Fear…
An emotion I never felt until I met Raven Sloane.
The woman has taken me on a roller coaster of emotions, letting me discover a bigger part of me that I once knew never existed.
I have felt for her from love to hate, and now I am to fear for her life as I am here clutching onto her hand.
Now we have come to make a decision; this very fucking helpful Doctor that I employ has now told me that he cannot do anything for Raven. Those very words set a whirlwind of emotions through every corner of the over-panicked body. This only means one thing, she shall have to go to Hospital. It does seem like the most obvious solution when someone does get hurt, but in this line of business, the types of injuries you find yourself with do bring along the attention of law enforcement.
So here comes the fucked up thing.
Do I let Raven stay here and fight her best fight?
Or do I take her to a Hospital, and not only me but her will find our as
What do they say when someone else’s life flashes in front of your eyes? Well, I don’t know, but I can tell you that it feels like you are dropping into an abyss that is filled with hot lava. You are being burned alive in pure agony. Raven has just crashed… It is in pure horror that I watch as the Doctor is literally standing knees over her body and bashing at her chest to get that already weak heart to pump life into her once again. Well… He is not doing it fast enough for me… It takes me one leap, and I push his body of Raven. As he tumbles to the floor, I pin her between my legs, and BANG… I smash my hands into her chest and start chest compression. One…to…thirty… One…two breaths… Nothing… I do it again… I smash her chest as hard as these fists won't hurt those delicate ribs, and I keep on pumping and breathing, pumping and breathing. One… Two… BANG… Aga
Seriously,fuck you. I have had enough.I am tired of losing Raven.Around every corner, there is a hole that I need to trip through…and…I have had enough.I once believed I knew what love is.Raven Sloane…I was satisfied with a mediocre life, a mediocre relationship. You know, the same old, same old –“He cares about me, I care about him”;“I will never find anything better than this.”stuff.All that fucking bullshit.I actually thought that I had found my ‘forever after.’ The person I’ll eventually end up with.You came into my life and changed my whole existence from its core. From the very first moment our eyes met, I knew there was something much more powerful between us than a simple, flirty gaze.You showed me that love has no limits; you revealed a whole new dimension of me. Something I’ve never felt before.
Raven has not stirred yet; she has been under for what seems like endless hours.The pain that I am holding deep in the depths of my heart with the thoughts that this might just be it they have been haunting me with every ticking second.I know that it is not good for my soul to think that I have lost her for certain this time, but reality has that nagging ability to bring fear into your life, reminding you that karma is a bitch and that she is always hiding around the corner.Though, there is one thing that this bitch does not know, is that I am Hunter King.I might have that fear that Raven is breathing her last breaths, but I am yet not near close enough to accepting it.So as this incredibly, and I need to remind myself to fire his fucking ass, but yes, he has just given her some more morphine as I settle for the next hour.Now Jax and Mason have tried their best to move my ass, and Stone nearly did win his attempt, but there is no way I
…Raven POV… To say that I have not hit a new depth of stupidity in these past few weeks would be a total understatement. From wanting to blow Hunter’s brains out to actually blowing a hole through his property. That can easily be described as the most insane thing that any woman can set her mind to, regardless of which world it is that she finds herself in. Now, should I want to try and find the most logical answer for doing any of them, I cannot come to one single one. Why do I hate Hunter so much? Even more important…why do I want to kill him? For the Sloane Empire? Well, yes, there is that. But that alone should not want to justify putting myself in such danger, for I, after all, have a string of men that will do it for me within an eye wink. Is it perhaps that I wish to want to do it myself? Why would I want to hurt Hunter so bad? The man that is sitting here next to me and has not let go of my hand for but a second
And as I lay here, I am struggling to flutter my eyes open and to get them to stay that way. This is bringing a great deal of concern to Hunter. I cannot even begin to tell you already how much I am going to miss him. What I can do is tell him…you…Hunter, how much I miss your touch. It has been hard with the baby and the Doctor telling us not to think about sex, yet sometimes we do not listen. But, yes, I much your touch. You're all I've been able to think about since we left the courthouse. You have put your favorite shirt that you just shredded from your body just moments ago one. The smell of your amazing cologne mixed with the intoxicating scent all your own absolutely turns me on and is so comforting with you being so far away. I imagine us being on an island in a secluded chateau that opens onto our own private beach. I'm wearing your favorite dress with no panties so you can easily access what you've been denied for so long.
It is 11 AM. Raven has fallen back into darkness I am holding her hand so tight that it is becoming numb and in the back of my head I keep repeating the same words over and over again. "To my dear princess, I want you to know that I love you, ALL OF YOU, and I always will. I am committed to our you until death does us part. At times, in moments of deep frustration, I may have questioned otherwise, but that was my immature way of seeking love from you when I should have been looking for you to fill the void in my temporarily wandering heart. Beloved, I know I have hurt you countless times with my words and actions, and for all of them, I sincerely and humbly ask for your forgiveness. Since my heart was made to fit with your, I long for you even when my heart is broken, even when I feel so hurt by your actions or lack thereof that my heart feels frozen, I still long for you. I have pondered this many times, and I have come to realize tha
We all know that our time in this world is limited and that eventually, all of us will end up underneath some sheet, never to wake up. And yet, it is always a surprise when it happens to someone we know. It is like walking up the stairs to your bedroom in the dark and thinking there is one more stair than there is. When someone you love dies, and you're not expecting it, you don't lose them all at once; you lose them in pieces over a long time, the way the mail stops coming, and their scent fades from the pillows and even from the clothes in the closet and drawers. Gradually, you accumulate the parts of them that are gone. Just when the day comes, when there's a particular missing part that overwhelms you with the feeling that they are gone, forever, there comes another day and another specifically missing part. This has made me realize once again how precious life is. It has made me realize that you can do everything in your own power to protect the person you love,
Two feelings come to mind as the Doctor gently lays his hand on my shoulder. Strangely the very first to come to mind is love.Yet, then there is the place that is created for a great monster that can take hold of your heart and twist it in directions that the mind will be tormented at. This, my dear friend, is none other than fear.A good man once said, expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, the fear shrinks, and vanishes and you are free.There are two basic motivating forces: fear and love. When we are afraid, we pull back from life. When we are in love, we open to all that life has to offer with passion, excitement, and acceptance. We need to learn to love ourselves first, in all our glory and our imperfections. If we cannot love ourselves, we cannot fully open to our ability to love others or our potential to create.The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our he
This must be an awful nightmare. Am I seriously getting arrested at my own wedding? Someone better kick me and tell me this is one fucked up joke. I can seriously not be getting arrested at my own wedding. What have I done? Stupid question, more like what did I not do. How would they even know? But I am afraid it is not a joke because they are coming closer and they sure do have a set of handcuffs in their hand. There is a damn room full of mafia bosses, why the fuck can't they arrest one of them. Raven is going to kill me even before I get locked up. But hey, maybe I should act dumb and they will think they have the wrong man, ”Sorry but you need to repeat that.” We said you are under arrest, Mr. King.” “You do see that I am busy getting married?” “We apologize Sir but you have to come with us.” Then from next to me, a shocked Raven speaks for the first time, “Just wait one fucking minute!” “I am sorry Mam but your husband has
…Raven POV…The time has come for me to turn the corner. The time has come for me to make my bridal walk towards the man that I will be spending the rest of my life with. This is the very last moment that I can still decide to do this and turn around and run. But as I peek my head around to where he is standing at the altar, I know that I am exactly where I want to be.With a very nervous Ava behind me, I am being urged on to make my bridal walk down a carpet that is covered with, yes, much to Hunter's horror; it is covered in pink rose petals.But first Ava pulls at my hair and checks my dress, and I have a quick look at my make-up. Ava then looks at me, "Now let us get this wedding on the way."I take one step forward and then another, short and hesitant, but slowly to my future. Then the wedding march starts playing, and I know that it is time to go. So I slip in that corning in absolute elegance.At first, my eyes lie low, too sca
…Raven POV…What I feared has happened, Ava has dragged me into her room just before sunrise to start getting me ready for a wedding that is only happening in eight hours. By the looks of her, it seems that she has not slept a wink. So I refrain from making any comments and allow her to pull at my head in every direction to get the perfect do that, as she says, will complement my face and, of course, my dress.After what seems like at least three hours, she looks at me very satisfied in the mirror and nod at her creation.Next is my wedding dressing, now if I thought that this would be easier, well, it is an understatement. If it is not bad enough that they cannot tuck my breasts in properly, which seems to have grown overnight, they try to move my belly into the perfect spot.With only but an hour two spare, they slip into their dresses, and we look at each other, then of course she says something, and there goes my make-up down my face.
Before sunset tomorrow, I will be married to the love of my life. To say that I am not a wreck would be a complete understatement.I do believe that I have told this once before, yet, again, I need to stop for one moment and take a step back, for, beyond all the craziness that fill our lives, I need to allow myself to remember what drives me. What makes this all worthwhile is the beauty that lies in my arms. Should I not have had her presence in my life, I would not have had the sheer willpower to take the impossible on.To have beauty in your life is easy, but to have the beauty of the woman that you love and the one that loves you in return is the greatest gift that one can experience. I can, with all honesty, say that there is no doubt that she completes my life. To be lonely for eternity can be seen as a life sentence, but having what you crave, is the greatest blessing.I have never been more assured to have chosen her to be mine for life. I will promise he
After we bid our farewell to everyone, my intention is to retire to my room and not to leave it at least for another day. And I do see the same sentiment on my princess's face. But what I also noticed is that cheeky smile that is starting to rise at the corner of her lips. In such a strange time, I become aware of her arousal."Princess, I do believe that you possess somewhat of a dilemma...""Hunter.""Yes, Princess?""You shall possess your own dilemma if you wish to continue your sentence."So it is in awe as I watch her make elegant strides as she ascends the stairs. She moves every curve to perfect precision, her hips rock from side to side, and it peaks my arousal. I have to fight the desire to pull her back and take her right at this very moment. I can so easily push her petite frame into this very wall that is presenting itself at the perfect timing, and that is exactly what I intend on doing.It is as if an animal is awakened inside
This engagement party has got me stressed. Why I let my princess convince me to do this, is beyond my senses. Everyone is running around like a bunch of crazy people.But let us forget about the people running around like crazy people, that perky ass has been running up and down past me this whole morning, and every time she does fuck! I get hard. But wait...the little minx is not even wearing panties.The girl is driving me crazy.I so seriously want to slap that ass for making me so very frustrated.But...then she comes walking up to me."Hey.""Hey, princess. What is wrong, well apart from you lacking underwear? Did you run out of fresh ones?""No, I just love how the cool air blows against me.""God, give me ten minutes, and I will blow more than cool air against you.""Hunter!""Princess, the next time that skirt flares, I am pinning you on that table.""Well..."Fuck...when Raven says, well, she is about to get her way...Or she already has.
Today is the day. It might as well be my wedding day, for I feel that I am near damn going to faint. So Raven slammed me back with a condition of her own. If I want to get married, then she wants to have some dreadful engagement party. Well, I think I am nearly going to die; for a second time, I need to go down on my knee and ask her for her hand in marriage. So, while she is running around for what is the fifth dress to wear now, I sit in a silent chuckle as I find it rather amusing. Now all of them are all white; the first thing she so kindly pointed out to me is that you get different shades of white; well, that does not seem obvious to me at all. The second thing is that my blue shirt is not matching her white dress. Now I should have never asked her if it is the right kind of white, for I had some kind of white stilettos come flying my way. "Princess, how much longer are you going to take?" "Just give me five more minutes." So patiently t
I have been standing outside of Raven’s room, waiting. I don’t know if she knows that I am here, but I guess by the nervous pacing that she has a good idea that I am lingering outside here.Ya, I fucking love the woman.But she is now driving me insane. She, exactly in Mason’s words, threw a total tantrum when she had realized that I had left, and she knew there was only one place that I went.Now, I have a temper that will come out when you have tested me beyond my patience. Yet, I can control it to a certain extent, the extent being when it is not Raven that is involved. But this woman throws a tantrum as if she gets fucking paid for it.It is complete bullshit.So, my patience is up, and I am about to enter this room whether or not she likes it.With nothing but a very determined and angry hand, I fling the door open, I have Raven in my face trying to squeeze past.“Oh no, you are not princess. I am not Maso
So next, I find myself sneak out the front door without Mason taking note of me disappearing out of the gates in my car; as I make my way in the drizzle of the night, I find my way navigating the streets towards my destination, the street lights are falling in shadows down a very ominous path. There is absolute silence, but only for the roar of the engine that echoes over the pitter-patter of the raindrops beating onto the sidewalk. There is a danger that is lurking here. There is a danger that is hiding in the shadows that is ready to step out and destroy what is in its path. That danger is me.It does not take very long for my destination to appear.Have I gone fucking insane once again?I think I have lost my sanity the first time I ever laid these lips on Raven Sloane.Yet, I am not done fighting for her, not tonight, not tomorrow, not ever.So, I am finding myself stopped in front of a gate; from what I can see, it is quiet, do I even wi