In a matter of seconds, we were surrounded by black men in suits holding guns and positioning themselves to protect us. All of this is happening so fast that I can't react quickly enough to process what's going on.
A different kind of excitement has infiltrated my system, causing my heart to race and my blood to boil. I have no idea what is going on, and this is my first time seeing anything like this, so why am I not scared?
I trembled, not out of fear, but in anticipation of what was to come. It is an excitement that outweighs all of my reservations and even fear.
Even though the backs of the men in front of us have obscured my vision, I can still see some of it. Especially since the stranger holding my hand pulled my hand and dragged me along, and then gunshots rang out in no time.
I flinch at the first sound and then adjust to it after a few seconds. While under the protection of the bodyguards, our movements maintain a relative speed.
"What's going on? Why are they fighting so suddenly?" I ask calmly, surprised that I'm too calm in this situation for someone who has only seen this kind of thing happen once.
The stranger looked at me as he held my hand and dragged me along. He's just as relaxed as I am, with no hint of pressure at all.
"You're calmer than I thought," he says, grinning. "I expected you to be terrified for a few moments."
I purse my lips, wondering the same thing he does about my lack of reaction. We keep our pace without difficulty as the men ahead of us clear our path.
Despite talking with him, my limited vision allows me to notice a lot of things in our surroundings. The sounds of gunfire are becoming increasingly audible with each passing second.
Surprisingly, no one is aiming at us. Or, at the very least, the commotion is concentrated in one location, and as we move away from the center, I am confident that our group is not directly involved in the fight.
Even the men surrounding us appear relaxed as if they are only on guard and not doing anything else.
"I also don't know why, I should be more scared, right?" I mean, that's the more logical reaction, but I'm not. Isn't there something seriously wrong with me?
We're now climbing the stairs; I didn't hear him respond and only heard him chuckle, and for the first time, I get a different vibe from him. A menacing air suddenly surrounded him.
"Watch out for stray bullets," his deep voice sounded authoritatively, "and some snakes, get rid of them," he orders, and the men surrounding us answered and spread out as soon as he said that.
“Yes, Master.”
I locked my gaze on him, my entire attention fixed on him. The way his entire demeanor shifts from easygoing to dangerous in an instant. After ordering them, he looks at me and tightens the hand that I had forgotten was still being held by this stranger as he drags me along much faster this time.
So I had no choice but to drag along as our speed increased. Now that we only have a few men on our side and my vision isn't as limited, I can see more clearly what's going on downstairs, particularly in the center of the dance floor.
My wide eyes were drawn to what was going on; even in the dim light, everything seemed so clear to me. The chaotic scene, the bodies scattered around, the blood, and the destroyed area riddled with bullet holes. I can tell how heated the fight was just by looking at it.
It's still going on, and I've seen every person who has fallen and died or been injured. They look not real at all as though it’s only a game orchestrated by someone.
“Those are all small and insignificant groups, the real game is yet to begin. This night is still long.” a whisper sounded beside my ears. I take my gaze away from the scene and return it to him.
His demeanor hasn't changed at all, except for the absence of the playful smirk on his lips.
"What are they fighting for?" I'm not affected, but that doesn't stop me from being intrigued. I don't understand why they appear so determined to win and fight to the death.
"Isn't it obvious?" he didn't turn around and only looked at the front, I stared at his side features as he calmly answered my curiosity. “They’re fighting for their lives.”
"Fighting for their lives?" I frown, not quite understanding.
"Hmm, losing means dying." He shifted his gaze downstairs, his expression unchanged as he continues even more mercilessly with his words, "It's either to die fighting or to be killed foolishly. They are all destined to die anyway." he returns his gaze to me, staring and observing my reaction.
While we remain silent, the sounds of gunshots overpower us. I took a deep breath, meeting those eyes that shone like some predator in the dark.
"Why? Who decided on their fate?" I keep insisting; I'm slowly getting it, but I still want to know.
"It's because they're weak," he says, leaning in slightly to lift my chin with his other hand, "swallow or be swallowed, that's the game."
I can’t answer after that, only staring at him while I process what he said. Our gazes collide, and for a brief moment, everything fades away in my eyes.
As he removes his hand from my chin and signals something to the bodyguards before looking at me, his expressions become serious. “Let’s go, the opening will end soon.” He started to walk again, still holding my hand. I'm not even sure where we're going, but I just followed him.
Seriously, why am I following a stranger whom I just met?
"Tell Archeron to meet us there first, our plans have changed," he says with a sly smile, "an unexpected gift came, so we'll involve ourselves, and we'll take a big bite of this cake as a celebration."
He took my hand in his and decided to quicken the pace even more. I'm basically running at this point, and I even notice how quiet it suddenly became, but for some reason, the pressure in the air increases at such a rapid rate that I knew something bigger was about to happen even without anyone telling me.
I’m affected by the urgency felt by everyone. I couldn't even question him about what he meant by that. A gift? Was he referring to me? I had a hunch it was me. I purse my lips, only following him and staring at his back.
Is it the right decision for me to follow him? Whatever I think, my body refuses to cooperate as I allow myself to be dragged by the familiar stranger.
It had gone quiet, with no gun sounds, even screams only our breaths and the sound of shoes making contact with the floor. For some unknown reason, I also found my senses heightened in this situation, as I can follow and keep up with them even in the dark.When the sounds of footsteps that did not come from us reach my ears, I realize that we are not the only ones running in the second floor to who knows where.Because of the silence, I restrained myself from asking any questions and remained silent throughout. A few minutes later, it appears that we have arrived at our destination, as a door opens for us and we enter that room.In contrast to the outside, the room is not as dark and has consistent lighting. I take a look around and notice that it is also spacious, with only a couch and nothing else, and that it appears bland for a VIP room in a bar.However, the people who came before us made that room far more interesting and dangerous than it appears. There were men and some women
He didn't respond and ignored my question, instead focusing on giving instructions. Treating me like air once again and seriously ordering them. Which everyone follows obediently, and none of them are actually bothering with me.My lips parted before I bowed my head and took a small step back from him. I don't want to hear what he has to say next because I've finally realized how foolish my previous actions were.What had gotten into me? I take a few more steps back, until I'm at the far end of the room, not caring how stupid I appear to everyone else. The only thing on my mind is getting away from him and the feelings that are growing in my heart.Everything that has happened, as well as my husband's possible true identity, is perplexing me. My mind was so preoccupied with my thoughts that I didn't hear their conversation or what order he gave to his subordinates next.I sat on one of the couches, it leaning on it and bowing my head, making myself as invisible as possible like he is
I swallowed and averted my gaze from him, my blood boiling for some unknown reason. No, I actually know. The excitement of what will happen is already getting into my head."Do you feel some excitement?" the devil asks again beside my ears. Yes, this man is a devil who continues to lure me into something forbidden and even unravel the "me" that I don’t know.His breath brushed against my ear as it tickled me, causing me to bite my lips. I turn and look at him, frowning and ready to scold him. However, as I finally saw the distance between our faces, all the words inside me vanished.“Aren’t you curious?” he squinted his eyes mesmerizingly, then leaned a little bit more until his lips were right beside my cheeks. My mind went black as our breaths almost touched each other.I should push him; my mind screams for that, and yet my body went completely stiff, and I can only listen to what he had to say."How do I know you? How come I’m so familiar?” he whispers in his deep voice, waking up
“Watch out for your surroundings,” as he said that he already ran first, dragging me along again.I can’t even complain since protesting will only increase the danger, and I can’t do much in the situation. My survival this night is in his hands. Perhaps, I can trust him for now. He even protected me earlier, so he didn’t intend to harm me, or perhaps he still has use for me, like... with my husband.As I am running and following him, passing by another gruesome scene after another, thoughts quickly flashed my head. Even with darkness, I can see a glimpse of my surroundings, the heightened senses helping me to keep up with them.I thought of Zach, wondering what my reaction would be when I finally saw him later. I took a deep breath and panted, but I kept going. I don’t want to be a burden to them, while this man is the one that entices me to be here. I could leave earlier if I really wanted to. It is my choice to be here.I stare at the man with a serious expression on his face. We ar
A cold smile appeared on his lips, and I noticed how he glanced at me, then returned to Zach. "I really want to mess with you earlier, but Hiroshi fuck with me first," he said, rage in his voice. “No Hiroshi men, will come out of this place, alive!” he shouted, burning enthusiasm of the crowd.Zach ordered his men in response to his declaration. He stood motionless, staring up at us. And for a brief moment, I noticed how his gaze lingered on me as if he was trying to figure out who I was.That didn't take long, as he returned his attention to the situation. He began walking towards an unknown destination. My gaze chasing his back, my emotions conflicted."Get down!" the man yells, waking me up and drawing my attention away from Zach. As soon as I did what the stranger told me to do and kneeled, bullets shot at us and hit the wall. The sudden sound startled me, and I put my hand over my ears to protect them from the loud noise.I have no choice but to stay quiet and watch with widening
We only locked gaze for a few seconds before I was forced to avert my gaze from him. I wrinkled the fabric in my left hand, emotions rushing through my mind.Now, Zach is already standing in front of me. All of the confusion that had grown inside of me went away, and he quickly filled my mind again.“We have an agreement!” Zach's yell echoed, which made me lift my head and look ahead.Zach is now looking at the stranger, his eyes filled with rage and something else that I can’t figure out, and his brows furrowed with jaw tightening. An expression I had never seen him use before.This shout easily stirs up the tension that had been slowly easing up in the air. Even though they were tired, the people on both sides repositioned themselves.There were no guns pointed at the opponent, but they had them in their hands and were ready to fire.On the other hand, the stranger appears unconcerned with the tension as he leisurely observes the dead man as if it were a fantastic art. "I know," he
The car ride home is devoid of conversation; neither of us speaks. I know that this peace will end as soon as we get home.I don't think Zach will let this go easily, and I won't let it go, either. Why will I feel guilty? I have never done anything wrong.If going into that bar and finding out who he was by accident is my fault, then Zach hiding his identity from me is much worse.I never wanted to find out about this, to begin with. I sighed. I knew that I was only brave in my head and that when I was actually facing him, all my courage would vanish like smoke.It is already the middle of the night, and the entire house is silent. My husband walks silently to our room, and I do the same. The quiet atmosphere makes me feel even more nervous.I'd rather he yell at me than give me the cold shoulder, which I can't stand.Zach went straight to our bedroom, and I stood at the door and watched as he took his clothes off without showing any emotion. There were still spots of blood on his sui
I lowered my voice and felt a little bad because I knew I didn't really believe Zach. But it also seemed wrong to doubt him because of it.Just what he said about how much I hate that man doesn't match what I sensed from him before. If I hate him as much as Zach claims, why do I not hate him subconsciously but instead blindly follow him?"You don't believe me. I can see it in your eyes," he scowls, his expression darkening to the point where I almost suffocate from the intensity. His eyes are drooping slightly, and he is staring at me dangerously.I shake my head, terrified by this expression of his that he never used on me, even when our marriage was falling apart."No, I believe you..." my voice trembling as I try to reach out to him, my mind becoming even more jumbled and the pain in my head intensifying. "I really believe you, yes, I...I do hate him..." continuing and becoming pathetic, the courage within me vanishes like smoke once more.He dodged my hand and took a step back fro
It started that day. I feel guilty, but the interval between when I go insane is getting longer and longer. And using the counteractive drug won’t help me much anymore, or it will make my condition much worse. "Clive," I mumbled amidst the dim light of my room. I’m lying in bed while he sits in bed beside me. I can’t see most of his expressions, but his side profile is deeply reflected in my pupils. He lowered his gaze and hummed in his baritone voice. "What is it?" he asked carefully.For some reason, it makes me think that I’m fragile and that any wrong word or move can trigger that madness within me. I hate this, but it's only in this rare moment when I’m sober that I can have a conversation with him. "Something is wrong with me," I say with much certainty. I’m not dumb. I know that there is something horribly wrong with me. I want to accuse anyone, but it makes me wonder why. Why is this happening? Am I truly insane? or some kind of substance within me? I don’t know. Clive t
As I calmed down, it gradually became clear in my mind that the memories of when I suddenly lost myself had flooded in. The fear that is sprouting in my mind completely resides within me. It’s like, I already know that something is wrong, but for some inexplicable reason, I don’t want to admit it either. The conflicting reasons are making it even harder for me to assess the situation. "Clive," I call his name, as his hand slides down from my eyes, and yet my eyes remain closed. "What is it?" he asked in a soothing voice, as though afraid to agitate my emotions again. A bitter smile emerges from my lips, and I’m aware that what I did earlier is truly not normal. Until now, I can still feel the way I want to kill everyone in my sight, as I kept on asking them, How did they know me when I don’t even know myself?This is fucked up, but I don’t have an answer within me either. "Will I get crazy again?" My low tone reveals my confusion as well as the anxiety that overwhelms me as I spe
I always ask myself, Is it real that I’m finding myself, or am I gradually losing myself? What is the real answer to this question? That is yet to be determined, or perhaps I already know it deep inside my heart. Lowering my head and suddenly falling silent, I only saw Clive’s feet on the ground after a few seconds; he is already in front of me. Slowly, I lifted my head, and our eyes met. Those eyes are still the same as the moment I saw them for the first time in that bar. They were particularly mysterious and oppressive, and yet as I stare at them, those green eyes seem to have a lot to say but can’t for some reason."What do you think of my skills?" He started grinning, showing his white teeth. "Impressive?" His brows playfully move. My throat moved after swallowing all the questions that were about to come out of my lips. Calling them questions is not appropriate either. In fact, they are all doubts... to which I am afraid to know the answer. "You are," I replied, not breaking
Our tongues intertwine as I almost can’t breathe, as though Clive is determined to take all my breath away. I didn’t even know where we changed locations or if I walked by myself or if he carried me as my back was suddenly pressed against the hard surface of the table. A moan couldn’t help but escape from my lips when Clive suddenly bit my lips, letting me open my mouth for his invasive tongue to completely take over and explore the insides of my mouth as though he couldn’t wait to mark his territory. With my lightheaded mind that suddenly becomes filled with pleasure and the tingling that wells up in my gut, I hold Clive’s arms with my left hand, and my other hand encircles his neck. He is now standing in between my legs, his right hand holding my legs to steady them around his waist, while his left hand is holding my chin and tracing my jaw, deepening the kiss even further. I can't even seriously respond to the kiss, aside from the tingling and weird feeling that it brought. Ther
I don't know where it started but I am now looking at Clive in a different light. Is it bad to feel secure in the words of your abductor? Perhaps it really is. Have I gone totally insane, or is the influence of my past self slowly coming back to me? Is this what Stockholm syndrome feels like? However, even though I know that this is bad, I can’t seem to stop either. Without responding to him, I nodded my head and turned my head to gaze at the dark shooting target. Holding the gun in my hand, which seemed to become particularly heavy, I positioned my body, not minding if it was right. Finally, my finger clicked the trigger at the same time that my pupils seemed to narrow as all the instincts that this body had surfaced. My blood boiled as though celebrating after all the pent-up years, so I shot another and didn’t stop. Amidst the sounds of the gun, there is a ringing in my ears as I can hear the circulation of my blood as I keep shooting with my heart accelerating, yet my expressio
I roam my eyes around after entering the underground training room, it’s still the same as when I first came here. The only thing that is different is my current mood, which was way too tense last time and has now begun to relax. And my relationship with Clive was far too tense before—although it’s still now, it has made such considerable progress that I can look around this room without worrying. I have the time to look at the variety of guns and weapons inside. I don’t know their names and have never seen them before, but for some reason, they actually feel so familiar to me. This doesn’t stump me anymore; after the last time, I no longer try to deny my connection with the underground world. It is a step for me to accept my real self, even though I don’t know if it’s a good thing. I can’t deny myself. I reach out and take one gun off the shelf and touch it curiously. It is different from the rifle I used last time. As I look at it, it feels as though I have an insight, which ra
I fall silent, and my mind repeats my words in my mind. What the heck, what did I say? Seriously, I just blurted that out from nowhere and even so naturally.Clive is also looking at me, although I can’t actually read his thoughts at all. Is he going to tease me for it? However, the man is still staring at me like his soul has left him, and I am so shocked by what I said.I gave a dry cough to try to get rid of the awkward feeling in the room caused by my loud mouth. Then I pretended to laugh as well."I mean, I’m just joking." I start with my reasoning, which is clearly that I’m not good at this and I don’t even know what I’m saying. But since I already started, I have to continue, right? In the first place, I’m the one who created this atmosphere."Are you the only one who could joke? Whatever, I’m going to sleep." And then I averted my gaze, turning my back to him, before shamelessly trying so hard to integrate myself into the mattress as if that would make me invincible.Shutting
"Clive, who really are you?" Amidst the silence, I inquired as if it were random.I think it’s also random; it just came out of my mouth. However, I think it’s because I’m so curious and want to know him more. I feel like once i fully know him, the light of my past will expose itself to me.It sounds so ridiculous, but that’s really how I think at that moment."It depends. Who do you want me to be?" As his voice rang, I shifted my gaze to him. Like me, he is also looking at the green scenery in front of them.And when I glance at him, he turns and faces me as well. He still had his casual expression, however, and I can sense that there is something within.My brows furrow as I hear this question again. It comes from a different question, but it also means the same thing."Why can’t you just directly answer me? Is it hard?" I argued, although my voice was still low, and I emphasized my words to let him know I really didn’t like how he answered sometimes.Clive answers me and reveals th
My mouth slightly opens, and I'm about to ask him what the appropriate word is for him to respond, but it feels as if something lump in my throat is preventing me from saying anything.What is it that is stopping me from asking Clive? I shake my head, and a wry smile appears on my lips. Do I really not know the answer? Of course, I have an idea, but I don’t want to think about it yet.I don’t want to ruin this deceivingly harmonious atmosphere around us, and if I can, I want to hold on to it for as long as I can.The silence shrouded us once more. It isn’t uncomfortable, but it gives the illusion that everything is fine. Why does it need to be fake if it feels so stable and secure?“Are you sleepy?” I ask after another moment of silence, my fingers playing with the covers. Actually, I’m so drowsy that I want to lie down and sleep again.Yet, I also don’t want to waste time sleeping again, even though I know it’s a side effect of the medicine. I still force myself to stay awake and tal