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2024-10-29 19:42:56I had never understood why it was called heartbreak until now, it felt as though my heart had shattered into a million pieces. It took less than one minute and only two words for everything to go from everyday feeling like a dream to every second feeling like a nightmare. I felt a tear hit my hand and until now I hadn't even realized I was crying. I looked up spotting Blair's car parked in front of mine and took a deep breath. I was in no state to drive even after trying to calm down in the school parking lot for almost an hour. Every minute felt like an eternity and against my better judgement I had driven here without a second thought once the world wasn't spinning around me. I slowly stepped out and closed my door hearing loud music coming from inside her apartment. I carefully made my way up to her door and took a deep breath before knocking loud enough for the neighbors to hear.
The door swung open revealing a rather intoxicated Blair with a half dressed brunet
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