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50. Overflowing of heart
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2024-10-29 19:42:56Clarissa did not immediately reply to Arlon's words. Her heart began to feel full. And she remembered Adimasta. She felt she wanted the slanted, bespectacled boy to be near her and comfort her.
"Honey, life goes on. I want to find my purpose in life. With my wife and son now, things are different. I feel complete." Arlon looked at Clarissa. He also wanted Clarissa to understand herself and not just look at the past.
"Complete? If I go in, I'll be a nuisance!" Clarissa's voice started to rise.
"That's not true," Arlon argued. "You are my pretty princess. Whatever with me, nothing will change."
"The invisible princess," Clarissa said in an annoyed tone.
"It was my fault. I'm sorry, Clarissa. I thought you were fine. Because you are a strong girl." Arlon tried to explain what he was thinking.
"Strong? Twelve years old girl, seeing her daddy and mommy part with a never-ending fight? Then she was being left alone. Even though mommy was with me, I
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