17L I N D Y “I’m not.” I lied.I turned my head towards him and asked him back, “Is there a reason why I should?” He took a long pause, awkward enough to send a shiver down my spine so I forced myself to look away and watch out for Milo’s car. Griffin chuckles, “No Lindy.” “I see. So why would you feel that I am scared of you?” “Because I can tell by the way you’re breathing.”The moment I looked back, I was surprised to notice that he was already leaning closer to me. He was too close that I can feel his breathing against my skin and his eyes scanning my entire face as if he was looking for something. I stood completely frozen as I feel my heart thumping hard inside my chest. “Don’t worry.” He whispers.My breathing heavies. “I’m friendly.” He adds.I travelled my eyes back at Griffin and he was smiling at me before he placed a black baseball cap over his head. His eyes were still glued on mine and I cannot believe how that stare seemed so intense yet so damned cold. There wa
18Finally the foods were served one by one and everything on the table looked so mouthwatering. We started eating right away and I was taking bigger bites than Milo that made him kind of laugh as we continued to eat and talk about how his meeting went and why it took him too long to pick me up. He constantly would wipe my cheek with the table napkin and laugh adorably at me.“I’m really hungry.” I said.“Didn’t you eat earlier?”I was then reminded that I wasn’t able to eat during lunch and I only had the snack bars that Jake gave me. It wasn’t so bad but the kind of hunger hours passed since I ate it was undeniably striking. I wanted to skip class just to eat but we had an exam.“I ate a light meal.” I answered.“Light meal? Christ Lindy, you should remember that you’re no longer eating for yourself.”“I know. I’m sorry. I promise I would eat more next time.”“Please take care of yourself.” He tells me dearly.“I will.” I smiled reassuringly.He smiles back. “You should eat a lot. H
19L I N D YI take a pause and stare at Milo intently before answering him, “I am not.” His eyes look sad but he manages to smile and his smile just makes me feel as if the world would stop every single time he does that. His dimpled smile could cure the longingness I always feel when he is not around and that it could pause the entire world from spinning and make me feel as if everything around us did not matter because I have him.I have him and he loves me.“I just…" I trailed off."You just?""I just really love you.” I answer him with a smile on my face and felt this love between us.Milo’s lips widen into a smile and his dimples are much more visible now compared to earlier when suddenly steps on the brake which causes the car to come to a stop as it surprises me. “Why did we stop?” I asked. Out of nowhere, his long arms started reaching out to me and wrapping them around me the next second without even saying a single thing. He began to pull me close to his body and embrace
20“What do you mean not necessary?” He questions with heavier tone of voice. “I do not want this kind of thing to happen again when I am not around. I do not want that guy to be lurking around here while I am thousands of miles away from you.”“Milo," I hollered. "I am safe here. Okay?”“Lindy you can not stop me from worrying, not after that." He gestures his hand to where Griffin had walked away. "Especially not with a man like him who we saw just casually walking out of this freaking dorm.” He sounded so frustrated and I understand where this frustration was coming from.I sigh heavily as I feel a little heavy in my chest. He leans towards my ear and whispered softly, "I cannot stop worrying knowing that you are carrying our baby."I look back at him before he plants a kiss on my temple, “I swear to God I do not trust him and you better stay away from him, okay?” He worries as his worry filled eyes are looking back at me.I answered him with a nod, “I promise you, I will do everyt
21L I N D Y“Sammie was dead.”Those three simple words kept ringing inside my ear and I can’t actually believe it. I can feel my heart racing inside my chest knowing I have been casually talking with that man since I bumped into him. Recalling back the time in the hallway makes me wonder it was intentional and planned. “Sammie wasn’t his only victim.” Bailey adds.“What do you mean?” “There were a few more victims before Sammie. I have heard he has this obsessive disorder where he tends to get attached to any woman he lays his eyes on.”“What?” I didn’t want to believe that this kind of man has a certain record and the entire university isn’t even doing anything to him. “Shouldn’t he be in prison instead? Why is he still out?”“Jury found him not guilty because she had no proofs. There were some girls that were brutally hurt by him but they were all too scared to come out. I heard he paid them so that they wont file a case and they had to leave Yale.”“But this girl named Sammie….
22L I N D Y“Can you accompany me to the airport?” Milo asks me the next instant.I inwardly cursed at Bailey for even spilling that out. “Sure.” I answered.The minute we got inside his car, he was still awfully quiet. I assumed that he was thinking about what Bailey had just said while I was thinking about what I could lie to him so that he won’t worry about me. His brows were knitted together as Paul begins to drive the car while the two of us were sitting in the backseat.When the car moved, we already headed out the gates of Yale but he was still silent. Silent Milo is something that I don’t like because I can tell that he has a lot of things going on inside his head. I glanced at him and he looked unhappy with what he just found out. Curse the light-lipped Bailey Watson."Milo, baby I'm--""Why didn't you tell me?” He cuts me off.I glance at Paul who started sliding up the compartment window that separates the backseat from the diver’s area. I lowered my head and felt guilty
23L I N D Y"Hi." Griffin greeted.I was nervous about why he is here in the girls’ dormitory early in the morning. What is he even doing here in the first place? He can’t possibly be waiting for me, is he? There’s just no absolute way that he is waiting for me. I gazed at him and smiled slightly then just continued walking ahead trying to ignore that he actually existed. I don’t want to be around him, to be honest after every thing that I have heard about him.I froze when he begins to jog and catches up with me as he walks next to me.“Hey.” He calls out.As much as I want to ignore him, it’s so hard because he is literally walking with me. I didn’t feel safe being with him and it feels like he has something he wanted to say but it’s the least I care about. "I was just wondering. Are you by any chance mad at me?" He asks me.I gazed at him from the corner of my eyes and his eyes looked inquisitive. I looked away as I answered, "Why would I be mad at you?" I asked him."I don't kn
24MILO'S POV“Milo don’t--”I quickly ended the video call and felt guilty right away from even letting my jealousy and anger get the worst of me. This was stupid, absolutely stupid since I am getting jealous over a petty guy.Guy, that’s what worries me. A guy that Lindy liked in her high school is actually approaching her. This wasn’t even the first time that this happened. I hate how I keep on getting jealous over that asshole when I should be trusting Lindy instead.It was hard to be in this kind of relationship, most especially since my work allows me to be away from her for days, weeks, and even months.I can’t just stop thinking about her having a closer relationship with another man and that closeness would make her realize that her love for me is no longer valid.Jesus Christ Milo, why are you overthinking things?I groan in my seat and threw my phone on the couch right next to me as I watch it bounce off. I wasn’t really angry at Lindy, but I am angrier at myself for even
E P I L O G U E "Em, just stop screaming, please." Lindy begs. "Think of it as a vacation."VACATION?! Then why can not I use the private jet?! Why do I have to ride a plane in eco... e... Ugh! I do not even want to say the word!""Stop being so overdramatic, Em. We all started somewhere." Milo mocks."I started rich and popular, I am keeping that title." She stood her ground.Milo tilts his head, "Not unless I take that away from you."She gapes.Ezekiel pulled up his pad as soon as he finished writing the words, “Cheer up Em. It is not so bad.” with a smiley face next to the sentence.It annoyed her even more. She loves her twin brother, but she hates the situation that she was in.“Not so bad for you!!” She screams at her brother before she groans. “You can not do this to me!!” Emerald screams like the drama queen she is.Days passed, Emerald found herself arriving in Aidenwoods, New Zealand with two big pieces of luggage and only a hundred pounds in her wallet and the other hund
70‘The famous Beckett duo called EZME called it quits after five years of singing together to their millions of fans due to personal issues, scandals, and health conditions that needed to be taken more seriously. Ezekiel Beckett has been suffering from Muscle Tension Dysphonia which causes the sound and feel of his voice to change due to extreme muscle tension in and around his voice box. As a result, it causes his voice to regularly stop performing more efficiently which broke a lot of his female fans' hearts. The 21-year-old heartthrob and crooner recently lost his voice due to stress, tension, overuse, and overwork and is now going through therapy doing various exercises.On the other hand, Emerald Beckett, who is no longer new to scandals and issues, has gotten some pretty bad press every now and then. The 21-year-old pop star and the other half of the duo called EZME have been known for her horrific diva behavior since her rise in popularity. It has always been rumored that she
69L I N D Y After the honeymoon, I bravely decided to go back to college and finish where I left off. Milo has been very supportive of my decisions and he has been my confidante in almost anything that I do and I want to do. He would confront me about what would be the best and would advise me when things get harder or more confusing. He is just there constantly supporting me which means so much to me after everything.When he asked me if I would move in with him to London, I did not hesitate to agree with him because all my life anywhere with him, whether it is in London, Peru, Spain, South Africa, the Philippines, or anywhere around the world, I would want to be with him. Always. Mom and dad felt sad when they found out that I was moving to another continent which made them feel a little bit emotional before we parted ways. Although they understand that things are going to be different now that I am getting older and wiser and have plans set on ahead of me with Milo. Yet, my paren
68L I N D Y “Welcome home Lindy!!!” I was taken aback as soon as the party poppers popped that came out of nowhere and I see everyone in this house greeting me with smiles on their faces. I see Lucius, Jasper, Silas, and Rowan who came all the way to celebrate this day with me which really means so much to me after what I have been through. It was the kind of support system that I needed after what happened to me and how these people are showing me an unconditional kind of love. These guys, whom I have always considered as my older brothers from other mothers, are all here and this means the world to me. I see Martha who ran towards me in a split second and hugged me tightly with tears flooding in her eyes which made me cry too because this scene is very much making me so emotional. She hugs me tight as she says the words, "I am so glad to see you again. I have missed you. I have missed you so much. I missed you a lot."She makes me bawl my eyes out as I hug onto her tighter, "I m
67L I N D YSaint Francis Sanitarium had a different way of treatment which had been pretty much helpful for my recovery. They also had strict rules about visitors, no one was really allowed to see the patients who are under treatments like me to avoid problems, complications, and miscalculations. There were no cellphones allowed inside and Wi-Fi as well to avoid any social media. Although they allowed gifts from the outside, it was still hard not to be able to see everyone. I didn’t let my negative emotions get the worst of me because I had to be strong for myself and my kids and for everyone else who is waiting for me to head out of this mental facility. I faced this battle head on and even though it was hard for me to accept the changes that I have had, emotionally and mentally, I am still very thankful for the support that I am getting from my family, friends, and of course Milo.Milo has been sending me hand written letters every day which is something I always look forward to
66M I L OWhat did she mean by that?Did she mean it literally?Silence, there was silence between us and I was just utterly and indescribably confused. She didn’t answer while her eyes were looking all over the entire house. Her eyes looked like she was searching for something inside the house and at the same time, she looked like she was in distraught. She looked so lost, sad, and completely puzzled by her own thoughts inside her head.“Are you alright baby?” I holler.She nods and looks back at me, “Yes. Just…. Just a little… awake.”I tried to ignore what I heard from her about hearing them in her head and just walked towards her, “I thought you fell asleep?”She shakes her head, “I can’t.”“Did you even try?”She nods. “Yes. These days it’s just hard for me to sleep.”“Should we visit the doctor?”“No.” Her voice was firm. “No need for that.”I take her hand to mine, “Hey, let’s go back to sleep. Shall we?”She nods and smiles before we walked up to the bedroom.I still hear the
65M I L OThey were so tiny.Very tiny.So fragile. So delicately adorable. I stare at them from outside the glass window and my heart swells with these crazy emotions that are building up inside me the more I stare at how tiny and angelic they looked. Staring at them, I did not know that I could love more my sweet Lindy for carrying my little soldiers who are now battling with their own lives. I had no idea that these tiny creatures would actually make me feel much more whole in some way. I glance at the tubes and machines that were surrounding them to help them survive and grow and I know they are fighters and that they will grow stronger. I know. I know they will. I watch as their chests go up and down while they were breathing as they were moving their tiny hands around and subtly kicked their small feet. It was amazing how they looked and how their tiny movements could actually surprise me and amaze me at the same time. Absentmindedly, I am staring at them with a smile on m
64M I L OI laugh humorlessly as I shake my head sideways, not wanting to believe what I have just heard. No, this cannot be possible. There is absolutely no way. No. I had no idea that Ricky was this selfish and this heartless with everything that had happened. He is and has always been only thinking about himself and no other else. He only and always wants to save himself from everything when the going gets rough then runs away and hides like a frightful little child and pass the blame onto others so he can clear his name.This man is despicable, absolutely and horrifyingly greedy.“I am so sorry.” Ricky apologizes but the more he says it the more it makes me angry.“Ricky! How could you so selfish?!” Gwyneth screams at him..“Of course!” I exclaimed. “Of course you would say it’s me! You freaking asshole!” I pressed my clenched fist against the center of my forehead. I groan in frustration and in anger because I want to hit this person so badly. I want to hurt him as hard as I ca
63M I L OEver since my argument with Gwyneth, we never really talked as much as we used to. I understand why she was feeling that way and I understand why she had avoided me since she hated what I have done. Of all people, I thought she would be the one who would understand me because she is my sibling, but then I was wrong.She made me feel even worst. I tried to understand where her anger was coming from and obviously, she was gutted that I said and did those things to Jolene. I know she could not believe me that I treated Jolene that way because she has always hated it when I do things that hurt women since I was brought up by women too.I wish my words could change anything to what she sees me now but then I know I can never take back the things I did and the things I said to her.Sometimes I wish she could have understood me and why I had to do it. The night before the band’s world tour started, someone came to my house late at night and rang the doorbell many times which woke