LILLY'S POV
I can't believe what Ivan has just told me about Jenny. How could she be capable of something so evil? I know that Ivan hurt me, but I couldn't have done that to him, maybe it's just because he is my mate. I know that she didn't want to marry him, but to kill him. Knowing the repercussions for this are going to be so bad. How do I even begin to even tell Landon?
He's going to get so angry as soon as the words escape my lips. I want to avoid lying to him. I want to tell him the truth of what I just heard. I then think maybe it is better if I just keep it to myself for now. I need to find Sam, so I can figure all this out. I don't want Ivan to leave I don't know if he is safe, I know that I shouldn't care, but I do.
As Ivan is sitting on my bed, I see the pain in his eyes, I can tell he is terrified. I want to comfort him,, but I don't know how. The feelings I have for him are only because of the mate bond. I walk over to him and sit beside him o
I jump up and wrap my arms around him with tears coming out of my eyes, I know that he can tell something is wrong. "Ivan we need to go, something has happened I was wrong and Landon lied to me that your pack was attacked I'm so sorry.""Who answered when you called?""A woman I think she was your mother she told me that Sam is dying. I can save him. But she wouldn't tell me where she was, she wanted to talk to you first."As I watch tears fill his eyes, I feel so sorry for him he then says nothing. I know we have little time to come up with a plan. I can see that he still is weak, and he might even be afraid. I hear Star Lilly he needs his mate to connect with him even if it's a hug, hold on to him and only think about healing him.I don't hesitate, I wrap my arms around him and hold on to him so tight like I'm never going to let him go. It feels amazing the feeling that he makes my body feel, but my mind is far away from what my body feels. I'm so confu
I am so frustrated with Ivan right now. I just want to smack him. He made me believe that Sam was in real danger. He could have told me that Sam was fine. I was so worried. That he was dying when in reality he is just fine damn it Ivan."Why wouldn't you tell me that it was a code that Sam was okay Ivan, damn it I was terrified.""Lilly, if I had told you, then you wouldn't have wanted to be with me. I needed to fully heal, and I knew that if I had told you the truth, that you wouldn't have let me fuck you."Hating him but listening to him talking about us fucking has my pussy getting wet for him again. God, I hate this fucking mate bond. It is too much to handle. God, I could take him again right here, right now, fuck. I focus on my anger instead of trying to control myself."Damn Ivan you can't just let me chose to be with you, instead you have to trick me to be,""Lilly, really, you wouldn't have touched me if you knew that Sam was fine, you wou
LANDON'S POVAs the Rouge takes off through the woods, I go after him trying to find which direction the rouge went in damn it I can't allow him to escape. It terrifies me that he saw what Lilly is capable of. She doesn't realize how much danger she just put herself in. I'm grateful that she helped,, but I'm worried now that she may be targeted.I have never ran so fast in such desperation in my life, the need to protect her is so strong she should have waited until there was no one that would be able to see what she was capable of. She doesn't understand she needs to keep her ability to herself to keep herself out of danger. I knew this would happen. Damn it, what is going to happen if I can't catch him.I don't even know why they would have even targeted my pack, just because of the fact we keep to ourselves we don't bother others. We don't have enemies, they could easily wipe My pack out there's few of us. It makes no sense that Ivan's pack was just targeted
IVAN'S POVHe wants me to go and listen to what his father is talking about, I feel that it is a trap. That he wants to get me killed, so he can have Lilly all to himself. I don't blame him, she is perfect, I would want to get rid of any competition also.As I get closer to his father, I notice that the rouge we were chasing approaches him and bowls down to him. Anger begins to fill my body, knowing that he has something to do with all that has happened, but why.He looks at the rouge, "did you accomplish what needed to be done, did you kill that she wolf and her mate that betrayed me.""Of course there is no way of them surviving, but your son came after us and a she wolf I'm not sure her name they killed Tony. There was one other wolf that was there, I forget his name, but I know that he was supposed to be dead.""So did everything go as planned? Did Landon follow you out here, did you lead him away from his pack?""Of course I did, he was
LILLY'S POVAs I watch Landon and Ivan take off, I'm worried. Are they going to let their ego get in the way of what needs to be done? I'm flattered that Landon wants to protect me at all cost. But there was no way that they saw me. I was discreet about it, I tried to be, anyway. I tried to make it look like I was just a concerned pack member checking on them.I help Jasmine to her feet, knowing that she is confused to how she is still alive. I can see fear in her eyes. Then all of sudden I hear a whistle confused and I say out aloud “what is that noise?”She looks at me as tears fill her eyes, she says with a shaky voice, “We are getting ready to be attacked.”“Fuck ok, I need to get you to safety.” A strength overcomes me that I never knew I had, I pick up Jasmine and take her to Landon's house. As little Jayden comes running over as we get into the door.“Lilly, what is going on the whistle went of
It has been a couple of days since the attack. Ivan has left, and Landon hasn't spoken to anyone since the memorial services of all those that we lost. I've been trying to give Landon time. I'm wondering if he blames me for the lives that I couldn't save.I want to talk to him, but I don't know how. He is so full of anger that I don't want him to take it out on me. I've been assisting all the wolves that have lost their loved ones. Doing little chores here and there. Helping the mothers take care of their children, trying to explain to them what has happened.Many wolves lost their mates. There is so much heartbreak that I don't know how to cure it all. The pack has lost the light. Now we are all just full of darkness. They need their leader to come forward and guide them. But he won't even leave his house. I know that he blames himself for all of this. Or maybe he blames me because he left his pack to protect me.Ivan said that he would be back, but he didn't s
As the sun is beaming in my eyes, I have no way of escaping it. I come to the exception that it is just time to wake up. As I sit up in bed and I reached my arms out to stretch. I then notice Landon is still sleeping. I'm surprised that he stayed over. I can't help but stare at him, he is so handsome. I want to just snuggle into his smoking hot body, but I decide to get a shower instead. I Want to look my best when he wakes up.I try to get out of bed as discreetly as possible, so I do not wake him. I tiptoe to the bathroom, trying not to make a lot of noise. I then shut the bathroom door, letting out a breath, knowing I can breathe now. Landon has been so stressed out with all that has been happening, allowing him to rest awhile longer won't hurt anything.I then walk over to the shower and turn the water on until I get it to the perfect temperature. I then begin to undress as I look in the mirror. I see my growing stomach realizing I'm going to be a mother soon. I am
I'm not sure what he is about to tell me, I'm hoping that it is good and not bad. I really just wanted to enjoy my breakfast, but I have a feeling that he is about to ruin it. Just by looking at his face, I know that whatever he is about to say, it is not going to be good.He then starts to talk as he is nervous. "You know how my pack is broken, and I would do anything to protect them.""Landon I know how important your pack is, we will figure something out together, I promise.""The thing is, Lilly , I already figured it out with Ivan, but there were terms that had to be followed.""Landon, what did you do?""I promised him you.""What you promised him me, I'm not an object you can just give to someone.""I'm sorry Lilly, I had no other choice. We need to come together as a pack. He made his terms very clear to me. I can't have any involvement with you from here on out.""No What about Jayden, I love you.""Lilly there
Six months have passed since we escaped hell. Life is finally beginning to feel normal. Which makes me feel terrified. I never wanted to leave Alaska where my family was from, where I was raised. But I knew I had no other choice. We had to escape to a place where wolves were almost seemed non-existing.I wanted to go back for Landon. I wanted to save him no matter the cost, if it was just me. I would have died for him, but knowing that it would have risked Jayden's life, I wasn't willing to do so. I hate that he's not here. I wanted to drop hints for him, so he would know where to go. But I knew that I couldn't risk anyone else figuring the clues out. I know that Jayden misses him. I miss him too.We figured out that other wolves didn't sense us. Usually, a wolf can tell when another person is a wolf, but because of Jayden and I having healing powers. We go unnoticeable. It makes it easy for us to live in a human world. We know that our old life will catch up with us eventually, but f
As we make our way to the door to the podium, Mary stops us. I look at her with so much anger and disappointment, I tell her, “please let us go. I want to avoid hurting you, but I will do whatever is necessary to protect us.”“They threatened to kill all of us. I thought one life for hundreds would be acceptable. I'm so sorry.”“You tied him up to a bed.”“He wouldn't stop trying to escape. I had no other choice.”“That's the thing, Mary, you had a choice, but you made the wrong one.”I want to rip her head off, but before I have time to, I feel a little hand tugging on my side. “Lilly, I know grandma made a mistake, but she's not bad, she just made a bad choice.”He's so innocent. I feel so bad knowing what is going to have to be done, and he's so little. Can he bear it? Will he forgive me for what I'm going to have to do? I don't want to take the chance of us being captured. It's time to kill them all.“Jayden, some things are unforgiven when you do something so terrible.”“Lilly, j
I refuse to lose any more people that I care about. If I can get Jayden and Landon out of here, then I won't have to worry about them. I will know that they are free. I may never see them again, but at least they will be able to live. They cannot stay here. I cannot have a distraction. I need my head clear. If I'm worried about them, that I won’t be capable of doing whatever is necessary.I didn't want to resort to violence. I didn't want to kill people, especially people of my own kind. I just don't know what other choice there is anymore. I just want all of this to end. I don't want to live a life running. I want to enjoy life and everything it has to offer. I know what I have to do, and it makes me sick, but I don't think there are any other options. I quickly snap out of my thoughts as I hear Sam's voice, “Lilly, I will not follow any of your demands. You will do what you're told, or I will kill Jayden.A fire lights up inside me as those words leave his mouth. Something happens
I stand there in disbelief. No, this can't be right, he looks nothing like. Sam, how can it be him? Star said it was our mate. I thought me not feeling for him was because of the hate that is deep inside me for him. I thought it overpowered the bond and turned it into nothing. But I was wrong, I felt nothing because this is not my mate. How could I be so stupid?“Sam, what is going on? Why do you look like Ivan?”“Oh Lilly, how easy you are to fool. You're just like your mate.”I watch as he peels his face. It is so disgusting as He removes the skin piece by piece, I then begin to recognize that this is really Sam. Another person who has betrayed me, I know that I shouldn't be surprised, but I am. There's not a person who has not lied to me. It makes me angry and sad all at the same time.“Why would you do this, Sam? I thought you cared about me. I thought we were friends."?“Lilly, it's nothing personal, it's for power. They promised me to be the alpha of the wicked falls pack I've
I get out of their grip and stumble to my feet. I grab a hold of them and throw them to the ground like they weigh nothing. As my hand gets tighter around their throat, I can hear them gasp. Questioning if I should even give them a breath to speak.I then ask, “who are you and what do you want?” As I slowly release their throat enough for them to speak.“Please don't hurt me. I'm only doing my job. I didn't realize who you were until I already grabbed you.”“Who are you?”“I'm one of the watch Warriors of the pack, my name is Tye.”“There has been so much activity in the past couple of days that I didn't think I'm sorry. I didn't want to take a chance to endanger the pack.”“What do you mean increased activity, why wasn't I informed?”“There have been wolves trying to come into the pack. We are not sure why some seem harmless, but others seem dangerous. With all that has happened, we have not been allowing newcomers to join.”As I listen to him, I become irritated. I am the alpha. I s
I've been watching Mary, but she doesn't seem to mind she goes on about her business like nothing is happening I know her secret I'm just waiting for the perfect moment to strike Landon is getting well, and he will soon be back on his feet and he will want to leave to continue the search for Jayden. I wanted to take this chance to find Jayden, but I haven't gotten any farther than what I was. I want to tell Landon because maybe he will know of some hiding spots that Mary might have used. If anyone knows her, it would be Landon that knows her best. I think my biggest issue is I don't know how to tell Landon. I don't want to be the person who breaks his world. I don't want him to have to lose someone else he cares about. But I'm at the point now where I'm not sure if I have another option. I try so hard to stop thinking about everything, but I can't. All I really want to do is sleep, but I can't. My head is spinning. With all that has been happening, figuri
It has been almost a week since Landon has been home. He has been sleeping most of the time. His body is attempting to catch up on everything that it has lost. I've been working with Mary and I don't want to do what she wants me to do. She wants me to confirm Ivan as my mate and make him my second in command.I've been trying to put it off, but I'm not sure if I can any longer. I haven't even spoken to Ivan since that night. With Landon coming home, I've only been focusing on him. I haven't gotten very far figuring out about Jayden. I want to follow Mary. But every time she leaves, I can not pick up her scent to follow her. It frustrates me so much, but I try to hide it as best as I can.As I am getting ready for the day I am nervous that today is going to be the day when Mary makes me make everything official with Ivan. I've been putting it off, and I know that she is not going to let me put it off for very much longer. Not sure what my excuse is going to be this time
He pushes me inside his grip, making me feel uneasy. Everyone's staring, wondering what my move will be, but I do nothing. I let him push me to the bedroom, not knowing what he's about to say. I'm nervous. It has been almost a month since I have seen him last. I watch, I'm waiting to see his lips move, wanting to hear what he has to say. “Lilly, I have looked everywhere for him. I can't find him. He is gone.” I watch as he falls to his knees crying in despair, my heartbreaking for him. And my body builds up with anger, knowing that his mother is making him feel this way. I ran over to him and let him sob in my arms. Not knowing what to say, I know that I can't tell him what I know. If he found out that his mother had been behind all this, I'm not sure what he would do. “Landon, I'm so sorry that all this had to happen to you. I wish I could take away all your pain.” I feel bad for Landon, but I will not jeopardize saving Jayden just to make him fe
My senses have improved dramatically, but something else that I have noticed is my anger. I feel my blood boiling inside me. Trying so hard to control it, I don't want to blow my cover. I don't want Mary to know what I know. If she gets any idea that I am up to something, my plan could go very wrong. So wrong that I actually might kill her.She thinks the first move should be me naming my mate as my 2nd in command. Usually, packs have male alpha's and the females are their Luna. In this case, it's very much different, since the female is the alpha. I want to avoid making it official with Ivan. I don't love him. I'm aware that I should since he is my mate, and I'm met to be with him, but I feel nothing.I was always told once you find your mate that the bond is unbreakable. But the bond that I have is nothing. When I look at him, all