I also look in the direction he is looking, and for some reason, the pressure in the air rises.
"What do you mean? Have we met before?" I ask, watching the scene in the distance; I have no idea what's going on, but the way they're standing up, it appears a fight is about to break out.
I knitted my brows and chewed on my lower lip. Why am I still talking calmly to a stranger when there is clearly something wrong at this party?
"What's going on there?" I can't help but wonder, not caring where we met before. Perhaps at some business banquets? That’s also why I feel familiar with him.
The tension from the distance can even be felt in our deserted area; some of the couches on the side are also surrounded by what appear to be bodyguards in suits. This scene is something I can’t understand at all. What really is going on here?
"So you came here knowing nothing?" I turn around and look at him, his eyes calmly watching the scene in the distance. He is looking around as if even if a fight breaks out, it has nothing to do with him. Indifference, no, it’s beyond that. More accurately, he is uninterested.
Then, as if sensing my gaze, he shifted his gaze back to me. The look he had before vanished in an instant and softened a lot.
"I'm not sure, I just came here because I'm curious about what's keeping my husband busy," I said, and his demeanor changed and his jaw tightened visibly at the mention of my husband.
I raise my brows and inquire directly. “Do you know my husband?”
His face darkens slightly, he frowns, and replies, "It depends on who's husband if it's... Zacharia, then I do know him."
Dissatisfied with what he said, I clicked my tongue. “What are you even saying, Zach, is my only husband.” I purse my lips, he’s rude. With what he said, he basically already said that I’m a cheater. How could I possibly do that to Zach?
As we stared at each other, I noticed something flash in his green eyes after I finished speaking, and he averted his gaze before I could fully catch it. However, his brow furrowed and he frowned, clearly upset about something.
"Are you Zach's enemy?" I asked again, seeing how he had no intention of saying anything. My gaze remained fixed on him, observing his features.
He gives me a serious look while arching his brow. "What will you do if I am?" he asks, almost provocatively.
I am unable to respond immediately. Yes, what will I do if they are indeed enemies? I’m at a loss for words. Seeing me this way, the man’s expression ease and his expression soften.
"Don't worry, even if Zacharia is my enemy, I won't do anything to you," he said softly as if he truly meant it. Even the way he looks at me seems sincere.
I blink, trying to process what he said. I turn away from him, afraid to look him in the eyes. “So, you really are enemies.” I only utter those words and nothing else.
After that, silence enveloped us, and while our side is somewhat peaceful, the situation not far away from us is not. If the tension was visible before, it is now becoming obvious.
There are no yells or curses, but their mere presence and stature are enough to create tension. Even though I am still clueless, I am aware that the situation is becoming dangerous.
I watch them from a distance, my hands clasped, but my heart remains calm. I'm not sure where this security comes from... . was it from this man?
My gaze returns to the mysterious stranger beside me, who only also watches the impending fight that is about to occur any minute now.
"Are you curious? Actually, you shouldn't have come," he said calmly.
"Why? I... I have no idea what's going on," I honestly admit to him. My curiosity overpowers me.
"Well," he turns to face me, amusement filling his eyes as if something has clicked on him, and he laughs unexpectedly in front of me. I furrow my brows at his perplexing reaction.
"Why are you laughing?" I ask, wondering if he's mocking me.
He shook his head, his smile never wavering as he mumbled, "I bet he never expected this to happen." The stranger's eyes shone with delight in stark contrast to the gloomy atmosphere in that room.
"What... can you tell me what's going on?" I snap at him, completely enraged. I'm completely oblivious to what he suddenly realizes while staring at me earlier.
“I’m sorry,” he apologizes, but the smile on his lips remains, and even his demeanor returns to that of easygoing. "I realize that this night might not be as insignificant as I thought, after all. I didn't think that old man had some uses. Really, big surprises came at unexpected situations," he said, laughing again as he stood, while I'm dumbfounded that I didn't understand anything he said.
What surprise? What old man? This seriously is making me crazy. Why the hell I even think of checking this place?
I lifted my head to look at him now that the stranger is standing up, and with a grin on his face, he extends his hand in front of me. "Why don't I show you a different world from the one you know? Perhaps you'll make a big discovery as well," he suggests with an expectant grin. His voice was almost accompanied by an evil enchantment.
I look at his face, then at the hand, he is offering, then return to him. I bit my lower lip, unsure about his offer. My heart was pounding and I was trying to make a decision.
He doesn't seem bothered by my slow reaction, and he holds his position as he awaits my decision.
Somehow, I had a premonition that if I didn’t turn back now, I wouldn’t have a chance anymore in the future. As if it’s some kind of Pandora’s box that will turn my whole world upside down.
Nonetheless, curiosity triumphed over my reservations. Or I can say that his evil whisper is effective as slowly I accepted that hand as he held mine. A different kind of feeling invaded me as if it was something forbidden. My other side refuses to but the other is willing to take the risk.
Our eyes met, with hands holding each other. It seems strange to be holding the hand of a stranger this early on, let alone an enemy of my husband. For some reason, whenever I'm with him, the thoughts I had about Zach, as well as the murmurs, vanish.
His grin widens, and he grasps my hand tightly. The dim surroundings obscure our figures from others; moreover, as the tension creeps into the air, everyone’s attention is on the other side.
He leans slightly closer to my ear, my gaze ahead, the men in suits spread out with someone in the lead. Others in the crowd are also being guarded on the side. This appears to be some sort of movie set.
No one is doing anything excessive yet; if I’m even more naive, I won’t even suspect that something is wrong since they were only awfully quiet.
However, deep within me, I'm aware that everyone is wary of each other and waiting to see who will make the first move.
"Are you wondering where your husband is?" he asks, his hot breath brushing against my ear. "In a moment, you'll see," he pauses again and draws back slightly, his green pupils darkening, "the world that we live in."
As soon as he said that, the situation, which was already on the verge of exploding, escalated. The room became chaotic and loud, and guns were suddenly exposed as they pointed at each other.
This... My lips parted and I looked around with wide eyes, this isn't a party... This is war.
In a matter of seconds, we were surrounded by black men in suits holding guns and positioning themselves to protect us. All of this is happening so fast that I can't react quickly enough to process what's going on.A different kind of excitement has infiltrated my system, causing my heart to race and my blood to boil. I have no idea what is going on, and this is my first time seeing anything like this, so why am I not scared?I trembled, not out of fear, but in anticipation of what was to come. It is an excitement that outweighs all of my reservations and even fear.Even though the backs of the men in front of us have obscured my vision, I can still see some of it. Especially since the stranger holding my hand pulled my hand and dragged me along, and then gunshots rang out in no time.I flinch at the first sound and then adjust to it after a few seconds. While under the protection of the bodyguards, our movements maintain a relative speed."What's going on? Why are they fighting so su
It had gone quiet, with no gun sounds, even screams only our breaths and the sound of shoes making contact with the floor. For some unknown reason, I also found my senses heightened in this situation, as I can follow and keep up with them even in the dark.When the sounds of footsteps that did not come from us reach my ears, I realize that we are not the only ones running in the second floor to who knows where.Because of the silence, I restrained myself from asking any questions and remained silent throughout. A few minutes later, it appears that we have arrived at our destination, as a door opens for us and we enter that room.In contrast to the outside, the room is not as dark and has consistent lighting. I take a look around and notice that it is also spacious, with only a couch and nothing else, and that it appears bland for a VIP room in a bar.However, the people who came before us made that room far more interesting and dangerous than it appears. There were men and some women
He didn't respond and ignored my question, instead focusing on giving instructions. Treating me like air once again and seriously ordering them. Which everyone follows obediently, and none of them are actually bothering with me.My lips parted before I bowed my head and took a small step back from him. I don't want to hear what he has to say next because I've finally realized how foolish my previous actions were.What had gotten into me? I take a few more steps back, until I'm at the far end of the room, not caring how stupid I appear to everyone else. The only thing on my mind is getting away from him and the feelings that are growing in my heart.Everything that has happened, as well as my husband's possible true identity, is perplexing me. My mind was so preoccupied with my thoughts that I didn't hear their conversation or what order he gave to his subordinates next.I sat on one of the couches, it leaning on it and bowing my head, making myself as invisible as possible like he is
I swallowed and averted my gaze from him, my blood boiling for some unknown reason. No, I actually know. The excitement of what will happen is already getting into my head."Do you feel some excitement?" the devil asks again beside my ears. Yes, this man is a devil who continues to lure me into something forbidden and even unravel the "me" that I don’t know.His breath brushed against my ear as it tickled me, causing me to bite my lips. I turn and look at him, frowning and ready to scold him. However, as I finally saw the distance between our faces, all the words inside me vanished.“Aren’t you curious?” he squinted his eyes mesmerizingly, then leaned a little bit more until his lips were right beside my cheeks. My mind went black as our breaths almost touched each other.I should push him; my mind screams for that, and yet my body went completely stiff, and I can only listen to what he had to say."How do I know you? How come I’m so familiar?” he whispers in his deep voice, waking up
“Watch out for your surroundings,” as he said that he already ran first, dragging me along again.I can’t even complain since protesting will only increase the danger, and I can’t do much in the situation. My survival this night is in his hands. Perhaps, I can trust him for now. He even protected me earlier, so he didn’t intend to harm me, or perhaps he still has use for me, like... with my husband.As I am running and following him, passing by another gruesome scene after another, thoughts quickly flashed my head. Even with darkness, I can see a glimpse of my surroundings, the heightened senses helping me to keep up with them.I thought of Zach, wondering what my reaction would be when I finally saw him later. I took a deep breath and panted, but I kept going. I don’t want to be a burden to them, while this man is the one that entices me to be here. I could leave earlier if I really wanted to. It is my choice to be here.I stare at the man with a serious expression on his face. We ar
A cold smile appeared on his lips, and I noticed how he glanced at me, then returned to Zach. "I really want to mess with you earlier, but Hiroshi fuck with me first," he said, rage in his voice. “No Hiroshi men, will come out of this place, alive!” he shouted, burning enthusiasm of the crowd.Zach ordered his men in response to his declaration. He stood motionless, staring up at us. And for a brief moment, I noticed how his gaze lingered on me as if he was trying to figure out who I was.That didn't take long, as he returned his attention to the situation. He began walking towards an unknown destination. My gaze chasing his back, my emotions conflicted."Get down!" the man yells, waking me up and drawing my attention away from Zach. As soon as I did what the stranger told me to do and kneeled, bullets shot at us and hit the wall. The sudden sound startled me, and I put my hand over my ears to protect them from the loud noise.I have no choice but to stay quiet and watch with widening
We only locked gaze for a few seconds before I was forced to avert my gaze from him. I wrinkled the fabric in my left hand, emotions rushing through my mind.Now, Zach is already standing in front of me. All of the confusion that had grown inside of me went away, and he quickly filled my mind again.“We have an agreement!” Zach's yell echoed, which made me lift my head and look ahead.Zach is now looking at the stranger, his eyes filled with rage and something else that I can’t figure out, and his brows furrowed with jaw tightening. An expression I had never seen him use before.This shout easily stirs up the tension that had been slowly easing up in the air. Even though they were tired, the people on both sides repositioned themselves.There were no guns pointed at the opponent, but they had them in their hands and were ready to fire.On the other hand, the stranger appears unconcerned with the tension as he leisurely observes the dead man as if it were a fantastic art. "I know," he
The car ride home is devoid of conversation; neither of us speaks. I know that this peace will end as soon as we get home.I don't think Zach will let this go easily, and I won't let it go, either. Why will I feel guilty? I have never done anything wrong.If going into that bar and finding out who he was by accident is my fault, then Zach hiding his identity from me is much worse.I never wanted to find out about this, to begin with. I sighed. I knew that I was only brave in my head and that when I was actually facing him, all my courage would vanish like smoke.It is already the middle of the night, and the entire house is silent. My husband walks silently to our room, and I do the same. The quiet atmosphere makes me feel even more nervous.I'd rather he yell at me than give me the cold shoulder, which I can't stand.Zach went straight to our bedroom, and I stood at the door and watched as he took his clothes off without showing any emotion. There were still spots of blood on his sui
It started that day. I feel guilty, but the interval between when I go insane is getting longer and longer. And using the counteractive drug won’t help me much anymore, or it will make my condition much worse. "Clive," I mumbled amidst the dim light of my room. I’m lying in bed while he sits in bed beside me. I can’t see most of his expressions, but his side profile is deeply reflected in my pupils. He lowered his gaze and hummed in his baritone voice. "What is it?" he asked carefully.For some reason, it makes me think that I’m fragile and that any wrong word or move can trigger that madness within me. I hate this, but it's only in this rare moment when I’m sober that I can have a conversation with him. "Something is wrong with me," I say with much certainty. I’m not dumb. I know that there is something horribly wrong with me. I want to accuse anyone, but it makes me wonder why. Why is this happening? Am I truly insane? or some kind of substance within me? I don’t know. Clive t
As I calmed down, it gradually became clear in my mind that the memories of when I suddenly lost myself had flooded in. The fear that is sprouting in my mind completely resides within me. It’s like, I already know that something is wrong, but for some inexplicable reason, I don’t want to admit it either. The conflicting reasons are making it even harder for me to assess the situation. "Clive," I call his name, as his hand slides down from my eyes, and yet my eyes remain closed. "What is it?" he asked in a soothing voice, as though afraid to agitate my emotions again. A bitter smile emerges from my lips, and I’m aware that what I did earlier is truly not normal. Until now, I can still feel the way I want to kill everyone in my sight, as I kept on asking them, How did they know me when I don’t even know myself?This is fucked up, but I don’t have an answer within me either. "Will I get crazy again?" My low tone reveals my confusion as well as the anxiety that overwhelms me as I spe
I always ask myself, Is it real that I’m finding myself, or am I gradually losing myself? What is the real answer to this question? That is yet to be determined, or perhaps I already know it deep inside my heart. Lowering my head and suddenly falling silent, I only saw Clive’s feet on the ground after a few seconds; he is already in front of me. Slowly, I lifted my head, and our eyes met. Those eyes are still the same as the moment I saw them for the first time in that bar. They were particularly mysterious and oppressive, and yet as I stare at them, those green eyes seem to have a lot to say but can’t for some reason."What do you think of my skills?" He started grinning, showing his white teeth. "Impressive?" His brows playfully move. My throat moved after swallowing all the questions that were about to come out of my lips. Calling them questions is not appropriate either. In fact, they are all doubts... to which I am afraid to know the answer. "You are," I replied, not breaking
Our tongues intertwine as I almost can’t breathe, as though Clive is determined to take all my breath away. I didn’t even know where we changed locations or if I walked by myself or if he carried me as my back was suddenly pressed against the hard surface of the table. A moan couldn’t help but escape from my lips when Clive suddenly bit my lips, letting me open my mouth for his invasive tongue to completely take over and explore the insides of my mouth as though he couldn’t wait to mark his territory. With my lightheaded mind that suddenly becomes filled with pleasure and the tingling that wells up in my gut, I hold Clive’s arms with my left hand, and my other hand encircles his neck. He is now standing in between my legs, his right hand holding my legs to steady them around his waist, while his left hand is holding my chin and tracing my jaw, deepening the kiss even further. I can't even seriously respond to the kiss, aside from the tingling and weird feeling that it brought. Ther
I don't know where it started but I am now looking at Clive in a different light. Is it bad to feel secure in the words of your abductor? Perhaps it really is. Have I gone totally insane, or is the influence of my past self slowly coming back to me? Is this what Stockholm syndrome feels like? However, even though I know that this is bad, I can’t seem to stop either. Without responding to him, I nodded my head and turned my head to gaze at the dark shooting target. Holding the gun in my hand, which seemed to become particularly heavy, I positioned my body, not minding if it was right. Finally, my finger clicked the trigger at the same time that my pupils seemed to narrow as all the instincts that this body had surfaced. My blood boiled as though celebrating after all the pent-up years, so I shot another and didn’t stop. Amidst the sounds of the gun, there is a ringing in my ears as I can hear the circulation of my blood as I keep shooting with my heart accelerating, yet my expressio
I roam my eyes around after entering the underground training room, it’s still the same as when I first came here. The only thing that is different is my current mood, which was way too tense last time and has now begun to relax. And my relationship with Clive was far too tense before—although it’s still now, it has made such considerable progress that I can look around this room without worrying. I have the time to look at the variety of guns and weapons inside. I don’t know their names and have never seen them before, but for some reason, they actually feel so familiar to me. This doesn’t stump me anymore; after the last time, I no longer try to deny my connection with the underground world. It is a step for me to accept my real self, even though I don’t know if it’s a good thing. I can’t deny myself. I reach out and take one gun off the shelf and touch it curiously. It is different from the rifle I used last time. As I look at it, it feels as though I have an insight, which ra
I fall silent, and my mind repeats my words in my mind. What the heck, what did I say? Seriously, I just blurted that out from nowhere and even so naturally.Clive is also looking at me, although I can’t actually read his thoughts at all. Is he going to tease me for it? However, the man is still staring at me like his soul has left him, and I am so shocked by what I said.I gave a dry cough to try to get rid of the awkward feeling in the room caused by my loud mouth. Then I pretended to laugh as well."I mean, I’m just joking." I start with my reasoning, which is clearly that I’m not good at this and I don’t even know what I’m saying. But since I already started, I have to continue, right? In the first place, I’m the one who created this atmosphere."Are you the only one who could joke? Whatever, I’m going to sleep." And then I averted my gaze, turning my back to him, before shamelessly trying so hard to integrate myself into the mattress as if that would make me invincible.Shutting
"Clive, who really are you?" Amidst the silence, I inquired as if it were random.I think it’s also random; it just came out of my mouth. However, I think it’s because I’m so curious and want to know him more. I feel like once i fully know him, the light of my past will expose itself to me.It sounds so ridiculous, but that’s really how I think at that moment."It depends. Who do you want me to be?" As his voice rang, I shifted my gaze to him. Like me, he is also looking at the green scenery in front of them.And when I glance at him, he turns and faces me as well. He still had his casual expression, however, and I can sense that there is something within.My brows furrow as I hear this question again. It comes from a different question, but it also means the same thing."Why can’t you just directly answer me? Is it hard?" I argued, although my voice was still low, and I emphasized my words to let him know I really didn’t like how he answered sometimes.Clive answers me and reveals th
My mouth slightly opens, and I'm about to ask him what the appropriate word is for him to respond, but it feels as if something lump in my throat is preventing me from saying anything.What is it that is stopping me from asking Clive? I shake my head, and a wry smile appears on my lips. Do I really not know the answer? Of course, I have an idea, but I don’t want to think about it yet.I don’t want to ruin this deceivingly harmonious atmosphere around us, and if I can, I want to hold on to it for as long as I can.The silence shrouded us once more. It isn’t uncomfortable, but it gives the illusion that everything is fine. Why does it need to be fake if it feels so stable and secure?“Are you sleepy?” I ask after another moment of silence, my fingers playing with the covers. Actually, I’m so drowsy that I want to lie down and sleep again.Yet, I also don’t want to waste time sleeping again, even though I know it’s a side effect of the medicine. I still force myself to stay awake and tal