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2024-10-29 19:42:56After the emotionally charged afternoon with Cassidy, I never felt closer to her than today. It was as if something has changed in her, I felt a deep connection with her than I have ever had. Cassidy was always like a best friend to me, she is a great listener, caring, and open unlike Hannah that to her death has kept so many secrets from me, not that I can blame her. With Hannah, though I have felt forever in her, but I walked out on her because it was too much for me. We were too close too soon. We don't need words but the deep, profound feelings I felt for her are always there. Somehow, today, it seemed like what I felt with Cassidy has transcended to something much more. My feelings for both her and Hannah combined, that's what I felt in my heart right now.
We are walking down the hall towards the parking lot, holding hands and I felt like I needed to clear the air with her as to what happened the last night. "Hey Cass, I'm so sorry about last night, I must admit, Hannah
Kelly LouisThere was too much horror and heaviness in this novel that I felt the need to convey to you that as much as shit happens, true love transcends everything even death. This is such a bittersweet moment for Devon and Hannah and this is a special chapter for me. I felt goosebumps writing this and I hope you felt the emotions that I was trying to get across.
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