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35. I'm Sorry
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2021-06-23 01:07:31It’s one a.m., Jude is in my room, and he is drunk.
Panic shoots through me as sleep deserts me and the situation sinks in. I slept with my lights on so I can see exactly how much drunk he is.
At first I can’t make sense of what he’s saying, but when I do, my blood runs cold.
“Sorry, Jo…. Sssorrry… Your sister… Saw me…”
The words come out disjointed, but I hear him fine alright.
He drops on my bed, huffing as if the effort of making that sentence has taken all his energy.
My heart is pounding so loud in my chest, I can’t hear my own thoughts.
Maybe that’s because there’s none. I can’t think.
I crawl onto my knee and shake him. “Jude? Are you sure?”
He lets out a groan, turns his head to the
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