In a matter of seconds, we were surrounded by black men in suits holding guns and positioning themselves to protect us. All of this is happening so fast that I can't react quickly enough to process what's going on.
A different kind of excitement has infiltrated my system, causing my heart to race and my blood to boil. I have no idea what is going on, and this is my first time seeing anything like this, so why am I not scared?
I trembled, not out of fear, but in anticipation of what was to come. It is an excitement that outweighs all of my reservations and even fear.
Even though the backs of the men in front of us have obscured my vision, I can still see some of it. Especially since the stranger holding my hand pulled my hand and dragged me along, and then gunshots rang out in no time.
I flinch at the first sound and then adjust to it after a few seconds. While under the protection of the bodyguards, our movements maintain a relative speed.
"What's going on? Why are they fighting so suddenly?" I ask calmly, surprised that I'm too calm in this situation for someone who has only seen this kind of thing happen once.
The stranger looked at me as he held my hand and dragged me along. He's just as relaxed as I am, with no hint of pressure at all.
"You're calmer than I thought," he says, grinning. "I expected you to be terrified for a few moments."
I purse my lips, wondering the same thing he does about my lack of reaction. We keep our pace without difficulty as the men ahead of us clear our path.
Despite talking with him, my limited vision allows me to notice a lot of things in our surroundings. The sounds of gunfire are becoming increasingly audible with each passing second.
Surprisingly, no one is aiming at us. Or, at the very least, the commotion is concentrated in one location, and as we move away from the center, I am confident that our group is not directly involved in the fight.
Even the men surrounding us appear relaxed as if they are only on guard and not doing anything else.
"I also don't know why, I should be more scared, right?" I mean, that's the more logical reaction, but I'm not. Isn't there something seriously wrong with me?
We're now climbing the stairs; I didn't hear him respond and only heard him chuckle, and for the first time, I get a different vibe from him. A menacing air suddenly surrounded him.
"Watch out for stray bullets," his deep voice sounded authoritatively, "and some snakes, get rid of them," he orders, and the men surrounding us answered and spread out as soon as he said that.
“Yes, Master.”
I locked my gaze on him, my entire attention fixed on him. The way his entire demeanor shifts from easygoing to dangerous in an instant. After ordering them, he looks at me and tightens the hand that I had forgotten was still being held by this stranger as he drags me along much faster this time.
So I had no choice but to drag along as our speed increased. Now that we only have a few men on our side and my vision isn't as limited, I can see more clearly what's going on downstairs, particularly in the center of the dance floor.
My wide eyes were drawn to what was going on; even in the dim light, everything seemed so clear to me. The chaotic scene, the bodies scattered around, the blood, and the destroyed area riddled with bullet holes. I can tell how heated the fight was just by looking at it.
It's still going on, and I've seen every person who has fallen and died or been injured. They look not real at all as though it’s only a game orchestrated by someone.
“Those are all small and insignificant groups, the real game is yet to begin. This night is still long.” a whisper sounded beside my ears. I take my gaze away from the scene and return it to him.
His demeanor hasn't changed at all, except for the absence of the playful smirk on his lips.
"What are they fighting for?" I'm not affected, but that doesn't stop me from being intrigued. I don't understand why they appear so determined to win and fight to the death.
"Isn't it obvious?" he didn't turn around and only looked at the front, I stared at his side features as he calmly answered my curiosity. “They’re fighting for their lives.”
"Fighting for their lives?" I frown, not quite understanding.
"Hmm, losing means dying." He shifted his gaze downstairs, his expression unchanged as he continues even more mercilessly with his words, "It's either to die fighting or to be killed foolishly. They are all destined to die anyway." he returns his gaze to me, staring and observing my reaction.
While we remain silent, the sounds of gunshots overpower us. I took a deep breath, meeting those eyes that shone like some predator in the dark.
"Why? Who decided on their fate?" I keep insisting; I'm slowly getting it, but I still want to know.
"It's because they're weak," he says, leaning in slightly to lift my chin with his other hand, "swallow or be swallowed, that's the game."
I can’t answer after that, only staring at him while I process what he said. Our gazes collide, and for a brief moment, everything fades away in my eyes.
As he removes his hand from my chin and signals something to the bodyguards before looking at me, his expressions become serious. “Let’s go, the opening will end soon.” He started to walk again, still holding my hand. I'm not even sure where we're going, but I just followed him.
Seriously, why am I following a stranger whom I just met?
"Tell Archeron to meet us there first, our plans have changed," he says with a sly smile, "an unexpected gift came, so we'll involve ourselves, and we'll take a big bite of this cake as a celebration."
He took my hand in his and decided to quicken the pace even more. I'm basically running at this point, and I even notice how quiet it suddenly became, but for some reason, the pressure in the air increases at such a rapid rate that I knew something bigger was about to happen even without anyone telling me.
I’m affected by the urgency felt by everyone. I couldn't even question him about what he meant by that. A gift? Was he referring to me? I had a hunch it was me. I purse my lips, only following him and staring at his back.
Is it the right decision for me to follow him? Whatever I think, my body refuses to cooperate as I allow myself to be dragged by the familiar stranger.
It started that day. I feel guilty, but the interval between when I go insane is getting longer and longer. And using the counteractive drug won’t help me much anymore, or it will make my condition much worse. "Clive," I mumbled amidst the dim light of my room. I’m lying in bed while he sits in bed beside me. I can’t see most of his expressions, but his side profile is deeply reflected in my pupils. He lowered his gaze and hummed in his baritone voice. "What is it?" he asked carefully.For some reason, it makes me think that I’m fragile and that any wrong word or move can trigger that madness within me. I hate this, but it's only in this rare moment when I’m sober that I can have a conversation with him. "Something is wrong with me," I say with much certainty. I’m not dumb. I know that there is something horribly wrong with me. I want to accuse anyone, but it makes me wonder why. Why is this happening? Am I truly insane? or some kind of substance within me? I don’t know. Clive t
As I calmed down, it gradually became clear in my mind that the memories of when I suddenly lost myself had flooded in. The fear that is sprouting in my mind completely resides within me. It’s like, I already know that something is wrong, but for some inexplicable reason, I don’t want to admit it either. The conflicting reasons are making it even harder for me to assess the situation. "Clive," I call his name, as his hand slides down from my eyes, and yet my eyes remain closed. "What is it?" he asked in a soothing voice, as though afraid to agitate my emotions again. A bitter smile emerges from my lips, and I’m aware that what I did earlier is truly not normal. Until now, I can still feel the way I want to kill everyone in my sight, as I kept on asking them, How did they know me when I don’t even know myself?This is fucked up, but I don’t have an answer within me either. "Will I get crazy again?" My low tone reveals my confusion as well as the anxiety that overwhelms me as I spe
I always ask myself, Is it real that I’m finding myself, or am I gradually losing myself? What is the real answer to this question? That is yet to be determined, or perhaps I already know it deep inside my heart. Lowering my head and suddenly falling silent, I only saw Clive’s feet on the ground after a few seconds; he is already in front of me. Slowly, I lifted my head, and our eyes met. Those eyes are still the same as the moment I saw them for the first time in that bar. They were particularly mysterious and oppressive, and yet as I stare at them, those green eyes seem to have a lot to say but can’t for some reason."What do you think of my skills?" He started grinning, showing his white teeth. "Impressive?" His brows playfully move. My throat moved after swallowing all the questions that were about to come out of my lips. Calling them questions is not appropriate either. In fact, they are all doubts... to which I am afraid to know the answer. "You are," I replied, not breaking
Our tongues intertwine as I almost can’t breathe, as though Clive is determined to take all my breath away. I didn’t even know where we changed locations or if I walked by myself or if he carried me as my back was suddenly pressed against the hard surface of the table. A moan couldn’t help but escape from my lips when Clive suddenly bit my lips, letting me open my mouth for his invasive tongue to completely take over and explore the insides of my mouth as though he couldn’t wait to mark his territory. With my lightheaded mind that suddenly becomes filled with pleasure and the tingling that wells up in my gut, I hold Clive’s arms with my left hand, and my other hand encircles his neck. He is now standing in between my legs, his right hand holding my legs to steady them around his waist, while his left hand is holding my chin and tracing my jaw, deepening the kiss even further. I can't even seriously respond to the kiss, aside from the tingling and weird feeling that it brought. Ther
I don't know where it started but I am now looking at Clive in a different light. Is it bad to feel secure in the words of your abductor? Perhaps it really is. Have I gone totally insane, or is the influence of my past self slowly coming back to me? Is this what Stockholm syndrome feels like? However, even though I know that this is bad, I can’t seem to stop either. Without responding to him, I nodded my head and turned my head to gaze at the dark shooting target. Holding the gun in my hand, which seemed to become particularly heavy, I positioned my body, not minding if it was right. Finally, my finger clicked the trigger at the same time that my pupils seemed to narrow as all the instincts that this body had surfaced. My blood boiled as though celebrating after all the pent-up years, so I shot another and didn’t stop. Amidst the sounds of the gun, there is a ringing in my ears as I can hear the circulation of my blood as I keep shooting with my heart accelerating, yet my expressio
I roam my eyes around after entering the underground training room, it’s still the same as when I first came here. The only thing that is different is my current mood, which was way too tense last time and has now begun to relax. And my relationship with Clive was far too tense before—although it’s still now, it has made such considerable progress that I can look around this room without worrying. I have the time to look at the variety of guns and weapons inside. I don’t know their names and have never seen them before, but for some reason, they actually feel so familiar to me. This doesn’t stump me anymore; after the last time, I no longer try to deny my connection with the underground world. It is a step for me to accept my real self, even though I don’t know if it’s a good thing. I can’t deny myself. I reach out and take one gun off the shelf and touch it curiously. It is different from the rifle I used last time. As I look at it, it feels as though I have an insight, which ra