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Fear Filled Love
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2024-10-29 19:42:56Two feelings come to mind as the Doctor gently lays his hand on my shoulder. Strangely the very first to come to mind is love.
Yet, then there is the place that is created for a great monster that can take hold of your heart and twist it in directions that the mind will be tormented at. This, my dear friend, is none other than fear.
A good man once said, expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, the fear shrinks, and vanishes and you are free.
There are two basic motivating forces: fear and love. When we are afraid, we pull back from life. When we are in love, we open to all that life has to offer with passion, excitement, and acceptance. We need to learn to love ourselves first, in all our glory and our imperfections. If we cannot love ourselves, we cannot fully open to our ability to love others or our potential to create.
The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our he
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