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2024-10-29 19:42:56Alyssa pov.
My nerves was all jumbled together on my way here, even as I stand outside Micah home, on the sidewalk I still didn't understand what I was feeling. I was not comfortable in my own skin. It felt like there was an itch inside my skin and that I can't reach it, I have a nagging thought that something important was happening today but I didn't know what. It was getting hard in just ignoring what I am feeling. I wish I could ignore it but I can't.
I took in a deep breath and released it, repeated the exercise a few more times before I decided I was ready to go face Micah. He might have hurt my feelings but I refuse to let my mind dwell on that. I will not allow my attitude to get the best of me. I will be there for him because I know that he will be there for me too.
As I turned to move towards the door, that was how the doo
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