"Growing up, I did not feel good looking. No matter how much I had tried to compliment myself, my insecurities got me to my knees. People always reassured me that I was handsome but I did not see what they so saw so I did not bother to date anyone. I was not willing to make another human being suffer. I wanted to fix myself up and become close to this hot thing I am today. I was eighteen when I was let out of the shell and became exposed to the public eye. People were crazy over me and I was all over magazines being called handsome. My good looks made people believe I was a heartthrob not knowing I was a virgin at that time. But the attention made me feel like I was ready to give relationships a try. “I did not know how hard it will be because of my brother. All of my serious relationships went downhill because of Steven. Relationship in and out I will find him in bed with my girlfriends," he laughs to himself as I stare with pity, "I stopped pursuing serious relationships and decided
The only sound audible in the room is of my nails tapping on the dinner table. The quietness just makes me even more anxious as the seat opposite mine remains unoccupied. I actually believed I would be laughing by now or be swept off my feet.But that is not the case which is why I am still lighting up my phone screen for the tenth time hoping to see something different. Yet once again, my heart drops as the time reads;20:15Fifteen minutes after the time Blake set, there still is no sign of him. There is not even one single text, not to talk about a call. If there were people in the room all they would see is a pretty lady dressed in a sophisticated black dress seated awkwardly in her chair, continuously staring at her phone for a sign. Maybe he will walk in any minute, it's human nature to be late20:45"Would you like to order anything Mrs?” The waiter asks me for the second time ever since my arrival."Uhm do you have juice?""No, we don't serve that here.""Okay...how about nona
My name is Aria Parker-Johnson a mother to Mirella Parker-Johnson and soon to be mother to twins. I am the wife of Blake Parker, a business tycoon that had been known for his player nature but now is a transformed father and loyal husband. Our marriage has been a rollercoaster, it started off hectic, I did not think it would last. I was never supposed to marry him in the first place but God works in miraculous ways. The way we got together, the way we separated and once again the way we got together, it is all a miracle. “Mirella!”“Yes, mom?” She walks into the kitchen, my baby girl is so grown.“Please take these outside. I am sure people are going to start arriving any time soon.” I try picking up the tray but she stops me.“No need to overwork yourself ma, my siblings need to come out to perfectly fine.” “Thank you baby girl.” I let her take everything then decide to head to the bedroom to change.I am pregnant again and I must say, it is a lot of work. Now that I am carrying tw
"I now pronounce you husband and wife. You may kiss the bride."The words that most girls have dreamt of hearing, even I. Standing at the altar at this very moment, I feel robbed. Don't get me wrong, the wedding is splendid. Everything about it from the venue to the dress speaks fairytale and it is completely everything I ever wanted but I've been robbed of the chance of standing before the love of my life and saying my vows to him.I brought it upon myself by agreeing to this crazy idea. I could picture the confusion and anger coming from my mother while sitting in one of the front seats looking at the bizarre scene before her. She must be disappointed in her only daughter. I feel disappointed in myself too. My father, however, probably has a large smile plastered on his face. The minute he heard that I was marrying one of the Parker brothers, he saw a business opportunity. He doesn't even know which one is the love of my life. He doesn't know that the man standing before me is not t
Waking up to realize that there is no body occupying the space next to you can be heartbreaking, especially if it's supposed to be your honeymoon.Walking from the bathroom to the balcony after taking a shower, I take in the beautiful island we are in. From a distance, I could see the blue ocean waves and the numerous green tress surrounding the area. Taking a deep breath in, my nostrils are instantly hit with the fresh smell of non-polluted air. I might as well enjoy my time here, I think.Walking back to the room, I change into my spring floral dress that Steven loves so much. What changed between us exactly? The Steven that kept on bothering me for two weeks straight just so that I could go on a date with him five years ago isn't the Steven I know now. He is no longer the guy that made time for me no matter what came up and definitely not the guy that couldn't leave me alone in the same room as his brother. But now he is so comfortable with it that he even asked me to stand in the a
Don't you just love the sound of ocean waves? How they are able to create a violent but calm sound. I am a huge fan of nature because it makes feel much closer to God which gives me a lot of peace.I can remember the days I used to walk with Steven down the beach and had actual fun. Now, however, I'm strolling alone at the island's beach while the water tries to comfort me. Mother and I finished our breakfast hours ago and ever since, I have been visiting some known spots that are of good attraction! I came across this known restaurant that does not serve small fancy portions of food. Which is why I ate a very large pizza. It almost covered the whole of my table. I had to pay myself back for all those food I refused just so that I can fit into my wedding gown.With the sun setting, I walk back to the hotel with a very calm soul. The receptionist greets me warmly and hands me a a rectangular small box and roses that came while I was out. Reaching for the card, my heart dances at the si
Honeymoon - vacation taken by a newly married couple after their wedding. The definition clearly does not include me in the mix. It has been 7 whole days with me at my honeymoon alone. My family has left and so I'm all alone in this island, oh and also with Blake. I try to pretend he never existed to start with but it's so hard when all the hotel helpers talk about him. The old will talk about how nice and caring he is, while the young talk about how his the most handsome man ever. Pshh, if only they knew.Today in the early morning I had a conference call with the pastor that I regularly go to whom by the way was acting really out of the ordinary. He was the one that was supposed to lead the wedding but he had an emergency and thus assigned another one to us. It's like he knew something was up but still didn't say a thing. The one thing he said that still puts me at uneasiness was, God works in mysterious ways and I will see the plan he has for my life, not now but someday. And that I
03:30, my watch reads. Where and why am I up at this time? Well, I am in a private jet going back home and I am up because of the boy with a crazy mind. Blake banged on my door at around two am shortly after I had finished my small one-person party and told me that we had to leave as soon as possible. He told me how he had to go back home and the thought of leaving me alone in the island does not sit well with me…I'm five years older than him, I am capable of taking care of myself and if I was willing, him too! He didn’t take me seriously even after throwing a lot of threats around and tantrums. I felt drained as he was not changing his mind so, I finally took a bath and followed him. It's sad how I left all the free food at the hotel.Looking over to my right side, I see the spiraled work on Blake’s desk and his concentration unmoved from the laptop lying on his lap. My eyelids start getting heavier and heavier until I finally drift off to sleep.*24hours later and we were off the je
My name is Aria Parker-Johnson a mother to Mirella Parker-Johnson and soon to be mother to twins. I am the wife of Blake Parker, a business tycoon that had been known for his player nature but now is a transformed father and loyal husband. Our marriage has been a rollercoaster, it started off hectic, I did not think it would last. I was never supposed to marry him in the first place but God works in miraculous ways. The way we got together, the way we separated and once again the way we got together, it is all a miracle. “Mirella!”“Yes, mom?” She walks into the kitchen, my baby girl is so grown.“Please take these outside. I am sure people are going to start arriving any time soon.” I try picking up the tray but she stops me.“No need to overwork yourself ma, my siblings need to come out to perfectly fine.” “Thank you baby girl.” I let her take everything then decide to head to the bedroom to change.I am pregnant again and I must say, it is a lot of work. Now that I am carrying tw
The only sound audible in the room is of my nails tapping on the dinner table. The quietness just makes me even more anxious as the seat opposite mine remains unoccupied. I actually believed I would be laughing by now or be swept off my feet.But that is not the case which is why I am still lighting up my phone screen for the tenth time hoping to see something different. Yet once again, my heart drops as the time reads;20:15Fifteen minutes after the time Blake set, there still is no sign of him. There is not even one single text, not to talk about a call. If there were people in the room all they would see is a pretty lady dressed in a sophisticated black dress seated awkwardly in her chair, continuously staring at her phone for a sign. Maybe he will walk in any minute, it's human nature to be late20:45"Would you like to order anything Mrs?” The waiter asks me for the second time ever since my arrival."Uhm do you have juice?""No, we don't serve that here.""Okay...how about nona
"Growing up, I did not feel good looking. No matter how much I had tried to compliment myself, my insecurities got me to my knees. People always reassured me that I was handsome but I did not see what they so saw so I did not bother to date anyone. I was not willing to make another human being suffer. I wanted to fix myself up and become close to this hot thing I am today. I was eighteen when I was let out of the shell and became exposed to the public eye. People were crazy over me and I was all over magazines being called handsome. My good looks made people believe I was a heartthrob not knowing I was a virgin at that time. But the attention made me feel like I was ready to give relationships a try. “I did not know how hard it will be because of my brother. All of my serious relationships went downhill because of Steven. Relationship in and out I will find him in bed with my girlfriends," he laughs to himself as I stare with pity, "I stopped pursuing serious relationships and decided
I just wanna sleepppppp!I just wanna sleepppppp!I just wanna sleepppppp!Last night this time… mhm, I was honestly busy with Blake. The entire night and the fact that it is all different tonight is a bummer. I need the sweet kisses all over my face, sweet kisses all over my body but instead I am in my room all alone, struggling to still walk.My phone starts ringing and my heart jumps in joy hoping to see Blake’s caller ID but once the phone is in my hands, my smile drops. “Hello?”"Hey, is this Aria?" The caller on the end of the line asks.The voice sounds a little bit familiar but I cannot wrap my fingers around it. I know without a doubt that it is not Steven so, who is it?"Yes, may I ask whom this is?” I remove the pillows on my bed, getting ready to sleep. I do not really want to beat around the bush with my current state."Mike.""Mike...Mike...oh Mike!” And it finally clicks…how does he have my numbers again, “how are you?""I'm great, I am so glad that you still remember
I think I should not have allowed myself to be led by lust. Why? Because I am not over Blake instead I'm...I'm deeply in love with him again. It was so stupid of me to believe that I will get over him by sleeping with him after I had pointed out that when you engage in sexual acts with someone the two of you become one. I'm one again with Blake and in my case, that is not a good thing.Groaning at my stupidity I hold on tight to the duvet, looking at Blake who is peacefully sleeping. My mind trails back to when our hands intertwined during our love making, that was the end of me yesterday…it is even continuing to be the end of me now.I sure have to give it to Blake, this boy is very calculative, which I dumbly forgot about. He reminded me of things I had forgotten with just one night. The things he knew would work to his favor...why did I believe that I would fall out of love with him again?I sit up straight, wondering how I am to escape the hole I dug up for myself. My feet touch th
"Father, we thank you for the beautiful days you've brought to us. We thank you for the family you've given us, please continue to protect and guide us. Let your Holy Spirit keep us safe, and may our hearts be open to your word all the time. Amen." "Amen." I say, before opening my eyes.Blake and I look at each other for a split second before I speak, “goodnight." "Goodnight gorgeous." He kisses my forehead, exiting my room.After Blake left me at the dance floor, I decided to make business too. Apparently, Bianca's company is well known so it was a smooth sailing. I'm really proud of my friend, she has done exceptionally good for herself. And also the employees have played a huge part. One thing I love mostly is how she couldn't believe it when I told her over the phone. Lady should start believing in herself and her company.However, getting back to the Blake situation...I'm sexually frustrated. I'm pretty sure people could smell the sexual tension in the air while we were dancing
Shopping is part of those things I love with most of my heart. Shopping with Blake...that is another story."No!" Blake says immediately when the fitting room door opens."Well, I love it." I spin around to give him the full view."A-ah. No ways." He pushes me into the fitting room, then closes the door. "Every male eye is going to be on you. Look how the dress is shaping every curve on your body. Then the back...your back is exposed!" He turns my back on the mirror and I turn to look at it.He is right, my back is on full display. But the blue dress is amazing! The tiny beads are making me shine brighter that the disco lights. I face Blake and dah dah dah!!!! Our noses are touching. A second chance to another kissing moment, I am high on the clouds up for it. His fingers run down the line on my back, and I take penguin steps towards him then he lowers his head and,“Feels like we're on the edge right nowI wish that I could say I'm proudI'm sorry that I let you downI let you down-
His arms immediately grab my waist and I have no choice but to lean into him. My hands become sweaty, my heart starts beating a new tone I am not familiar with as my legs wobble more than a jelly. I feel like a teenager who is about to receive her first kiss. And just like my first, my world is fired up when his lips meet mine. In just mere seconds I have been consumed into an alien feeling. One that I want to experience over and over again, without any break whatsoever.Blake slowly pulls back after the small kiss, but still remains close to me. His breath hitting my lips, making me crave more of them.I open my eyes when he drops his head on my shoulder, "w-why did you stop?" I bluntly ask, saddened by the ending of what I was loving."Because one kiss would never be enough." He whispers enough for me to hear. "Aria I want to devour your lips countless times." My arms find balance on his neck when he grips my thighs, placing me on the table. "I'm just thinking if escaping rehab is w
Things I hate about Blake1. He sometimes smokes2. He...He likes to manipulate situations 3. Loves making me feel younger than him4. He...his...Okay this is not working! Whoever on the internet suggested that to fully get over someone I should write a list of the things I hate about them was totally wrong! I can't use the fact that he used to be a player because that is using his past against him. I wouldn't like it if someone used my past against and I am trying to move it.Ripping the paper from my notebook and shredding it into pieces, I sit back into my chair. It's been five days that I've not had an encounter with Blake which I'm grateful for. The only reason is because he is finalising the whole business move since we have moved back here and he is taking over the company here. The workload is a lot and he comes back very late and leaves very early. We do spend time together but it's when we pray and when he talks to Mirella and I'm surprisingly there. But it's never just him