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2022-01-21 22:47:14"Oh, hey Matt." Devon suddenly appeared by the door with a bunch of flowers and pizza. I can smell that it was Hawaiin flavor. I hate pineapples on pizza. Damn. But Devon's arrival couldn't have been more perfectly timed.
I smiled at him and said "Hey baby, is that Pizza?! Oh thank goodness, I'm already starving, you know how hospital food tastes like."
"I know, and since you have been feeling better I know you'd want something to eat so I brought your favorite." he said.
"Thanks baby, good thing also that Matthew was still here to keep me company. It was so nice of him. Would you like to join us Matt?"
Matthew looked at me intently and said, "No thanks, I better go meet my sisters at the house, they must be panicking right now."
I looked at him straight in the eyes and said, "When I get out of here, we should probably hang out and catch up."
"Yes, I would like that." Matthew said solemnly. He stood up and tapped Devon on the sho
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