8LINDYNothing important.It might sound so simple and so innocent. It almost sounded like he did not really put much thought about it nor didn’t it sound something trivial.Nothing important.Was it really? Was it really just nothing important?Or maybe I am just the person who is thinking too much about what is really going on.Maybe.Yes, maybe.That is right.But no matter what and how I think about, trying to push it down in the gut of my stomach that it was really just nothing important, those words completely bothers me because in the back of my head, I felt something different from the way he said it. It felt like he was guarding something that he didn’t want me to know.Is it just me?Oh God, please tell me that it is just me.Nothing important.Nothing important.Nothing important.Those words kept running again and again and again in the back of my head.I groan inwardly and hated those words as it does not even want to get out of my head. I have always trusted my gut fee
9LINDYGwyneth smiles at me and I like how she looks at me sweetly, "You both are lucky to have each other. You're not fake and you're honest. It’s what Milo needs in his crazy world.”I smile back at her, “Thank you. This means so much to me.”“I’m just so inspired of you when I saw that interview you did back in the day and I admired you for that. You're such a strong woman." She tugs on her hand."Thanks a lot. It means so much to hear that coming from Milo's sister."She placed her arm on my shoulder, "It’s not much. You changed Milo. You actually made him more mature.” “It’s funny how you say that when he is much older than me.” “I can tell that you are a good influence on him. I'm not against you dating my brother. He's just changed since he met you and I'm extremely happy for him."I smiled at her and hearing that coming from Gwyneth just made me feel more loved and welcomed. She makes me feel as if I am really the best partner for her younger brother that she has met and I
10L I N D YJolene Jolene Jolene Who is she?I have never heard of that name.Jolene?Who is she?Jolene was a name I have never ever heard before coming from Milo or anyone else in his circle. She was a name with a dead end and I do not know how to actually feel about that. I can tell from the look in their eyes that there was something else that they were hiding which coming from this woman named Jolene. Jolene. I repeat her name in the back of my head.Jolene, I repeated again.But my head is blank.I try to recall if the lads had mentioned about that name before, but I am sure that they have never had mentioned any woman's name that is Jolene.Jolene.A name that rings no bell.Who in hell is she anyway?And furthermore, why is it the only time that I hear her name?Who is she to Milo?What were they?Her name is already bugging me and the thought about what she was and who she actually was to Milo is making me feel so anxious just thinking about it,God, who in actual freaki
11M I L O“Somebody answer me.”I stare back at Gwyneth who gave me an eager eye and I knew that she had obviously and evidently heard what I was talking about with Lind. I know she must have been traumatized by the things that I have done before and the kind of guy I was a few years back. Obviously, I know that she never wanted me to make the same mistakes as what I did before with the other women that I was with all for fun. She hated how carefree I was with my life and that I never took any woman seriously which really got her angry knowing I grew up in a household with two women surrounding me.Although, she never knew about the real truth regarding what happened actually happened with that woman and until now I could not tell her what really happened too. She would hate me.She would curse me to death.She would never forgive me.Ever.“How long have you been standing there?” I ask her intriguingly as I cast a glance over Lindy who looked just as mortified.She enters our bedro
12MILOGwyneth stares at me angrily and scowls in frustration and I understand what she was trying to make us understand but I only want to think of the good things now. Lindy would think that Gwyneth was disappointed that I got her pregnant and probably worries about the fact that we lied to her but I know Gwyneth is thinking of another thing. Gwyneth is thinking about Jolene and I can not stop thinking about her too now that this is all happening again.The entire night went by fast and we were not able to have a movie night. Lindy had fallen asleep in the bedroom after crying about how she felt like she betrayed Gwyneth’s trust. Lindy’s been fragile and I do not really like seeing her cry after what I have done to her before. I did not want her to go through that kind of pain again, the kind of pain that I am always the reason behind it.I did not want it.Gwyneth is staying in the room on the floor right above us and had not talked to me after she found out about the pregnancy. I
13L I N D Y Nightmare.Nightmares are normal especially when your body feels just incredibly tired which causes your brain to produce things that are not really true that could allow you to dream about them and would cause you to wake up in the middle of your sleep covered in sweats and waking up to fast heart beating.I did not even know that Milo would get a nightmare that can pull him out of the bed in a matter of seconds.His eyes looked hysterical.He looked absolutely scared.I wondered what he dreamed about and if he has been bothered about some things lately that he is not telling me, but he would always assure me that he was fine.Hours after Milo had a nightmare, he grew even more silent and seemed distant at most times which bothered me again. What was wrong with him? I would constantly ask myself, not knowing the answer to it. He did not tell me what he dreamed about but it seemed as if it was really frightening for him that it absolutely shocked him to the core. I do no
14L I N D YWhen we reached Connecticut, it was already seven-thirty on a Monday morning and I have a class at eight so I still have a few minutes left before it would start. Milo hurriedly drove me to school after eating breakfast together and I have tried my best to ignore the bothering thought about Jolene even though she had kept bothering me since I knew about her.Every single time I pause or do nothing or do something, I keep thinking about her. She has now infiltrated my thoughts and I cannot seem to stop wondering who she might be. I know I should ask about her to Milo just to clear my thoughts about her and my worries that keeps surging and flooding inside me and my head. Milo having nightmares must be about Jolene or maybe it is someone related to her, but if it is about her, then who is she to Milo?Jesus Christ, who in hell is Jolene?I have to ask Milo.I stared intently at him as he was driving which causes him to look back at me, "Something wrong baby?" He questions m
15L I N D Y“Lindy?”“Hey.” I answered Milo as I began to walk heading to the café. “You took long to answer," He tells me as he is waiting for my response. "Is there something wrong?” He asks me seriously as I hear him munching on some food. “No, I am fine.” I reassured him as I forced a smile on my face. “I was talking to someone earlier that is why I was not able to answer right away. I am sorry for that.” “Oh yeah?" He chimes, sounding curious."Yeah." I answered instantly. "It was not that important anyway." I shrugged it off so that he will not get suspicious over anything and will not be jealous.He hums deeply under his throat before asking me, "Would you mind telling me who was it?""A schoolmate." I chirped."A schoolmate?" He parroted."Yeah, a schoolmate.""That is nice." He compliments nonchalantly as he continues to sound like he is eating on something from the other line. I can hear him munching and crunching before he continues to question me, "How was your mornin