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41. The Heart is Exploding
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2024-10-29 19:42:56Arriving at the boarding house, Clarissa took a quick shower and threw her body on the bed. She felt so tired after a long journey to Yenny's place. Her head felt dizzy and heavy. There was nothing else she wanted to do, but sleeping. While her eyes were closed, Clarissa's mind was still spinning. She remembered everything she went through on the way.
"I'm really annoyed ... I want a boyfriend who is gentle, patient, likes to smile with me. Give me a sudden surprise ..." Adimasta's words rang in Clarissa's ears.
It was what Adimasta expected from the person he called a girlfriend. While the girlfriend he had ...
"I'm not going to force you to be as I want to ... I will still love you ... as you are ..." These words also appeared in Clarissa's head.
"Adi ..." Clarissa said quietly, then she fell asleep.
The next morning Clarissa woke up. She looked at the clock on the wall in her room. Her eyes squinted to make sure the clock was working properly. C
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