11M I L O“Somebody answer me.”I stare back at Gwyneth who gave me an eager eye and I knew that she had obviously and evidently heard what I was talking about with Lind. I know she must have been traumatized by the things that I have done before and the kind of guy I was a few years back. Obviously, I know that she never wanted me to make the same mistakes as what I did before with the other women that I was with all for fun. She hated how carefree I was with my life and that I never took any woman seriously which really got her angry knowing I grew up in a household with two women surrounding me.Although, she never knew about the real truth regarding what happened actually happened with that woman and until now I could not tell her what really happened too. She would hate me.She would curse me to death.She would never forgive me.Ever.“How long have you been standing there?” I ask her intriguingly as I cast a glance over Lindy who looked just as mortified.She enters our bedro
12MILOGwyneth stares at me angrily and scowls in frustration and I understand what she was trying to make us understand but I only want to think of the good things now. Lindy would think that Gwyneth was disappointed that I got her pregnant and probably worries about the fact that we lied to her but I know Gwyneth is thinking of another thing. Gwyneth is thinking about Jolene and I can not stop thinking about her too now that this is all happening again.The entire night went by fast and we were not able to have a movie night. Lindy had fallen asleep in the bedroom after crying about how she felt like she betrayed Gwyneth’s trust. Lindy’s been fragile and I do not really like seeing her cry after what I have done to her before. I did not want her to go through that kind of pain again, the kind of pain that I am always the reason behind it.I did not want it.Gwyneth is staying in the room on the floor right above us and had not talked to me after she found out about the pregnancy. I
13L I N D Y Nightmare.Nightmares are normal especially when your body feels just incredibly tired which causes your brain to produce things that are not really true that could allow you to dream about them and would cause you to wake up in the middle of your sleep covered in sweats and waking up to fast heart beating.I did not even know that Milo would get a nightmare that can pull him out of the bed in a matter of seconds.His eyes looked hysterical.He looked absolutely scared.I wondered what he dreamed about and if he has been bothered about some things lately that he is not telling me, but he would always assure me that he was fine.Hours after Milo had a nightmare, he grew even more silent and seemed distant at most times which bothered me again. What was wrong with him? I would constantly ask myself, not knowing the answer to it. He did not tell me what he dreamed about but it seemed as if it was really frightening for him that it absolutely shocked him to the core. I do no
14L I N D YWhen we reached Connecticut, it was already seven-thirty on a Monday morning and I have a class at eight so I still have a few minutes left before it would start. Milo hurriedly drove me to school after eating breakfast together and I have tried my best to ignore the bothering thought about Jolene even though she had kept bothering me since I knew about her.Every single time I pause or do nothing or do something, I keep thinking about her. She has now infiltrated my thoughts and I cannot seem to stop wondering who she might be. I know I should ask about her to Milo just to clear my thoughts about her and my worries that keeps surging and flooding inside me and my head. Milo having nightmares must be about Jolene or maybe it is someone related to her, but if it is about her, then who is she to Milo?Jesus Christ, who in hell is Jolene?I have to ask Milo.I stared intently at him as he was driving which causes him to look back at me, "Something wrong baby?" He questions m
15L I N D Y“Lindy?”“Hey.” I answered Milo as I began to walk heading to the café. “You took long to answer," He tells me as he is waiting for my response. "Is there something wrong?” He asks me seriously as I hear him munching on some food. “No, I am fine.” I reassured him as I forced a smile on my face. “I was talking to someone earlier that is why I was not able to answer right away. I am sorry for that.” “Oh yeah?" He chimes, sounding curious."Yeah." I answered instantly. "It was not that important anyway." I shrugged it off so that he will not get suspicious over anything and will not be jealous.He hums deeply under his throat before asking me, "Would you mind telling me who was it?""A schoolmate." I chirped."A schoolmate?" He parroted."Yeah, a schoolmate.""That is nice." He compliments nonchalantly as he continues to sound like he is eating on something from the other line. I can hear him munching and crunching before he continues to question me, "How was your mornin
16L I N D YJake pauses from eating and just stares at me, “You know I kind of regretted why I never really had the guts to be friends with you.”I was taken aback by his words because they seemed as if it was something I would want to hear when I would be in high school. I have always had a huge crush on Jake but I guess hearing those words now no longer mattered to me because I have Milo and we are going to have a child soon. Although Jake’s words are flattering, it still makes me happy to hear that he wanted to be friends with me.“I am way out of your league. Your friends were so cool. All so cool.” I answered while laughing under my throat and staring at my hands.“Maybe.” He chuckles. “Maybe they were the cool ones and I was not.""What?""I did not feel like I fit in though. I did not feel like I was cool or something so I did not try to be cool in any way.”“What do you mean?” I asked. "You are cool."He stares at me and shakes his head, “Nah, I was just an average student. B
17L I N D Y “I’m not.” I lied.I turned my head towards him and asked him back, “Is there a reason why I should?” He took a long pause, awkward enough to send a shiver down my spine so I forced myself to look away and watch out for Milo’s car. Griffin chuckles, “No Lindy.” “I see. So why would you feel that I am scared of you?” “Because I can tell by the way you’re breathing.”The moment I looked back, I was surprised to notice that he was already leaning closer to me. He was too close that I can feel his breathing against my skin and his eyes scanning my entire face as if he was looking for something. I stood completely frozen as I feel my heart thumping hard inside my chest. “Don’t worry.” He whispers.My breathing heavies. “I’m friendly.” He adds.I travelled my eyes back at Griffin and he was smiling at me before he placed a black baseball cap over his head. His eyes were still glued on mine and I cannot believe how that stare seemed so intense yet so damned cold. There wa
18Finally the foods were served one by one and everything on the table looked so mouthwatering. We started eating right away and I was taking bigger bites than Milo that made him kind of laugh as we continued to eat and talk about how his meeting went and why it took him too long to pick me up. He constantly would wipe my cheek with the table napkin and laugh adorably at me.“I’m really hungry.” I said.“Didn’t you eat earlier?”I was then reminded that I wasn’t able to eat during lunch and I only had the snack bars that Jake gave me. It wasn’t so bad but the kind of hunger hours passed since I ate it was undeniably striking. I wanted to skip class just to eat but we had an exam.“I ate a light meal.” I answered.“Light meal? Christ Lindy, you should remember that you’re no longer eating for yourself.”“I know. I’m sorry. I promise I would eat more next time.”“Please take care of yourself.” He tells me dearly.“I will.” I smiled reassuringly.He smiles back. “You should eat a lot. H
E P I L O G U E "Em, just stop screaming, please." Lindy begs. "Think of it as a vacation."VACATION?! Then why can not I use the private jet?! Why do I have to ride a plane in eco... e... Ugh! I do not even want to say the word!""Stop being so overdramatic, Em. We all started somewhere." Milo mocks."I started rich and popular, I am keeping that title." She stood her ground.Milo tilts his head, "Not unless I take that away from you."She gapes.Ezekiel pulled up his pad as soon as he finished writing the words, “Cheer up Em. It is not so bad.” with a smiley face next to the sentence.It annoyed her even more. She loves her twin brother, but she hates the situation that she was in.“Not so bad for you!!” She screams at her brother before she groans. “You can not do this to me!!” Emerald screams like the drama queen she is.Days passed, Emerald found herself arriving in Aidenwoods, New Zealand with two big pieces of luggage and only a hundred pounds in her wallet and the other hund
70‘The famous Beckett duo called EZME called it quits after five years of singing together to their millions of fans due to personal issues, scandals, and health conditions that needed to be taken more seriously. Ezekiel Beckett has been suffering from Muscle Tension Dysphonia which causes the sound and feel of his voice to change due to extreme muscle tension in and around his voice box. As a result, it causes his voice to regularly stop performing more efficiently which broke a lot of his female fans' hearts. The 21-year-old heartthrob and crooner recently lost his voice due to stress, tension, overuse, and overwork and is now going through therapy doing various exercises.On the other hand, Emerald Beckett, who is no longer new to scandals and issues, has gotten some pretty bad press every now and then. The 21-year-old pop star and the other half of the duo called EZME have been known for her horrific diva behavior since her rise in popularity. It has always been rumored that she
69L I N D Y After the honeymoon, I bravely decided to go back to college and finish where I left off. Milo has been very supportive of my decisions and he has been my confidante in almost anything that I do and I want to do. He would confront me about what would be the best and would advise me when things get harder or more confusing. He is just there constantly supporting me which means so much to me after everything.When he asked me if I would move in with him to London, I did not hesitate to agree with him because all my life anywhere with him, whether it is in London, Peru, Spain, South Africa, the Philippines, or anywhere around the world, I would want to be with him. Always. Mom and dad felt sad when they found out that I was moving to another continent which made them feel a little bit emotional before we parted ways. Although they understand that things are going to be different now that I am getting older and wiser and have plans set on ahead of me with Milo. Yet, my paren
68L I N D Y “Welcome home Lindy!!!” I was taken aback as soon as the party poppers popped that came out of nowhere and I see everyone in this house greeting me with smiles on their faces. I see Lucius, Jasper, Silas, and Rowan who came all the way to celebrate this day with me which really means so much to me after what I have been through. It was the kind of support system that I needed after what happened to me and how these people are showing me an unconditional kind of love. These guys, whom I have always considered as my older brothers from other mothers, are all here and this means the world to me. I see Martha who ran towards me in a split second and hugged me tightly with tears flooding in her eyes which made me cry too because this scene is very much making me so emotional. She hugs me tight as she says the words, "I am so glad to see you again. I have missed you. I have missed you so much. I missed you a lot."She makes me bawl my eyes out as I hug onto her tighter, "I m
67L I N D YSaint Francis Sanitarium had a different way of treatment which had been pretty much helpful for my recovery. They also had strict rules about visitors, no one was really allowed to see the patients who are under treatments like me to avoid problems, complications, and miscalculations. There were no cellphones allowed inside and Wi-Fi as well to avoid any social media. Although they allowed gifts from the outside, it was still hard not to be able to see everyone. I didn’t let my negative emotions get the worst of me because I had to be strong for myself and my kids and for everyone else who is waiting for me to head out of this mental facility. I faced this battle head on and even though it was hard for me to accept the changes that I have had, emotionally and mentally, I am still very thankful for the support that I am getting from my family, friends, and of course Milo.Milo has been sending me hand written letters every day which is something I always look forward to
66M I L OWhat did she mean by that?Did she mean it literally?Silence, there was silence between us and I was just utterly and indescribably confused. She didn’t answer while her eyes were looking all over the entire house. Her eyes looked like she was searching for something inside the house and at the same time, she looked like she was in distraught. She looked so lost, sad, and completely puzzled by her own thoughts inside her head.“Are you alright baby?” I holler.She nods and looks back at me, “Yes. Just…. Just a little… awake.”I tried to ignore what I heard from her about hearing them in her head and just walked towards her, “I thought you fell asleep?”She shakes her head, “I can’t.”“Did you even try?”She nods. “Yes. These days it’s just hard for me to sleep.”“Should we visit the doctor?”“No.” Her voice was firm. “No need for that.”I take her hand to mine, “Hey, let’s go back to sleep. Shall we?”She nods and smiles before we walked up to the bedroom.I still hear the
65M I L OThey were so tiny.Very tiny.So fragile. So delicately adorable. I stare at them from outside the glass window and my heart swells with these crazy emotions that are building up inside me the more I stare at how tiny and angelic they looked. Staring at them, I did not know that I could love more my sweet Lindy for carrying my little soldiers who are now battling with their own lives. I had no idea that these tiny creatures would actually make me feel much more whole in some way. I glance at the tubes and machines that were surrounding them to help them survive and grow and I know they are fighters and that they will grow stronger. I know. I know they will. I watch as their chests go up and down while they were breathing as they were moving their tiny hands around and subtly kicked their small feet. It was amazing how they looked and how their tiny movements could actually surprise me and amaze me at the same time. Absentmindedly, I am staring at them with a smile on m
64M I L OI laugh humorlessly as I shake my head sideways, not wanting to believe what I have just heard. No, this cannot be possible. There is absolutely no way. No. I had no idea that Ricky was this selfish and this heartless with everything that had happened. He is and has always been only thinking about himself and no other else. He only and always wants to save himself from everything when the going gets rough then runs away and hides like a frightful little child and pass the blame onto others so he can clear his name.This man is despicable, absolutely and horrifyingly greedy.“I am so sorry.” Ricky apologizes but the more he says it the more it makes me angry.“Ricky! How could you so selfish?!” Gwyneth screams at him..“Of course!” I exclaimed. “Of course you would say it’s me! You freaking asshole!” I pressed my clenched fist against the center of my forehead. I groan in frustration and in anger because I want to hit this person so badly. I want to hurt him as hard as I ca
63M I L OEver since my argument with Gwyneth, we never really talked as much as we used to. I understand why she was feeling that way and I understand why she had avoided me since she hated what I have done. Of all people, I thought she would be the one who would understand me because she is my sibling, but then I was wrong.She made me feel even worst. I tried to understand where her anger was coming from and obviously, she was gutted that I said and did those things to Jolene. I know she could not believe me that I treated Jolene that way because she has always hated it when I do things that hurt women since I was brought up by women too.I wish my words could change anything to what she sees me now but then I know I can never take back the things I did and the things I said to her.Sometimes I wish she could have understood me and why I had to do it. The night before the band’s world tour started, someone came to my house late at night and rang the doorbell many times which woke