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Chapter 29: No Interest in Living
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2024-10-29 19:42:56“DO YOU want to die?” I read that on a leaflet I got when I got out of the hospital after sending mom to the hospital because she had a heart attack.
I bit my lip and smiled bitterly as I remembered what I’d read. Do I want to die? Why? Do I still have the right to live?
As the torrential rain poured down on the city, I could feel tears welling up in my eyes. I want to be hit by a car, but I don’t want to disturb anyone because I’m planning to commit suicide. I want to leap from a lofty structure, but I don’t want my blood and flesh to scatter in various places, making the cleanup process complicated. I wanted to stab myself ten times just to feel the anguish, but I was afraid of blood and blades.
I just sighed and stared up at the dark sky. There are no stars, moons, or other celestial bodies visible in the atmosphere, but absolute darkness. The weather was pleasant, sympathizing with my pain and sorrow.
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