I opened my eyes and found myself in a new, unknown place, I only sensed the warmth and was at ease lying under thick blankets.
Thick blankets…
Thick blankets?
I hate the winter season; it makes my body stiff and tired without even doing anything.
I sprung up from the bed and yawned having a great sleep of heaven.
Great sleep…
Great sleep?
“Good morning…” My body stiffened as I heard a manly voice, I felt my breath pacing upon the hoarse voice and saw him leaning against the door.
“W---what are you doing here?” I asked hiding inside the blanket as a reflex. My body jolted as he walked towards me.
“Well, why can’t I be here?” He smirked and I looked at my surroundings. I didn’t know I was at his home.
“W---what am I doing here?” I queried being mortified of myself; I didn’t look into his eyes recalling what happened last night.
Paradise. Ford. Panic.
“You fainted last night and I brought you home.”
He made it look so easy and this was the second time I forgot about my brother.
“Don’t ever do that… leave me alone, even if I’m dying in front of you, don’t you dare take actions based on your thinking.” I screamed in dismay; my brother is alone locked in that apartment all by himself.
“He’s here… your brother, I knew, you’d be looking for him first thing in the morning. I brought him here.” My steps halted hearing him spurt out nonsense from his damned mouth.
“Why would you do that?” I yelled at him; he again took a stride at me with his hands in his pocket.
Unbothered. Delusional. Treacherous.
“Should I have left him alone? He was beaming with happiness as he saw me outside his door.” I was barely holding myself in, why would he bring an innocent child in the middle of armed men?
“Jamie… don’t go inside, Grace is angry…” I heard my brother’s faint voice and turned around watching him enter inside with frightening steps. He was scared of me, he perhaps heard me yelling. I sighed.
“Of course not, why would I be angry at my little star?” I smiled jerking the disgust from earlier away and lifted him in my arms.
“Because I came with boyfriend uncle…” He kept on fidgeting with his hands and the corner of my eyes yelled to look at the mafia smirking.
“Boyfriend uncle?” I whispered in frustration, my mind not processing what this guy teaches my brother.
“Okay, say bye to him, we’re leaving now.” I patted his head, my nerves boiling to a 100 degree and I gritted my jaw with utter repugnance. I started leaving as Grey waved him a huge bye with happiness.
I stormed out of his house on a whim, my eyes burning with fury and annoyance.
I don’t know for how long can I put up with this. It is only getting hard now; Grey is getting attached to that man.
Why can’t I find a reasonable reason to deny him for good, why is he acting this way or have I known the wrong definition of mafia all along? I went back inside my house.
“Grey, get ready, I’m going to drop you off at school. No more holidays.”
He nodded and went inside the bathroom, I’m glad I’ve got a decent brother who listens to me.
But I don’t want him to fear me, the way he was fidgeting today was scary, he shouldn’t hate me just because I sometimes, lose myself.
That crazy bitch, I fucking hate you for leaving us all alone. If only you acted a little mother-like.
She gave me nothing but pain…
I cooked us some breakfast and we left for his school. It was time to look for a new job, every day is a new hustle that I have to go through.
ME: Hey, what about the part-time job I asked of you?
I texted Jess, my stylist and the only friend I have.
JESS: Uh! Yeah, I talked to him, I’ll send you the address now, by the way… the manager is really angry since you vanished into thin air last night…
He texted me back and I gulped in fear since I’m doomed for sure now.
I directly rushed to the address shaking the weird thoughts away.
“Uh, could you please wait?” The waiter went to talk inside and after a little while called me along too. I sat there being as quiet as possible.
“We were looking for beautiful girls like you, it attracts more customers.” Their manager said walking towards me.
“Can you start right now?” He asked I nodded, both of us knowing what he meant.
Their only want and need is sex, fortunately I'm loaded with it.
He sat back down on his chair; this is what I do. This is how I get paid and I’m not ashamed of doing it. I ambled towards him and sat on his lap.
“Your bonus depends on how you work, are you good enough?” He whimpered under my touch as I trailed my finger from his filthy face to his bloated stomach. He got hard as soon as I laid hands on him.
“Let’s see if you remember even your name later on…” I bit his grimy neck moaning as loud as I could. We did it on his table, his chair, and on the floor, until he was satisfied enough and lose all his senses.
“So, do I expect a solid pay?” I kissed his lips sliding my panty up. He nodded still out of his senses. “I’m Mason.” He shrugged standing back up and fixed his clothes.
“There are some clothes, put them on, and you’re hired.” We talked a little bit more about the details, about its timing and lunch break which signified how often I’d be having sex with him.
“You’re way too good, more than Jess told me…” He smirked.
I started working as a waiter, this was a café called ‘Mr. Cafeteria’, I’d be getting paid monthly with over $1000 per month. It seemed like a decent place, the only problem was the hungry manager, which is not at all a problem, to be honest.
I worked from 11 in the morning to 5 in the evening and quickly hurried back to my brother’s school. I knew my life is only gonna get tough from now on but I’m not scared of hardships anymore.
I waited for Grey outside his school and he shrieked in joy looking at me. This isn’t the first time I’ve come to pick him up, what is he so happy about?
He was running towards me, towards me and I opened my arms wide… towards me- ran past me.
“Boyfriend uncle.” He shrieked with joy and I turned around. Huh?
“You came together with Grace to pick me up?” The fucker picked him up in his arms, I didn’t like Ford as a name, I mean fuck it but I don’t even like him so I hated addressing him by his name.
“Are you so idle? How about you find a job instead.” I clenched my fists in anger, the wrath on my face was so outrageous that for a moment I didn’t bother hiding it.
If only that was fine but my nerves wrecked when I gazed behind him. There was a huge black Limousine and two Ferraris parked adjacent to it with men dressed in black. Oh! For fucks sake, I want to die.
“What are you doing? This is a school, are you here for extortion or something?” I tried to snatch my brother from his arms but Grey kept on holding his collar trying to resist me.
“There’ll be a huge traffic soon… do you want to create a scene in front of your brother’s school?” He was enjoying the pain in my eyes, the way he ruined my calm, I see death approaching him.
It was now standing on his doors and his devilish smirk just unlocked it.
He grabbed my hand and besides smiling I could do nothing. I sat in his car not wanting to create a scene.
I tried to disappear when it comes to Grey’s school, I didn’t want to show people that I even exist because if someone knows the kind of work, I do, his life will get affected by it.
“Here put them on…” I took my headphones out and placed them on Grey’s ear. As soon as he got busy, I turned to that leech wanting to take all my anger out on him.
“Mr. Ford, I’m so done with your nonsense, I’ll report you if you are anywhere near me within five meters of radius.” My eyes were red, I could feel my veins pulsating as I moved my mouth.
No one has ever made my brain boil like this before and the only coping strategy I knew was to kill him.
But his gesture told me that my threat had no effect on him, saying, as if he’s scared of the police. And how dumb I was to even threaten him.
“Listen, you have a huge superiority complex so I think you don’t understand what a ‘no’ means. It means that I’m never going to agree even if I have to walk on fire or freeze myself in cold. You get out of our lives before I get angrier than this.” I screamed while he sat there listening to it.
Calm. Lucid. Unbothered.
“So, you can sleep around with that cheapskate of a manager for a few pennies, but not me even if I give you a hundred-thousand-dollar cheque?” His voice was low but pretty demanding. His eyes simpered though his words inflicted rage and fury.
How did he know I slept with that manager? Has he sent someone to follow me around?
Where should I hide? He’s everywhere, the more I think about him, the angrier I get. Now he’s browbeating me to become his sex partner. I have forgotten about everything because he constantly plays on mind, like stars in the night, light in the day. Painful. Horrid. Scarce. “What happened last night?” My manager grabbed my hand to scold me but I had no energy left to fight him. “I’m sorry… I’m going to work…” I left without minding him. Life hasn’t even given me the chance to complain about things, it just turned out too ugly before I could even process and this is where it is heading now. I can see it coming, this man is not gonna stop until I agree. Sometimes I think, it’s just sex so I shouldn’t be acting this way but then I realize the trauma from my past. Just because his touch has a different feeling to it, and I feel my insides crashing down from his voice. “Grace…” I heard a familiar voice, “Jess…” I mumbled, and he hurried to my direction. He was my stylist and someone
Some people survive the chaos and that is how they grow and some people thrive in chaos because chaos is all they know, the latter one is me. This world is beautiful but has a disease called, ‘man’. The man who’s walking in my direction, with blood in his hands, the man who’s hell-bent on ruining me. The man who has begun spreading his venom in my life already. Mask is used to hide the inner self however; I believe people like Levi don’t understand it. He is the darkness he depicts and doesn’t give a fuck about the world’s fuckery. Touch what’s mine and I’ll ruin whatever is yours! I gulped as he grabbed my hand taking me away from the cafeteria while the crowd was gasping and murmuring in shock. I kept on walking not knowing where it’s gonna end perhaps, not anytime soon since it’s just begun. “You don’t have to sleep with him anymore.” He finally let go of my hand wiping the blood. “Remember when I asked for your opinion? Me neither!!” I grunted rubbing my hands with my cloth
“Do you prefer dangerous freedom over peaceful slavery?” His voice husky as ever, his steps increasing thrill and trepidation in my bones. “I prefer everything over you…” My words sounding as if I’m poised. Yes, I choose dangerous freedom because peaceful slavery for you is quite dangerous itself. “This isn’t fair” I muttered as he pulled me closer grabbing my waist in his huge hands, his breath fell on me like snow in winter. His voice coaxing me to give in, and I whimpered from the heath I’m about to face. “Nobody smart plays fair.” He whispered, his lips slowly growing nearer to my face. I looked away and felt him smile near my cheeks. I saw him, he saw me, I looked away but then I looked back, and he was still looking at me. “Angel…” He whispered and I closed my eyes. Angel? Me? Not. Me. Letting go of the guard I had put, wanting to live for the first and the last time, he was making me want things I didn’t want, things like love. He doesn’t love me but, I want him to touch
“Ms. Grace---” I stormed inside Levi’s office as his secretary Jamie tried to stop me. If I stop now, I won’t have the courage to say it anymore. “I choose peaceful slavery.” I dropped my coat dead on the ground and sauntered toward him. My eyes wandered around the room and saw two people sitting in front of him. I flinched moving backward. They looked at me in an eccentric way, I swallowed a large lump in my throat and saw Levi chuckling from the corner of his mouth. Why did I have to be that aggressive? Fuck me… I cussed at myself knowing how disconcerting it was. Levi stood up from his seat and picked my coat up. “Little bird, meet Mr. and Mrs. Rutherford.” He introduced them, wait… his parents? I bowed gently and felt goosebumps all over. Their reaction quickly altered from a bizarre face to a massive smile. “Ah!! Grace…” His mother rushed in my direction taking me away from him. “I was just telling them when I first met you…” Why is he telling them that? But wait… our firs
I’m the big sister, I wish I could be better at it. Levi’s men had arrived to pick us up and we left. Grey was all the way talking to Luther and he seemed happy. It’s good otherwise I would’ve blamed myself for ruining my brother’s childhood. I still won’t compromise with it even though I’m stuffed with the debt. “Boyfriend uncle!!!” My brother shrieked with happiness as soon as his eyes landed on him. Levi picked him up in his arms and his men started logging my suitcases off. I took a deep breath before walking inside my hell for an indefinite expanse of time, we directly walked toward Grey’s room. A room filled with toys and cars, my eyes looking at the sparkle Grey was shedding. I realized how selfish I was. Thinking I’m providing my brother with everything, I was doing nothing at all. There were so many things he still hasn’t seen. “Grey, go to sleep, we’ll play tomorrow.” I ordered, and surprisingly he listened to me. I mouthed a ‘thank you’ to Jamie and she smiled back. W
Grace-He closed the door making a loud sound and thumped my body on his bed. Loosening his tie, he got on top of me.I’m too sober for this, I need alcohol before my demons come back rushing in. I gulped in nervousness as he grew closer.If he asked me, that if I wanted to do this, I couldn’t have said no because that’s how much my body was craving for it.And not just that, I can’t even say ‘no’. That document was well-thought, poor people like me get played just like this in the hands of rich ones.“Strip!!” he sat down on the bed, I swallowed in nervousness and got up from the bed. I removed a layer of my clothing, then another and then another.I stood before him. I’ve never felt so naked in my career of working as a prostitute before, he grabbed my hand and took my hairband off letting all my hair fall down.He ruffled his fingers through them and hissed loudly.“Nobody knows how dangerous you are until they see you how you are now, naked, messed hair, incredibly persuasive and
Grace-I woke up running outside his room, I can’t believe it, so fucking embarrassing. Last night, I barged inside his room like I’d conquer the world.What did I do? I slept on his lap; this wasn’t the first time I got drunk but this definitely was the first time I slept after turning someone on.“Grace… stop.” Levi was following me; I know he’s making fun of me deep inside. A prostitute who isn’t even good at her job.“You can add $10,000 more if that’s what you’re worried about.” I face-palmed him with my hands.“Did you have a good sleep?” he snickered at my face, my eyes glaring to grope his neck in my hands and press that god damn button of his life.“No… but seriously, you slept well, Angel?” I started leaving when he suddenly wrapped his hands on me, my heart skipped a beat, again. He’s been doing this ever since I met him.Someone as broken as me, an angel? He placed his chin on my shoulder, breathing away the tension, passing it on to me.“I’m counting it as sex too…” I rep
Grace- ‘My love’‘My love’‘My love’ His voice stuck inside my head, “I’m n---not that w--- weak girl anymore…” I stood my ground. “You sure?” he snickered, his hands on my waist, my body shivering, my past came running through and stabbed me deep inside, his hands on my breasts. “I hate how I couldn’t be the first one to fuck you, I’m sick of being second!!” he grunted squeezing them, my eyes battled and I saw his veins pop out. “You’re n---not even last on my list!!” I shrieked biting his neck, he groaned placing his hand on the wound, I spat his blood from my mouth. He grabbed my hair throwing me towards his desk, “Five years of wait… and this is what I get?” he growled, my brain was shutting down, I was shutting it down because I didn’t want to be alive to see this happen to myself again. If only I could stop my heartbeat, did I survive through all that just to get back from where it started? No, I’m NOT that same girl anymore… I kicked him in the gut, he didn’t budge. “I
Life and death, it doesn’t come with a warning, dreams and nightmares are the same. Because I found him standing before me, nightmare? No. My death. One moment I was dying with pleasure and the other, I had Levi’s words ringing inside my head. The notion called sanity has turned into just vague and timid emotions for me. Not him but his death haunts me, and at times like these? “You okay?” His brow rose up, worry cascading on his face, I want to nod, I want to say yes but I can’t. And I'm guilty, I'm feigning ignorance. I don’t want to face the look he’s having right now, the look which is not sympathetic, because my eyes, they speak a different language than usual. The thought of thinking about Levi in an indecent way never struck me before, and by this am I, am I breaking Phoenix’s heart? Am I, am I cheating on him? With a dead person? I want to shut these thoughts down, because I know I love him, but by any chance do I have feelings for Levi at the same time? No, no, I'm
The value of life for me has become ambiguous. What is life other than days of death and nights of haunts? Isn’t it better to just end it? When all I see is dick waiting to be shoved inside some pussy. But I didn’t know, killing someone would make my soul bright. I feel reborn. I feel invincible, I feel like I can take over the world and nothing, nothing scares me anymore. “Where were you?” His hoarse voice was enough to tell me the storm I'm about to face soon. A hint of rage coursing through. I looked around the dark hall, no one but a sound, a sound, anger, ire, fury, Phoenix. Words that don’t go along with him were what I felt all together coming at me. And before his frame, the bright caramel eyes appeared within the dark. I gasped. “God, you scared me.” I tried to mock it off. “I scared you?” He growled and sluggishly ambled at me. His hands crossed at his chest, waiting for a justification I don’t have. Of course, I'm not going to tell him I killed someone, and I’m ha
I love Phoenix, but remember when I said that maybe I'm ready to give up on my past and start a new life with him? Forget it. Because I'm not ready. I never will be, the fluid named vengeance runs as blood in my veins and I’d be dead if not for it. I had hope, in the basement. Revenge was that hope. You see, I never lied when I said, I am a beast. The names on the diary, Archie killed them from the first page, since he’s locked up at Levi’s mansion, he couldn’t have finished them off. So, I’ll start from the end. Phoenix doesn’t know, he shouldn’t. He’s right, I don’t do walks, because I kill. But when did it start? When I had finally given up on this diary, I was about to throw it off the bridge. To start anew, fresh, road to unicorns and clouds and skies and everything bright. The water as blue as the sky, the sky I wanted to touch, and that day I realized I'm not meant to touch it. I took a deep breath, I had Phoenix’s poems, his emotions printed on his book, I don’t need
Grace- I’m not the narrator, this is my story. And I choose how I live it. However strong I may act, deep down I recall the moment when I held the gun before him and I didn’t feel powerful, I felt like a traitor. Weapons that sometimes make you feel invincible, take your strength away. The gun that’s supposed to save you, take your life, and all you see blood scattered around, his blood, Levi’s blood. So, the power I felt was nothing but my fears gushing inside to press the trigger and take his life. And no matter how hard I try, his face, is always before me. And the agony of his words never seems to fade. He said, he doesn’t know fancy words to woo girls, and I want scoff at him and forget about it. But it turns out that he is a liar, a rather professional one. I’d be lying if I said, I don’t think about him, I want to lie though. But whenever I close my eyes, a loop of memories hit me and as if I had less nightmares to live, Levi’s face added as a dressing on the top. My b
Levi- I’d lose to her endlessly but, I would never lose her. I don’t fucking care, how many wounds I get, or how many times I have to reincarnate. But for her, I’d come back, every time. Did I love her to let her go? Who the fuck am I? A stupid protagonist? Let her go just to see her smile, to hell with that. If only she killed me, or ruptured a spleen, made me frail even to walk, so that I had reasons to stop looking for her but, now that I’m alive, I will look for her. I won’t wait for that silver lining; I’ll fucking bring the clouds down and see if she was sitting up there. “Don’t people drown themselves in alcohol at times like these?” I wonder how he managed to come out alive, when he had a rib broken, a dislocated shoulder. “You consider alcohol as a numbing agent, but I want to feel every inch of my bones shatter, I want to feel this pain.” So that the grief shrieks with joy and tells me it was worth the torment. So that when she mends me, I could feel the joy of being
This is the diary that Grace found in her room. The diary with poems, figured, you'd want to read it.I met a girl today, beautiful and beautiful and beautiful and everything including beautiful. I don’t believe in love at first sight but I should or else I don’t know what to name this.Tragedy of souls that binds,that blinds,and all the wounds she gave me,wounds that I don’t mind,wounds I don’t hide,I confide,and just want our bodies to collide,and make her mine.Say you hate me,say you want to kill me,but never say,you want to leave me.If I vanish one day,remember to find me in your heart. If I could give you the world, I would.I should,But you are my world so,how I could?The way she moves her hair, like she’s calling for me. The way her laughter fills the room, I want to go deaf to the world’s gibberish.I believe I have fallen in love, and I‘m still falling... the only sound my heart can hear is... ’Make her yours.‘I’m unfamiliar with love,however, I’ll try ev
Phoenix- I just had moved from London and the last year of my schooling turned out to be a mandatory job. So, I was forced to complete it. I had forever been a loud kid, however my brother, Levi was always so quiet, that you wouldn’t even know his presence in the room until you see him in flesh and bones. He always walked like he never existed in this world, he only had one friend who was most likely to be Luther and didn’t talk to anyone… not even me. And then I entered the famous school in the city, ‘Stefan’s High’, and as expected it was boring until my eyes fell at something forbidden. “So, can I call you, my love?” An ugly ass blonde jerk, calling for someone. I followed his gaze and my insides twitched. Who is she? You see a star falling, but before you close your eyes to make a wish… it vanishes, that’s what happened. She was so beautiful that government should bar the number of eyes staring at her, including mine. It should be illegal; it is illegal to be this beautiful
Levi-Then, I guess I am an idiot and I'm proud of being one.For all the murders I committed so far, if only I took the life of the beasts who were laying hands on her, she wouldn’t be in pain.“Your phone is ringing!” Luther exclaimed breaking me out of my thoughts. “Is it him… again?” He questioned.My silence was enough for him to understand that it was none other than Ethan Redd. A name that shatters my bones.Apparently, Grace was not the only one having a bad childhood but it’s just that knowing her story, knowing whatever she went through, made my agony feel nothing in comparison.I just had this one animal in my life while she had to face the beats she didn’t know, her own m---mother. That charlatan of a mother, how heartless does one has to be to hate her own child?I'm glad Cassie’s dead but I wish to bring her back to life and kill her myself.“Why don’t you block him?” Luther added and I snorted at his. “Like technology will keep him away… he’s coming, no matter what!”I
Levi-Grace was sleeping soundly when I entered her room. I recalled the scar she has on her belly, it made me feel dead and the words escaped my mouth.“I’m sorry… Grace!!” I whispered under my breath and her lips furrowed as if she was throwing a tantrum.“I wish I could change everything; I wish I had taken you by your hand the night you were being sold.”I heard a movement; she could wake up any moment. But before I did, my eyes landed on a diary poking out of her pillow.I grabbed it carefully and vanished like I don’t exist. I rushed back to my room, I might be committing a sin but then again, I am no saint.I opened the first page, this diary was on the verge of falling apart, it was so old, older than my existence I believe.I flipped the page and saw names… so many of them, I turned pages but found the same thing. I don’t know what it was, just names of random people.I scratched my head in shock, what does it even mean?“Who else should I kill? Give me the names, tell me and