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25. I Want More
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2024-10-29 19:42:56In gaining one friend – Isaac, regaining another one, - Jax, I have also sort of… Well, definitely lost one.
Three weeks later, I still have no idea what happened.
I have a feeling Jax breaking up with her has something to do with it, because she doesn’t talk to him either. He also told me she didn’t take the break up well.
Does she think I had something to do with it? That maybe I asked him to stop things with her? I might have not approved, but that wasn’t my call to make.
I would like to talk to her, but she doesn’t hang out around me anymore, and she went ahead to switch her sitting position in English class. I have had a lot of time to assess the status of my friendships, and I think it’s a bit worrying that Nicki is the only girl left in my life I can call a friend. I talk to Lilian regularly, but she’s my sister and I might be chea
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