16L I N D YJake pauses from eating and just stares at me, “You know I kind of regretted why I never really had the guts to be friends with you.”I was taken aback by his words because they seemed as if it was something I would want to hear when I would be in high school. I have always had a huge crush on Jake but I guess hearing those words now no longer mattered to me because I have Milo and we are going to have a child soon. Although Jake’s words are flattering, it still makes me happy to hear that he wanted to be friends with me.“I am way out of your league. Your friends were so cool. All so cool.” I answered while laughing under my throat and staring at my hands.“Maybe.” He chuckles. “Maybe they were the cool ones and I was not.""What?""I did not feel like I fit in though. I did not feel like I was cool or something so I did not try to be cool in any way.”“What do you mean?” I asked. "You are cool."He stares at me and shakes his head, “Nah, I was just an average student. B
17L I N D Y “I’m not.” I lied.I turned my head towards him and asked him back, “Is there a reason why I should?” He took a long pause, awkward enough to send a shiver down my spine so I forced myself to look away and watch out for Milo’s car. Griffin chuckles, “No Lindy.” “I see. So why would you feel that I am scared of you?” “Because I can tell by the way you’re breathing.”The moment I looked back, I was surprised to notice that he was already leaning closer to me. He was too close that I can feel his breathing against my skin and his eyes scanning my entire face as if he was looking for something. I stood completely frozen as I feel my heart thumping hard inside my chest. “Don’t worry.” He whispers.My breathing heavies. “I’m friendly.” He adds.I travelled my eyes back at Griffin and he was smiling at me before he placed a black baseball cap over his head. His eyes were still glued on mine and I cannot believe how that stare seemed so intense yet so damned cold. There wa
18Finally the foods were served one by one and everything on the table looked so mouthwatering. We started eating right away and I was taking bigger bites than Milo that made him kind of laugh as we continued to eat and talk about how his meeting went and why it took him too long to pick me up. He constantly would wipe my cheek with the table napkin and laugh adorably at me.“I’m really hungry.” I said.“Didn’t you eat earlier?”I was then reminded that I wasn’t able to eat during lunch and I only had the snack bars that Jake gave me. It wasn’t so bad but the kind of hunger hours passed since I ate it was undeniably striking. I wanted to skip class just to eat but we had an exam.“I ate a light meal.” I answered.“Light meal? Christ Lindy, you should remember that you’re no longer eating for yourself.”“I know. I’m sorry. I promise I would eat more next time.”“Please take care of yourself.” He tells me dearly.“I will.” I smiled reassuringly.He smiles back. “You should eat a lot. H
19L I N D YI take a pause and stare at Milo intently before answering him, “I am not.” His eyes look sad but he manages to smile and his smile just makes me feel as if the world would stop every single time he does that. His dimpled smile could cure the longingness I always feel when he is not around and that it could pause the entire world from spinning and make me feel as if everything around us did not matter because I have him.I have him and he loves me.“I just…" I trailed off."You just?""I just really love you.” I answer him with a smile on my face and felt this love between us.Milo’s lips widen into a smile and his dimples are much more visible now compared to earlier when suddenly steps on the brake which causes the car to come to a stop as it surprises me. “Why did we stop?” I asked. Out of nowhere, his long arms started reaching out to me and wrapping them around me the next second without even saying a single thing. He began to pull me close to his body and embrace
20“What do you mean not necessary?” He questions with heavier tone of voice. “I do not want this kind of thing to happen again when I am not around. I do not want that guy to be lurking around here while I am thousands of miles away from you.”“Milo," I hollered. "I am safe here. Okay?”“Lindy you can not stop me from worrying, not after that." He gestures his hand to where Griffin had walked away. "Especially not with a man like him who we saw just casually walking out of this freaking dorm.” He sounded so frustrated and I understand where this frustration was coming from.I sigh heavily as I feel a little heavy in my chest. He leans towards my ear and whispered softly, "I cannot stop worrying knowing that you are carrying our baby."I look back at him before he plants a kiss on my temple, “I swear to God I do not trust him and you better stay away from him, okay?” He worries as his worry filled eyes are looking back at me.I answered him with a nod, “I promise you, I will do everyt
21L I N D Y“Sammie was dead.”Those three simple words kept ringing inside my ear and I can’t actually believe it. I can feel my heart racing inside my chest knowing I have been casually talking with that man since I bumped into him. Recalling back the time in the hallway makes me wonder it was intentional and planned. “Sammie wasn’t his only victim.” Bailey adds.“What do you mean?” “There were a few more victims before Sammie. I have heard he has this obsessive disorder where he tends to get attached to any woman he lays his eyes on.”“What?” I didn’t want to believe that this kind of man has a certain record and the entire university isn’t even doing anything to him. “Shouldn’t he be in prison instead? Why is he still out?”“Jury found him not guilty because she had no proofs. There were some girls that were brutally hurt by him but they were all too scared to come out. I heard he paid them so that they wont file a case and they had to leave Yale.”“But this girl named Sammie….
22L I N D Y“Can you accompany me to the airport?” Milo asks me the next instant.I inwardly cursed at Bailey for even spilling that out. “Sure.” I answered.The minute we got inside his car, he was still awfully quiet. I assumed that he was thinking about what Bailey had just said while I was thinking about what I could lie to him so that he won’t worry about me. His brows were knitted together as Paul begins to drive the car while the two of us were sitting in the backseat.When the car moved, we already headed out the gates of Yale but he was still silent. Silent Milo is something that I don’t like because I can tell that he has a lot of things going on inside his head. I glanced at him and he looked unhappy with what he just found out. Curse the light-lipped Bailey Watson."Milo, baby I'm--""Why didn't you tell me?” He cuts me off.I glance at Paul who started sliding up the compartment window that separates the backseat from the diver’s area. I lowered my head and felt guilty
23L I N D Y"Hi." Griffin greeted.I was nervous about why he is here in the girls’ dormitory early in the morning. What is he even doing here in the first place? He can’t possibly be waiting for me, is he? There’s just no absolute way that he is waiting for me. I gazed at him and smiled slightly then just continued walking ahead trying to ignore that he actually existed. I don’t want to be around him, to be honest after every thing that I have heard about him.I froze when he begins to jog and catches up with me as he walks next to me.“Hey.” He calls out.As much as I want to ignore him, it’s so hard because he is literally walking with me. I didn’t feel safe being with him and it feels like he has something he wanted to say but it’s the least I care about. "I was just wondering. Are you by any chance mad at me?" He asks me.I gazed at him from the corner of my eyes and his eyes looked inquisitive. I looked away as I answered, "Why would I be mad at you?" I asked him."I don't kn