“Ms. Grace---” I stormed inside Levi’s office as his secretary Jamie tried to stop me. If I stop now, I won’t have the courage to say it anymore.
“I choose peaceful slavery.” I dropped my coat dead on the ground and sauntered toward him.
My eyes wandered around the room and saw two people sitting in front of him. I flinched moving backward.
They looked at me in an eccentric way, I swallowed a large lump in my throat and saw Levi chuckling from the corner of his mouth.
Why did I have to be that aggressive? Fuck me… I cussed at myself knowing how disconcerting it was. Levi stood up from his seat and picked my coat up.
“Little bird, meet Mr. and Mrs. Rutherford.” He introduced them, wait… his parents? I bowed gently and felt goosebumps all over.
Their reaction quickly altered from a bizarre face to a massive smile.
“Ah!! Grace…” His mother rushed in my direction taking me away from him.
“I was just telling them when I first met you…” Why is he telling them that? But wait… our first meeting was inside that club where I stripped myself naked.
And his parents are still greeting me so nicely, this family is a bunch of insanity stored all together.
“Have a seat, angel!!” I knew Levi was doing it on purpose, the smile on his face never faded while I was sweating in fear.
But his eyes, they had a different look, a feeling, an emotion, unlike that night or the day after that.
Sane or not, he was lucky to have parents, the color of my face stonewashed as he just made me comprehend how lonely I was.
I looked at his father, he patted the seat next to me and I followed, my legs shivering as I sat in between his parents.
“You’re really beautiful, daughter…” Mrs. Rutherford exclaimed caressing my back, the water began to collect at the bottom of my eyelids, a couple of sniffles here and there, trying to hold them in.
Daughter.
I know it’s just a random word, but it makes me want to hug her and welp deafeningly in her arms. A mother I never had; Levi is so lucky.
I’m so resentful since he got parents who truly love him, “You know, Levi has this tendency of annoying people so, how about you come to me and snitch on him, huh?”
She caressed my hair with a huge smile on her face, I looked down not letting her see my broken accords which is about to burst into tears.
“Stop… you’re making her uncomfortable.” Levi panicked watching the glitter in my eyes and picked me up. “I didn’t know you’ll…” cry? He halted and we walked outside. Jamie escorted me to another room as Levi went back in.
“That’s what I was about to say, his parents were inside!!” Jamie exclaimed but I had nothing to say.
With a couple of words, a hint of affection in them, my heart goes irrational making me evoke how much love I lack.
I heard their laughter coming from that room, I couldn’t even recall the last time I smiled with my mother.
I just did… never.
“Grace…” I saw Mr. Rutherford standing at the door, he entered inside and sat beside me.
“Listen, daughter, I don’t care about your past, but if you’ve entered in his life… just---” I cut him off.
“Mr. Rutherford, we’re not in a relationship. It’s not what it seems like.” I exclaimed before he creates anything peculiar in his mind.
“I know… a guy like Levi, he doesn’t date, but I can tell by the way he looks at you. That’s why I’m telling you, try to love him a bit.” He smiled slightly patting my back.
By the way he looks at me? Like he’s going to eat me, kill me.
“Mr. Rutherford, I’m afraid you don’t know my situa---” I got cut off in between.
“I know… you don’t have parents, so try to love him, you can even call me dad.” He ended it with a chuckle.
I could see why Levi is this stubborn, but this word ‘dad’. An expression I forgot to speak, I couldn’t. I kept my mouth quiet for the rest of the time.
They finally started leaving and Mrs. Rutherford embraced me into a hug, she hugged me so tightly that I failed to recall when my mother hugged me last time, it was never I believe.
“Think about it!!!” Levi’s father ruffled his fingers through my hair and both of them left.
Levi went with them but came back alone, he closed the door as I was sitting on the couch.
“Come here…” He urged and I followed having no other option.
If you fail, come to suck it as written in the document.
His warning, my catastrophe.
He placed his hands on my waist, pulling me closer. His eyes depicted no emotion however his proximity sent a chilled spider down my spine.
“So, what were you saying.”
I gulped plentiful times before saying anything as if I lost my confidence. “What did you tell them… about me?”
I questioned him back; he chuckled again as I lifted my brows in surprise. “The incident when I first met you.”
His smile was creeping me out, “So, I don’t see any money on you. Or you have it hidden inside them.”
He licked his lips pointing my boobs out, I tried to wear my coat back and he unexpectedly snatched it from me.
“I heard something like ‘peaceful slavery’?” He pulled me closer, his hands on my waist. He ran his fingers along my arm, sending quivers across my tiny frame.
He didn’t break the eye contact even though I tried forcing my way out of his eyes, the warmth of his touch made my heart flutter.
Butterflies. Uncaged. Treasured.
He leaned closer, his lips just inches away from mine, encircling his hands around my waist slightly moving upwards.
He grabbed my breasts squeezing them tightly, “Yeah! I'm sure you don’t have any money on you.”
He admonished and moved back, I was dumbstruck as he went back to his table and sat down and a cold breeze struck me like lightning with the loss of his warmth.
“Jamie…” He yelled, and the evil smile he always had turned into an abrupt murk. She quickly brought two binders in her hands; Levi handed one of them over to me.
“Read carefully before signing it this time…” He crossed his finger passing the pen to me. I opened the file and sat down carefully.
“The debtor is solely responsible for this document.” I read the first line.
“I don’t want you claiming that I forced you into this relationship.” He explained and I sighed loudly, I believe it’s only gonna get worse.
Yeah, you didn’t force me… true indeed.
“The debtor must be available 24/7 without throwing tantrums. A ‘no’ will cost $50,000 in addition to the actual loan.”
I stuttered reading it and beheld at the grin with desperation intact on his fucking face.
“Whatever and whenever I want.” His lips curved into an evil grin because he was having his way with me.
I felt the rope around my neck tightening as I moved onto the next point.
“The debtor agrees that she’ll be living in the creditor’s house.” I read.
“What???” I yelled slamming my hands on the table.
“What? Do you expect me to call you every time I crave sex?” He roared and I sat back down, putting my storms to a calm, I gulped.
“A sex would reduce $10,000 dollars from the actual loan so, the deal won’t break until all the loan is paid off.” I sighed again.
“The creditor will take care of the debtor’s brother and all his expenses.” I read.
“Well, I like Grey.” He uttered and his lips curved into a genuine smile this time. I continued reading.
"The debtor is not allowed to sleep around with anyone else until the deal is off."
“I don’t like sharing…” He completed.
“The deal will break if the debtor denies any of the above rules with a $500,000 as compensation for the loss the creditor had undergone.” My eyes went wide at the last one.
What damage can a rich mafia, like him go through?
“Considering that ‘Paradiso’ cost me a ton, I’ll be asking for compensation one way or another.” He stood up walking in my direction.
“Okay then, everything’s settled now!! Sign here.” He pointed at the blank space and I gave it a thought before leaving a huge ‘Grace’ on it.
The only thing I can pay with, is my body, I better shut my thoughts down or be drunk when he’s around me.
He tore the dossier I signed before in front of my eyes and grabbed the new one from my hands.
“I’ll give you a copy of it soon, until then… go grab your things and come back here quickly.”
He was smiling, with no bounds, a real grin sitting on his face. As things were going his way and the more, I loathed him, the more I quaked.
“Levi, I request you one thing…” I stood up fearing him but it needed to be done.
“Please don’t drag my brother into this mess---”
“I’ve taken care of it. He won’t be seeing any weapons around him; his room is adjacent to Jamie’s so she’ll be taking care of him whenever you’re with me.” He explained.
“That sounds about right. Do you want to add anything?” He questioned and I shook my head.
I’m the big sister, I wish I could be better at it. Levi’s men had arrived to pick us up and we left. Grey was all the way talking to Luther and he seemed happy. It’s good otherwise I would’ve blamed myself for ruining my brother’s childhood. I still won’t compromise with it even though I’m stuffed with the debt. “Boyfriend uncle!!!” My brother shrieked with happiness as soon as his eyes landed on him. Levi picked him up in his arms and his men started logging my suitcases off. I took a deep breath before walking inside my hell for an indefinite expanse of time, we directly walked toward Grey’s room. A room filled with toys and cars, my eyes looking at the sparkle Grey was shedding. I realized how selfish I was. Thinking I’m providing my brother with everything, I was doing nothing at all. There were so many things he still hasn’t seen. “Grey, go to sleep, we’ll play tomorrow.” I ordered, and surprisingly he listened to me. I mouthed a ‘thank you’ to Jamie and she smiled back. W
Grace-He closed the door making a loud sound and thumped my body on his bed. Loosening his tie, he got on top of me.I’m too sober for this, I need alcohol before my demons come back rushing in. I gulped in nervousness as he grew closer.If he asked me, that if I wanted to do this, I couldn’t have said no because that’s how much my body was craving for it.And not just that, I can’t even say ‘no’. That document was well-thought, poor people like me get played just like this in the hands of rich ones.“Strip!!” he sat down on the bed, I swallowed in nervousness and got up from the bed. I removed a layer of my clothing, then another and then another.I stood before him. I’ve never felt so naked in my career of working as a prostitute before, he grabbed my hand and took my hairband off letting all my hair fall down.He ruffled his fingers through them and hissed loudly.“Nobody knows how dangerous you are until they see you how you are now, naked, messed hair, incredibly persuasive and
Grace-I woke up running outside his room, I can’t believe it, so fucking embarrassing. Last night, I barged inside his room like I’d conquer the world.What did I do? I slept on his lap; this wasn’t the first time I got drunk but this definitely was the first time I slept after turning someone on.“Grace… stop.” Levi was following me; I know he’s making fun of me deep inside. A prostitute who isn’t even good at her job.“You can add $10,000 more if that’s what you’re worried about.” I face-palmed him with my hands.“Did you have a good sleep?” he snickered at my face, my eyes glaring to grope his neck in my hands and press that god damn button of his life.“No… but seriously, you slept well, Angel?” I started leaving when he suddenly wrapped his hands on me, my heart skipped a beat, again. He’s been doing this ever since I met him.Someone as broken as me, an angel? He placed his chin on my shoulder, breathing away the tension, passing it on to me.“I’m counting it as sex too…” I rep
Grace- ‘My love’‘My love’‘My love’ His voice stuck inside my head, “I’m n---not that w--- weak girl anymore…” I stood my ground. “You sure?” he snickered, his hands on my waist, my body shivering, my past came running through and stabbed me deep inside, his hands on my breasts. “I hate how I couldn’t be the first one to fuck you, I’m sick of being second!!” he grunted squeezing them, my eyes battled and I saw his veins pop out. “You’re n---not even last on my list!!” I shrieked biting his neck, he groaned placing his hand on the wound, I spat his blood from my mouth. He grabbed my hair throwing me towards his desk, “Five years of wait… and this is what I get?” he growled, my brain was shutting down, I was shutting it down because I didn’t want to be alive to see this happen to myself again. If only I could stop my heartbeat, did I survive through all that just to get back from where it started? No, I’m NOT that same girl anymore… I kicked him in the gut, he didn’t budge. “I
Grace- “…ace” I heard.“Grace” I heard and slowly opened my eyes. His worried eyes on me, his hands on mine, I sprung up from the bed. “Ughhh!” I groaned hitting a nerve suddenly, I found bandages on my head, “Careful.” Jamie uttered, Levi’s hands still in mine. Where were these hands when he was abusing me? I jerked them off of mine, my hands red with the scratches I made. He wasn’t saying anything, the doctor must've told me that I’ve had sexual intercourse recently, he’s planning to throw me outside with hell lot of a loan on my head. I tried to stand up however, found the IV drip on my other hand, “Careful dear…” Jamie gasped but I was still looking at him. ‘Say something’, I said to myself looking at his eyes. He looked the other way immediately, “I need to go see my brother, ask the doctor to remove it.” I grunted not wanting to bleed all over again. “Jamie… out!!!” he finally chose to speak, his secretary left quickly, the room filled with our silence. “You want to go t
Grace- I had to do something, “Levi, m---my head!!” I acted. A pathetic human like me, I tried to fool him, I fell on the ground, just to take away his attention from my phone, and I collapsed. “Grace…” he exclaimed and quickly picked me up in his arms, my eyes were closed but I was breathing, “Grace?” he called my name out, and I ignored him, “Doctor!!” he yelled. I don’t how I was surviving but felt like opening my eyes would ruin my world, I lay down like I’m not even alive, stiff like an iron rod. “What happened to her?” Jamie asked, "Hmmm..." the doctor replied. I couldn’t hear Levi’s voice, is he not here? Is he checking my phone? I opened my eyes abruptly, “Oh! You up?” the doctor exclaimed with joy, “I acted, dumbass!!” I got up running outside to see where he was. I checked his office, empty. I went into his room, empty. I even went to the training room, but he wasn’t there. Where is he? Has he gone to see Archie? Why would he do that? Maybe, because he sle
Grace- I’m still locked in that dark room, I wake up, I faint and then I wake up again, I don’t know if it’s day outside or night. I don’t know if the calendar moved or not, I kept on whimpering with fear until my nerves broke down and it all came back as it happened yesterday. Where is he? Why is he doing this to me? What have I done to him for it to turn out this crazy? What is my fault?‘What is my fault?’ ‘What is my fault?’ ‘What is my fault?’ ‘What is my fault?’ “What is my fault?” I yelled, trying to break free, let me go. I cried, and my eyes finally gave up pretending to be strong, they broke into tears. My eyelids tried to collect the water because this is what they know, this is what I taught them, ‘Hold it in’. but now they didn’t listen, because my soul was breaking. I feel like nothing could break me, but ever since I met him, even the smallest things are causing me huge ruins. “Let me… go.” I sniffled, hanging on the bed, at least turn the light on. I sobbed.
Grace- “Believe me I’m a slut!!” I blurted nonetheless; I don’t have the luxury to think about things like love. This is all momentarily pity. “What’s a slut?” “A woman with the morals of a man,” I explained. I know he’s trying to make me feel better in whatever way but no, I won’t fall for your tactics. I don’t want to be weak in this battle. And I will never let my guard down. “Grace… you’re---” I cut him off. “Your words will never make me feel at ease, it’ll only remind me of how broken my life is.” I face-palmed not wanting to look at him. He’s nothing like his brother, I won’t be surprised if they didn’t have a blood relation. But kindness isn’t cheap. ‘That fucking plutocrat’ I thought. “That fucking plutocrat,” I yelled. “Who?” Phoenix questioned. “Your brother…” I blurted and he smiled looking down at the ground. “I guess he is…” he was smiling, I didn’t know guys in the house have this ability. “You look good when you smile… you should smile often.”
Life and death, it doesn’t come with a warning, dreams and nightmares are the same. Because I found him standing before me, nightmare? No. My death. One moment I was dying with pleasure and the other, I had Levi’s words ringing inside my head. The notion called sanity has turned into just vague and timid emotions for me. Not him but his death haunts me, and at times like these? “You okay?” His brow rose up, worry cascading on his face, I want to nod, I want to say yes but I can’t. And I'm guilty, I'm feigning ignorance. I don’t want to face the look he’s having right now, the look which is not sympathetic, because my eyes, they speak a different language than usual. The thought of thinking about Levi in an indecent way never struck me before, and by this am I, am I breaking Phoenix’s heart? Am I, am I cheating on him? With a dead person? I want to shut these thoughts down, because I know I love him, but by any chance do I have feelings for Levi at the same time? No, no, I'm
The value of life for me has become ambiguous. What is life other than days of death and nights of haunts? Isn’t it better to just end it? When all I see is dick waiting to be shoved inside some pussy. But I didn’t know, killing someone would make my soul bright. I feel reborn. I feel invincible, I feel like I can take over the world and nothing, nothing scares me anymore. “Where were you?” His hoarse voice was enough to tell me the storm I'm about to face soon. A hint of rage coursing through. I looked around the dark hall, no one but a sound, a sound, anger, ire, fury, Phoenix. Words that don’t go along with him were what I felt all together coming at me. And before his frame, the bright caramel eyes appeared within the dark. I gasped. “God, you scared me.” I tried to mock it off. “I scared you?” He growled and sluggishly ambled at me. His hands crossed at his chest, waiting for a justification I don’t have. Of course, I'm not going to tell him I killed someone, and I’m ha
I love Phoenix, but remember when I said that maybe I'm ready to give up on my past and start a new life with him? Forget it. Because I'm not ready. I never will be, the fluid named vengeance runs as blood in my veins and I’d be dead if not for it. I had hope, in the basement. Revenge was that hope. You see, I never lied when I said, I am a beast. The names on the diary, Archie killed them from the first page, since he’s locked up at Levi’s mansion, he couldn’t have finished them off. So, I’ll start from the end. Phoenix doesn’t know, he shouldn’t. He’s right, I don’t do walks, because I kill. But when did it start? When I had finally given up on this diary, I was about to throw it off the bridge. To start anew, fresh, road to unicorns and clouds and skies and everything bright. The water as blue as the sky, the sky I wanted to touch, and that day I realized I'm not meant to touch it. I took a deep breath, I had Phoenix’s poems, his emotions printed on his book, I don’t need
Grace- I’m not the narrator, this is my story. And I choose how I live it. However strong I may act, deep down I recall the moment when I held the gun before him and I didn’t feel powerful, I felt like a traitor. Weapons that sometimes make you feel invincible, take your strength away. The gun that’s supposed to save you, take your life, and all you see blood scattered around, his blood, Levi’s blood. So, the power I felt was nothing but my fears gushing inside to press the trigger and take his life. And no matter how hard I try, his face, is always before me. And the agony of his words never seems to fade. He said, he doesn’t know fancy words to woo girls, and I want scoff at him and forget about it. But it turns out that he is a liar, a rather professional one. I’d be lying if I said, I don’t think about him, I want to lie though. But whenever I close my eyes, a loop of memories hit me and as if I had less nightmares to live, Levi’s face added as a dressing on the top. My b
Levi- I’d lose to her endlessly but, I would never lose her. I don’t fucking care, how many wounds I get, or how many times I have to reincarnate. But for her, I’d come back, every time. Did I love her to let her go? Who the fuck am I? A stupid protagonist? Let her go just to see her smile, to hell with that. If only she killed me, or ruptured a spleen, made me frail even to walk, so that I had reasons to stop looking for her but, now that I’m alive, I will look for her. I won’t wait for that silver lining; I’ll fucking bring the clouds down and see if she was sitting up there. “Don’t people drown themselves in alcohol at times like these?” I wonder how he managed to come out alive, when he had a rib broken, a dislocated shoulder. “You consider alcohol as a numbing agent, but I want to feel every inch of my bones shatter, I want to feel this pain.” So that the grief shrieks with joy and tells me it was worth the torment. So that when she mends me, I could feel the joy of being
This is the diary that Grace found in her room. The diary with poems, figured, you'd want to read it.I met a girl today, beautiful and beautiful and beautiful and everything including beautiful. I don’t believe in love at first sight but I should or else I don’t know what to name this.Tragedy of souls that binds,that blinds,and all the wounds she gave me,wounds that I don’t mind,wounds I don’t hide,I confide,and just want our bodies to collide,and make her mine.Say you hate me,say you want to kill me,but never say,you want to leave me.If I vanish one day,remember to find me in your heart. If I could give you the world, I would.I should,But you are my world so,how I could?The way she moves her hair, like she’s calling for me. The way her laughter fills the room, I want to go deaf to the world’s gibberish.I believe I have fallen in love, and I‘m still falling... the only sound my heart can hear is... ’Make her yours.‘I’m unfamiliar with love,however, I’ll try ev
Phoenix- I just had moved from London and the last year of my schooling turned out to be a mandatory job. So, I was forced to complete it. I had forever been a loud kid, however my brother, Levi was always so quiet, that you wouldn’t even know his presence in the room until you see him in flesh and bones. He always walked like he never existed in this world, he only had one friend who was most likely to be Luther and didn’t talk to anyone… not even me. And then I entered the famous school in the city, ‘Stefan’s High’, and as expected it was boring until my eyes fell at something forbidden. “So, can I call you, my love?” An ugly ass blonde jerk, calling for someone. I followed his gaze and my insides twitched. Who is she? You see a star falling, but before you close your eyes to make a wish… it vanishes, that’s what happened. She was so beautiful that government should bar the number of eyes staring at her, including mine. It should be illegal; it is illegal to be this beautiful
Levi-Then, I guess I am an idiot and I'm proud of being one.For all the murders I committed so far, if only I took the life of the beasts who were laying hands on her, she wouldn’t be in pain.“Your phone is ringing!” Luther exclaimed breaking me out of my thoughts. “Is it him… again?” He questioned.My silence was enough for him to understand that it was none other than Ethan Redd. A name that shatters my bones.Apparently, Grace was not the only one having a bad childhood but it’s just that knowing her story, knowing whatever she went through, made my agony feel nothing in comparison.I just had this one animal in my life while she had to face the beats she didn’t know, her own m---mother. That charlatan of a mother, how heartless does one has to be to hate her own child?I'm glad Cassie’s dead but I wish to bring her back to life and kill her myself.“Why don’t you block him?” Luther added and I snorted at his. “Like technology will keep him away… he’s coming, no matter what!”I
Levi-Grace was sleeping soundly when I entered her room. I recalled the scar she has on her belly, it made me feel dead and the words escaped my mouth.“I’m sorry… Grace!!” I whispered under my breath and her lips furrowed as if she was throwing a tantrum.“I wish I could change everything; I wish I had taken you by your hand the night you were being sold.”I heard a movement; she could wake up any moment. But before I did, my eyes landed on a diary poking out of her pillow.I grabbed it carefully and vanished like I don’t exist. I rushed back to my room, I might be committing a sin but then again, I am no saint.I opened the first page, this diary was on the verge of falling apart, it was so old, older than my existence I believe.I flipped the page and saw names… so many of them, I turned pages but found the same thing. I don’t know what it was, just names of random people.I scratched my head in shock, what does it even mean?“Who else should I kill? Give me the names, tell me and