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Twenty two
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2020-12-15 18:24:00Alyssa pov
I don't care what Micah told me, he is hiding something from me. I don't know what but I know that it must be big since he needs to keep it from me. Micah don't keep anything from me. For crying out loud, he told me about his first kiss and when he was deflowered. We are that close. Not that there was any doubt.
Our first subject for the day its English, Micah favorite class before and when I mean before, I mean before he started to get all weird and everything. Now any time there is a class, his shoulders gets tense not that it is noticeable that much but I am his best friend, I know all his little tells. I wish he would just tell me what is wrong for God sakes. I hate being kept in the dark then again the reason could be that it is because of the girl he loves. I know that I haven't been very supportive or calm when it comes to her but still there is no other explanation. I don't know why but my heart is tel
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Love Letter Thirty eight
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Love Letter Thirty seven
Micah povApparently, kissing in front of your friends and those who you went to high school with is not enough to convince people anymore that you are in a relationship with your best friend.Granted, it was me and Alyssas fault for always coming up with crazy schemes and being too close outside. It was annoying enough to Jake wanted Alyssa but it was nothing compare to the girls who me and Alyssa went to school with as they all, all of a sudden wanted to hang out with me. Alyssa was not a happy camper at the attention which they paid to me.You know that you look cute when you pout. I teased Alyssa to get her mind off the fact that we were invited to go for a party tomorrow and in Jake home nevertheless.You know, you ought not to annoy me especially since I am in a bad mood. Alyssa retorted as I sighed.I let go of the trash bag in my hand as we were in the process of cleaning the la
