CHAPTER 12 - YOU HAVE A DELIVERY

ASHER'S POV

Today is an unusually free day for me, it happens once in a blue moon and all I want to do is to relax at home... I just want to rest and maybe even sleep. Although I doubt that I will get any sleep today, it hasn't been so easy staying at home and that's why I work a lot just to distract myself, I mean every part of this house reminds me of my late wife and it's fucking torture.

But when I am at work, I hardly remember her. Whenever I am at home, I feel guilty for falling in love with Nicole when my wife only just died but I can't help myself and everything is so fucking confusing. I don't know how to feel, when I am happy, I feel guilty for being happy, everything is just messed up.

"Shit, I am doing it again." I promise myself that I will try to enjoy my break and not think about Sarah but here I am doing it again. "Damn."

I sat in the living room and I started looking for a movie to watch but before I could even decide, someone stepped into the house. "Aaron, when are you going to learn to knock?" I asked without even looking at who came in... Aaron is the only person I know who walks into my house without calling first or knocking.

"When you start locking the door."

"Touche." I need to learn to lock my door because it could have been anyone else.

"Why are you even here this early." I just wanted to rest and with him around, that won't be possible.

"Well you have been fucking scarce since Sarah and we have not had time to talk, so I decided to come and spend the day with you when you said you are free today." He is right.

After I lost Sarah, I just needed a form of distraction from everything, so I buried myself in work. It is much more easier to spend my whole day in prison with my patients and especially Nicole than to be in this lonely empty house that reminds me of Sarah.

"Yeah, I have been very busy lately." I have actually been meaning to see him, I need someone to talk to about Nicole. "I actually wanted to discuss something with you."

"Alright I am all ears."

"I am in love with my patient and I feel horrible about it." I blurted out.

"I don't know why you feel horrible but I am actually happy and curious. I am glad that you are not drowning yourself in alcohol and tears over what happened with Sarah."

"Look I am serious man, I just lost Sarah and it's not even up to two months, yet I am lusting over another woman. Does that not mean that I am a horrible person?" This situation has been eating me up and I just want to figure it out.

I am obviously crazy about Nicole, she fascinates and excites me but I feel guilty about it , it obviously not the right time to fall for another woman but I can't help myself.

"Okay I get where you are coming from but the fact that you are interested in someone else doesn't make you a horrible person. It's normal for people to moves on you, besides you have suffered so much with everything that happened with Sarah and the fact that you are trying to move on is actually a good thing. In fact I think Sarah will want you to move on instead of brooding, so relax man." He might have a point but I don't know.

"Well if you say so but I feel weird about the whole situation."

"Relax man, it's not that deep. Now tell me about this lady." He said as he got up and went to the bar to grab a bottle of whiskey.

"Her name is Nicole and she's my patient." I said casually like that explains everything.

"Wait, the last time I checked, you work at the prison. Have you started attending to other people apart from prisoners like I suggested?" He asked curiously.

He and Sarah are not exactly in support of me giving therapy at the prison but I insisted and they kept advising that I take other clients as well but with the number of patients I have at the prison, there is no room for more.

"No, I am still working at the prison."

"Wow this is getting rather interesting." He sat down and poured us drinks and I took a sip immediately. "So this patient of yours is an inmate, as in you are dating an inmate?" I don't know why but calling Nicole an inmate doesn't sit well with me.

"Don't call her that Aaron, yes I know that she's in prison right now but she's not like the rest. Nicole has been through a lot and I am fascinated by her resilience and everything about her. She is unique, smart, beautiful and very confident." I am not even trying to hype her, she's actually all these things and more.

"Wow that's impressive but it doesn't change the fact that she's in prison, I mean she was locked up for a reason right which means she's not that special. I like the fact that you are trying to move on but I will rather prefer that you date someone that is out here with you, someone that can be available for you and someone that won't threaten your license because if someone finds out that you are dating an inmate who is also your patient, it can ruin your life literally." Aaron advised while looking worried.

I understand why is worried and I am worried as well but I can't really help it, I am crazy about her and all I can do is to hope that no one finds out while I try to convince her to get out of prison and we can finally be free to date.

"I understand your worries and I am worried too but Nicole is not like other people, she's very special. If only I can tell you the things she has been through, then you will see just how special she is but I can't say anything because of doctor patient confidentiality... And she's not in jail because she's such a bad person, infact she's in prison right now because she wants to."

"What do you mean by that, why would someone want to be in jail?" I wish I can tell him but I can't. Nicole and I have had so many conversations and I can't remember the ones that was said during therapy or after therapy and I really don't want to say something I shouldn't.

"I can't tell you man but that's for you to know that she's different." I said just as there was a knock on the door.

I haven't received a visitor in months, the only person that visits is Aaron and knocking has never been his forte besides he is here right now.

"Hi, are you Asher Beckham?" The guy at the door asked immediately I opened the door, I think he is a delivery guy.

"Yes, I am."

"You have a delivery, please sign here." I signed quickly.

The delivery guy handed me a big box and I entered inside, I don't know what's in it or who it's from but I am fucking curious.

"Wow, you ordered something?" Aaron asked the moment I returned.

"No, I didn't. I don't even know who sent it." I said as I put it on the coffee table.

I opened it and I saw a breakfast platter and when I say platter, I mean every breakfast food you can think of is here and I also saw a black envelope.

"Oh wow, this is exactly what we need." Aaron said as he carried a sausage and he started eating.

"How can you eat when we have no idea who sent it." I chastised.

"Well then open the envelope, I am hungry."

I opened the envelope and I saw two tickets and a note. "This is a ticket to classic vintage." I gave them to Aaron before I opened the note, I am even more curious as to who sent this.

"What ? is this not that vintage car tour company that gives tour of all the exclusive cars and they will even let you test drive it?"

"Exactly and we have been trying to go there in forever but the tickets are fucking hard to get." It has been on my to do list because Aaron and I are crazy about cars but with how scarce the tickets are and everything that happened with Sarah, I haven't really had the time.

"Wow, today just became fun. Whoever sent this really knows you and is obviously well connected, we need to go on time because we have to have maximum fun and the longer we can stay there, the better." He said excitedly.

I am really excited too, my little holiday is looking very promising... I opened the note and the first word written on the note, gave the person away and it put a big smile on my face.

"It's from Nicole, how is this even possible?"