It is 11 AM.
Raven has fallen back into darkness
I am holding her hand so tight that it is becoming numb and in the back of my head I keep repeating the same words over and over again.
"To my dear princess,
I want you to know that I love you, ALL OF YOU, and I always will. I am committed to our you until death does us part. At times, in moments of deep frustration, I may have questioned otherwise, but that was my immature way of seeking love from you when I should have been looking for you to fill the void in my temporarily wandering heart.
Beloved, I know I have hurt you countless times with my words and actions, and for all of them, I sincerely and humbly ask for your forgiveness. Since my heart was made to fit with your, I long for you even when my heart is broken, even when I feel so hurt by your actions or lack thereof that my heart feels frozen, I still long for you.
I have pondered this many times, and I have come to realize tha
We all know that our time in this world is limited and that eventually, all of us will end up underneath some sheet, never to wake up. And yet, it is always a surprise when it happens to someone we know. It is like walking up the stairs to your bedroom in the dark and thinking there is one more stair than there is. When someone you love dies, and you're not expecting it, you don't lose them all at once; you lose them in pieces over a long time, the way the mail stops coming, and their scent fades from the pillows and even from the clothes in the closet and drawers. Gradually, you accumulate the parts of them that are gone. Just when the day comes, when there's a particular missing part that overwhelms you with the feeling that they are gone, forever, there comes another day and another specifically missing part. This has made me realize once again how precious life is. It has made me realize that you can do everything in your own power to protect the person you love,
Two feelings come to mind as the Doctor gently lays his hand on my shoulder. Strangely the very first to come to mind is love.Yet, then there is the place that is created for a great monster that can take hold of your heart and twist it in directions that the mind will be tormented at. This, my dear friend, is none other than fear.A good man once said, expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, the fear shrinks, and vanishes and you are free.There are two basic motivating forces: fear and love. When we are afraid, we pull back from life. When we are in love, we open to all that life has to offer with passion, excitement, and acceptance. We need to learn to love ourselves first, in all our glory and our imperfections. If we cannot love ourselves, we cannot fully open to our ability to love others or our potential to create.The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our he
…Raven POV… I have one endless dream playing over and over in my head as I am lying here. Barely being able to move, let alone open my eyes to speak to the man that is holding my hands dear to his chest. The same memory, over and over it plays in my head. Only Hunter consuming my mind. Last night was torture as he ran circles through my mind as I sought the comfort of my bed. Never has one man consumed my dreams in total ecstasy yet bringing me pain at the very same time. I could almost feel my delicate fingers running down his sculpted chest. So with what can only be described as endless hours, I have been counting the seconds as they crawled in anticipation, I find myself waiting for him. I have never felt so much nervousness creep up my spine. My heart will simply fall into an abyss if I cannot see again. He has become my now, my present; he is the driving force that will determine what I do next. Then I see him... He takes a lock of my hai
In a strange way, I feel calm, it has taken eight days of touch and go, but she seems to be okay, and she will stay okay. That is the only thing I needed to hear from the Doctor today.But first, I know of a little woman that needs a good spanking, for she has just slapped me on my ass. Before she even knows what I am doing, I throw her over my shoulder and start to carry her out of the kitchen to the bedroom. She kicks and wiggles as best as she can, but I hold her firmly in place."Hunter." She softly whispers. "Put me down.""Sorry, I cannot do that."She squirms, and she moans, "I have two feet. I can walk.""Nah,” I only but chuckle, “I am not letting you get away."I take her into the room and drop her down onto the bed. Her body bounces, and she nearly falls off from the side. I go to catch her, and I lay down comfortably next to her."I love you, but for slapping my ass..." I pull her closer into my arms, "Now plea
…Raven POV… Do I know what I am doing? Not the slightest bit at all. Can I answer Hunter’s question? No. So causing a much-needed diversion, I take Hunter's hand, I slide it up my thigh, slipping his fingers under the seams of my dress, his other hand gripping tight onto my waist. My hand is moving up his leg, my fingers gently grazing his hard length. His body is trembling as he moves his hand further under my skirt. I am becoming a wet mess, my body aching for him to be between my legs He spins me around and pushes my chest hard into the wall, pinning my hands firm above my head. He is grinding his aching groin deep into my ass. He scrunches up my dress and shoves the material all the way up to my waist. When he catches a glimpse of my naked ass, a groan escapes his lips. Then, all at once, there is nothing else in my universe but Hunter kissing, touching, biting, and exploring every inch of my body with his mouth, his tongue
I find myself staring deep into those sparkling brown eyes. "Raven, I know now that no matter where we find ourselves in our lives, at the present moments, that we have always been destined to be together." Then as a tear appear in the corner of her eyes and starts rolling down her cheek, I gently wipe it away and lean in closer, "Thank you for coming back. I think, yet I know, that I would simply have died if I did not see you walking through that door." She only but chuckles at me and pull my lips closer, "I love you." And with that, I hand her, and yes, it is white, and it is folded in a square. "Oh god no!" she utters in complete surprise. "Not a damn envelope." As I shove it gently in her hand, I only but smile, "This one you will like." So goes quiet and looks at me for a brief moment, then slowly, yet cautiously, she starts opening the now. And as I watch her form the words on her lips, it gives me great satisfaction. "R
…Raven POV… This morning when I woke up, you had already left for training with the boys. I so wished that you just had stayed one little while longer so that we could figure this thing out that is hanging in the air between us. How is it that there is always something throw in our way of happiness? I know that if I say this, then I am being selfish and what I am about even to ask, yet, even more, say is perhaps being worse than plain damn nasty. As you left this morning, I began to think about the way things were when we first met. We were so much in love; then, we couldn't wait to get to each other to tell each other everything that happened that day. I remember how we were both so interested in all the little details of our daily stories and how we would laugh over the smallest thing. The simplest meal was a feast to us, and we needed very little to make us happy. We usually spent our evenings at home chitchatting, cuddling, and making love
…Raven POV…Faith is about believing. You don't know how it will happen, but it will happen.Hunter is sitting next to me, holding my hand so tight that it is becoming numb. He has dozed off and looks so peaceful as he is sleeping. I do not want to wake him up; he has not had a decent night's rest in what seems to be ages. He stays up every night, every day; he is awake almost every waking moment looking after me. He needs these few moments.I am writing this letter as a token of my love to him, as a keepsake for him to treasure, and as a reminder of my commitment to us and to our life together."To my dear love,I want you to know that I love you, ALL OF YOU, and I always will. I am committed to our marriage until death does us part. At times, in moments of deep frustration, I may have questioned otherwise, but that was my immature way of seeking love from you when I should have been looking for you to fill the void in my temporarily