate,” Alistair corrected, “you have no rights over her, so you shouldn't be cornering her in my garden. You do remember that this is my pack, right?”“Alistair,” I broke out, interrupting whatever they were going to say next. Both eyes turned to me but I focused on Alistair. I never said his name out loud in public, constantly deferring to his title, but over the past
ValerieI gaped in shock. I could barely feel it when my jaw fell.What?“Be my mate,”Alistair was still facing me, the same serious look on his face. He had to be joking. Only after a loud bout of silence did I recover. Laughter burst out of me , easing the silence. The sudden heavy weight had dissipated along with it. What was I thinking? For a brief moment panic had filled me for no reason before I could recognize that it was a joke.“That wasn't funny. Goddess, you gave me a scare for a moment,” I huffed, rubbing my palm on my chest. I still had to be careful. Although the stress in my past life hadn't done any good to my baby they still survived well until our death but even then I doubted this amount of shock was good either-“I'm not joking,” Alistair's voice cut me off, making my mind stop.The sound of a chair scraping against the floor and followed by footsteps before I looked up. He was walking towards me with that same serious look on his face.“Alpha Alistair,”“Alista
Valerie I looked out the window throughout the drive. Today had gone better than expected and way worse. I'd been finally able to help the conflict in the pack die. It should have been the end but I left more conflicted than I arrived. The entire day had been a rollercoaster and I was in the middle of it. What was I supposed to do knowing that Tristan somehow knew of our past life? Why did it even happen in the first place? Why did the Moon Goddess let it happen? And then there was Alistair who had just suddenly confessed and proposed to me at the same time. Throughout my time for the past month I'd never thought of him in that sense. Yes, I still felt uneasy about him but he had become an acquaintance and good partner. But as a mate? I bit my bottom lip. I couldn't even consider myself being married ever, much less to him. After leaving my pack my mind was set on living peacefully as a nobody. The initial plan had crashed with Alistair's discovery of me, but I adapted.
Tristan Three months ago “Alpha Tristan, I reject you as my mate. The Moon Goddess bears witness.” Her parting words echoed in my mind after the failed anniversary celebration. That same night, I sipped a glass of whiskey alone in my office, completely irritated. I could point out the day she started acting strange was after she stormed out of the dining room which she had never done before. I felt like something was different, not just in her actions but her. I pushed it away however. As far as I was concerned, thinking about Valerie was a waste of my time and she hadn't acted abnormally since then. Until today. The day of our anniversary. Despite the look in her eyes and the change I could sense, I still couldn't believe it. But on returning to the pack house it finally sunk in that she was telling the truth. All her belongings were gone along with that of her maids. I took another swig of whiskey. Her abrupt exit made the mood of the party unable to recover. I was l
TristanWhen I woke up, nothing felt the same.Flashes of sights and visions rang clearly in my mind. I could visualize it even hours later, feel every emotion. Snippets of days on end passing by and it was so similar to my actual memories yet so DIFFERENT.I saw the same events of our anniversary play out differently. After spilling the wine she refused to apologize. How I bitterly pulled Alyn away angrily blaming Valerie. Then more months passed, my constant indifference towards her. Her remaining in the pack and life going on as usual.Then the meeting. Packs being invited. Alyn slighting the Shadow Moon Pack.I saw myself defend Alyn despite all odds. Alistair's threat against the pack before he left. Valerie continously arguing with me and every single time I opposed her, everyone did in favour of Alyn. The stubbornness I felt in believing that Alyn hadn't done wrong and scolding Valerie further.And then…A loud gunshot, commotion. BLOOD. Valerie’s blood.She was wearing a whi
PRESENT DAY (Same night of the Meeting) Tristan I groaned against the warm lights blinding me. Even the low music hurt my ears. A blurry haze took over . The only thing that I could process properly was the mind is a blurry haze as he is drunk. I couldn't stand the idea of staying in that pack any longer. Not with her words haunting me. Despite the cost I knew our pack could carry I ordered us and booked all the available rooms in thee luxurious hotel. I could barely spare aa glance at any of them before tracing the path to the bar. Alyn who he somehow couldn’t stand now but didn’t fully understand why and I couldn't care less. Not after seeing her again and hearing those words from her lips. The baby was gone. Her words had struck me harshly. A brief foolish thought came to me that she had done something. It could only mean one thing. She'd lost the baby? Was it on her journey here? Had she faced any problems that caused it? A hollow grief choked me inside out. Ho
2 Months LaterValerie“Another one,” Mina whispered in my ear as she slipped past me with the flowers. Those two words made my jaw clench.Excusing myself from the customer inquiring about anniversary flowers, I stepped out of the building to find a large burly man holding a box set. Eyeing it, from experience I already knew it was something expensive.“Thanks,” I whispered despite not meaning it. Signing the package I took it inside quickly, heading upstairs towards our apartment before taking it to storage on the upper floor along with the rest of them.When I returned, Mina was attending to the previous customer. I shared an exasperated look across from her as she did the same.It was routine now, starting two months ago. Ever since Alistair's ‘proposal’, I'd been receiving a constant stream of gifts from Alistair. The first time it happened, I met him to personally return it only to receive his befuddling attitude.“I'm not going to take back something for you and I'm not going t
TristanThe shock simmered, surrounding the entire room. “Alpha…Tristan, what is the meaning of this,” her father gaped. My jaw clenched in response as I tore my eyes away from Valerie’s greens to stare at her father's. Something in me lurched at their pale faces, but it wasn't worry.As far as concerned, they were my family. They had been the ones to raise me after my parents died and treated me like their own son. I had always tried to please them the best I could, even when the epiphany came to me. Even as I felt like screaming at how they so blatantly treated Valerie. In spite of those scathing words I'd overheard them say about her in Alyn's room and every other time. In spite of everything I'd felt about how they'd treated her.Not this time.“I never wanted this marriage or mating ceremony,” I smiled bitterly, “This entire ceremony was forced on my part, pressured from my duties, the packs expectations after Alyns sudden announcement of her pregnancy. And especially then, I
TristanThe sound of the piano grated on my ears. Everything about this felt suffocating.The hall, now transformed for the ceremony, felt even worse. After weeks of denial, days of resignation and acceptance. It was finally here. My mating ceremony.I hated every second of it.Being here brought me back to my first mating ceremony which was ironic when it was nothing like this. There wasn't any fanfare. It was rushed and full of nerves, only a few days after her 18th birthday.We had discovered that we were mates in front of the pack during a celebration and just like that, our fates were sealed. I remembered being angry at the suddenness of having to cater to her when I barely knew her aside from the complaints of her parents and Alyn's comments.She was just 18, a few years younger than I was, yet she'd looked so composed. Now with clearer eyes, I had no doubt that she was SCARED.Why had I antagonized her even then for Alyn's sake? Why did I resent her for something out of our c
ValerieThe weeks of celebration were coming to an end, the mating ceremony was closer than ever.I stayed by Alistair's side throughout. There were no more excuses, no more reasons to leave. And so I attended the luncheons and dinner parties, staying beside Alistair while making conversation with other guests and avoiding Alistair's flirtations. Things should have been back to normal. I could ignore everything else and wait, ready to go home.But I couldn't.Every time, even when I tried not to, my eyes constantly shifted to him. Tristan had stopped avoiding the luncheons or dinners, coming to every event and sticking to Alyns side while entertaining everybody, yet just like before, he was far from happy.He didn't show it though, forcing strained smiles at everyone. Just like he'd said, he had resigned himself to his fate.It was in the little things. Everytime Alyn neared him, he would nearly back away but stop in his tracks before putting up a facade of calmness, if not anythin
Valerie “I suppose this is what you've been up to.” Alistair said, his voice carrying visible hardness.It nearly made me bristle in irritation. He had no right to be angry with who I was with,nor did he have the right to snap at me. but my irritation quickly doused in shame. After all, as far as I was concerned, I was only here because of him as his plus one yet I had done the opposite of keeping him company.It was also me that told him that I had nothing to do with Tristan or this pack anymore, yet here I was.“I’m sorry,” I apologized before he could say anything. “This isn't the best way to explain things, but I'm sorry for not being the companion you needed. I can't explain it fully, but something important came up. It doesn't change that.” Once I was done talking, his anger seemed to wane a bit, yet his eyes hardened as he looked behind me.“Is that why you're with him?” he asked, lifting his jaw in the direction of Tristan, Alistair who seems angry that she is associating
ValerieWe went the next day. As the days leading up to the ceremony passed, the fanfare and intrigue of other pack representatives had waned alongside the growing comfort within the pack. It wasn't strange for any of us to skip one or two luncheons or lounge in the hotel for the rest of the day. Not to mention that as most of them stayed within the central part of the city, there was a low chance of seeing anyone near here.Which was why although well disguised, I was more lax with going out beside him. He drove us to the pack hospital.When we entered, the clinic was spare, unsurprisingly. Unlike humans we didn't need hospitals hospitals as much unless to tend to rare but terminal illnesses, wounds or…pregnancies.I swallowed thickly as I walked past several nurses, forcing down any reminder of my baby. The last time I was here in this life was to confirm my pregnancy.With a quick knock on his door, we slipped in.“Lu…former Luna Valerie,” he quickly adjusted, bowing, “I heard of
ValerieOn waking up, I didn't know how to feel in seeing new texts from Tristan.Immediately I returned to the hotel—thankfully still alone— I forced my tears and emotions back, pushing them away in the same way my parents didn't hesitate to push me away. It was the reminder of the treasure in my belly that helped me calm down along with the assurance that there was an end to seeing them. That I would be different and would treat my children with the love they hadn't given me in a long time.Now, waking up in the early morning, I saw this.It was a simple message, asking to meet in the same cafe. The sky was still dark and there was still a chance to go. The only question was: did I want to see him?I'd lost control and he'd seen me in my visceral vulnerable state. And after…“You were my mate, but I barely knew you. And after I did, I realized how much I wished I did.”I shut my eyes tightly at those words played again and again.His words haunted my turmoil far more than the apolog
TristanThe glass of whiskey in my hand looked amber in the dim light of my study.Every single time I was brought here because of her.“Nobody cared about me, not even you,” Her words burned more than the whiskey ever could. It burned hot and lashed out in anger aimed at her parents. For their harsh unforgiving ignorant anf insulting words. But most of all, for myself. A part of me longed for my past life's memories to the point of desperation but the other side of me feared what I would see. If I was going to be just as horrible if not worse. It didn't really matter considering how I was fully aware of how I treated her. Her death was reversed but it didn't change everything leading up to it. Our mate bond was severed and she was free. Yet , despite all of that, she was here, helping me. The pack constantly spoke in my favor, but they were all wrong. It was I who didn't deserve her. I didn't deserve her kindness, this second chance she was giving me. I didn't deserve her help,
Valerie“Goddess, I've been standing for too long. My hips hurt.” “Let's do this quickly then so we can go home.”I stiffened as the two voices moved through. It belonged to my mother and father respectively. Why were they here?There were some rustling sounds I couldn't piece together despite being near the door. Tristan's breathing was thin, but I still couldn't tell what was going on with his being so CLOSE.‘Get your head straight,’ I warned myself, forcing myself to focus on whatever was going on outside.The sound only lasted seconds before footsteps thumped.“Do you think she'll be happy with this? Perhaps we should have bought her something new.” my mother asked, sounding unsure about whatever it was.“Why not? It was formerly your necklace. It's only right that she received this as her wedding gift.” my father said, shocking me to the bone.I knew the exact necklace she was talking about, gifted by my father as a courting gift. Now she was passing on her heirloom to Alyn.M
ValerieThe next day, just as the pack city was waking up, I was already there. My gaze was fixed on the window, watching the dawn break.In the note I had given him were three details, my number and an address to this place alongside a time that was nearing with every second now. His text was enough to tell me that he would be here. I'd picked this place specifically for two reasons, with it being closer to the pack border and because it was the one place I knew opened incredibly early. There was nobody else in sight aside from the one attendant for now but he didn't spare a glance at me and rightfully so. I had taken measures to hide my identity with a hoodie covering my hair and a mask for my face to avoid any spare pack member lurking in this time of the day from noticing. The last thing I wanted was any attention, especially when meeting him. The longer the seconds the more anxious I felt. At the sound of the cafe door ringing open, I whipped my head and all my anxieties fa