41J A K E Hours passed after I overheard Lindy and her conversation with Milo through the phone, I decided to give her belly a study, I already thought of a good plan to redeem my fame back and to get me back in the game. It was not really that difficult, I just have to swallow my pride and focus on my dreams and what I want to do in life which is more important. “You look happy.” I pulled my head up and found Calvin joining me with my breakfast. I know he has been meaning to talk about the situation we are both in and I know he has been waiting for Lindy to leave for school. He had been totally annoying ever since he knew about Lindy and if only I wasn’t after his money then I would have dumped his sorry ass instead. “Yeah, I feel good.” I answered. He sits across me with that stupid look on his face which annoys me. “Why do you look at me like I did something wrong?” I can’t help but ask. “Because that girl is living in my freaking house!” “That girl is good.” I responded.
42L I N D Y Everyone in the courtroom was whispering discreetly to one another, which created a highly tensed environment. I cast a quick glance at Milo, who joined the group there to express his support for the ongoing trial. He smiles at me comfortingly, and with that, I started to feel a little better even though there is this constant pounding inside my chest and my head.It is going to be okay. I reminded myself numerous times and I think I had gotten used to having that as an incantation whenever things would go wrong.I returned the smile before turning to look at Jake, who was sitting in his chair and appeared to be frustratingly cool and collected which annoys me so much seeing him and that unbothered look on his face. Why does this cretin have such a professional-looking posture? He seemed to have done nothing wrong even though he is the culprit of this all. He really has the audacity to act as though he has not done anything wrong.This freaking bastard.However, I had th
43L I N D Y The night before the trial, it was hard to trust Calvin the moment I found him standing outside my house covered in bruises. I even thought that he wore make-up just to fool us.When he claimed that he had proof against Jake, my heart was elated but then at the same time, I was indecisive about trusting him. It was so hard knowing that he is friends with Jake. At first, I thought Jake used him as a bait to fool us but then the moment Calvin actually cried, like bawling his tears out right in front of me and Milo, I knew he was going through something.The revelations last night were an eye-opener to me that anyone is actually willing to ruin anybody’s career and life for their own benefit. What hurt the most is that I thought he was actually a well-trusted friend of mine but turns out that he was just using me for his advantage.Milo and I felt pity for Calvin and what he had gone through. At the same time, we were so thankful that he tried to speak up and approach us be
44M I L OI woke up from my sleep in the middle of the night and found Lindy sitting on the single couch reading a book while she was facing the floor-to-ceiling glass window. She has always been like this since the trial started and I am worried about how she is coping up with her studies while juggling this trial at the same time.I know she has been worried and she’s even tried avoiding watching the news and reading social media because she has always been worried about what the people would say. Also, I wanted her to do so since she wouldn’t take more stress in her life especially now that she is pregnant.I slowly rise from the bed and as soon as she saw me sitting up, she smiles weakly. “You’re still awake.” I tell her as I grab my phone from the side table begin to walk towards her.“I tried to sleep but I just can’t.”As I stand in front of her, I pulled out my palm towards her, “Come.”She puts her book down and giggles as she takes my hand with a smile, “And where will you
45M I L OWhen I was younger, much younger, I always had a thing for older women. I was always attracted to them quite a lot in my early ages. I guess I was influenced by my friends in high school and well, women of various ages were throwing themselves at me because I am famous. It was overwhelming at first.To be honest, There’s just something about older women that’s so enticing and enthralling. It’s like a taste that you didn’t know that your taste buds would like.People talked about it a lot and made fun of it too which I didn’t really want to bother about since it was petty. I hate to admit that it got me the first time people mocked me about my interests but aren’t we all interested in weird-ass kind of shit?I did like older women but not way older, take note of the word did since it was already in the past now. Something that I have been pushing in the back of my head.I used to go for women who are in their 30s when I was a teen even though people constantly seemed to hat
46M I L OAfter that night, I left her flat and she was just crying and begging me not to leave yet because she was scared. I didn’t want to be in that kind of mess with her and her husband. All I thought about was to leave and save my career. Leaving that place, I had no intentions of going back. I was frightened at the thought of it. I didn’t know who else to talk to about this because I know it is all my fault for being friends with benefits with a married woman. This is all my fault because, to begin with, I should not have initiated all this.A week passed after that night and I never heard from Jolene but even though I was curious about how she has been doing, I tried to stay away. She has not contacted me and I carried on with my life as nothing happened. Although the guilt kept building inside me that it caused me to have trouble in sleeping. The lads have noticed about it too but I never tried telling them about it, not even Gwyneth. She would fucking kill me if she knew a
47M I L OI can never forget how she cried for help that night and how she begged for me to help her. Until this day, I can still hear her voice in my ear and it even brought me sleepless nights which bugged the hell out of me because the guilt inside me was still there.Even until now.I wasn’t able to do anything.That night as soon as she called me and begged for help, I told her, “Where are you right now?” I’m going to get you, were the words I wanted to tell her but then that would mean that I am risking my fame for the kind of mess that only married couples should be involved. If I butt in and people would know about it, they would be suspicious. You fucking coward, I scolded myself as my heart was pounding hearing Jolene’s cry over the phone. “I’m hiding in our bedroom, He is outside banging the door. He is bloodshot drunk and he… he is holding a knife.” She cries again. “Milo I’m scared.”I can hear Leo’s loud and roaring voice from the other side of the door as he kept ban
48L I N D YThere was something else behind those green eyes that I cannot seem to figure out. He looks completely lost right now as if he was drifting further and further away from me. Further away.So far that I can’t seem to meet his eye.“Milo?” I call out.No response.He was obviously thinking about something as he purse his lips with his eyes staring at something from the distance.What was wrong? I thought to myself.“Milo, are you okay?” I tried again but still, there was no answer.Can’t he hear from the other end? I was just talking to him about how Calvin has been doing for the last couple of days but Milo literally had an impassive look on his face with a distant gaze. He seemed inattentive. “Milo!” I call out to him for the third time while he was obviously zoning out during our video call.He finally snapped out of it and traveled his eyes back at me, “Oh, baby sorry. What were you saying?”“Is there something wrong?” I can’t help but ask. “You look exhausted.” He n
E P I L O G U E "Em, just stop screaming, please." Lindy begs. "Think of it as a vacation."VACATION?! Then why can not I use the private jet?! Why do I have to ride a plane in eco... e... Ugh! I do not even want to say the word!""Stop being so overdramatic, Em. We all started somewhere." Milo mocks."I started rich and popular, I am keeping that title." She stood her ground.Milo tilts his head, "Not unless I take that away from you."She gapes.Ezekiel pulled up his pad as soon as he finished writing the words, “Cheer up Em. It is not so bad.” with a smiley face next to the sentence.It annoyed her even more. She loves her twin brother, but she hates the situation that she was in.“Not so bad for you!!” She screams at her brother before she groans. “You can not do this to me!!” Emerald screams like the drama queen she is.Days passed, Emerald found herself arriving in Aidenwoods, New Zealand with two big pieces of luggage and only a hundred pounds in her wallet and the other hund
70‘The famous Beckett duo called EZME called it quits after five years of singing together to their millions of fans due to personal issues, scandals, and health conditions that needed to be taken more seriously. Ezekiel Beckett has been suffering from Muscle Tension Dysphonia which causes the sound and feel of his voice to change due to extreme muscle tension in and around his voice box. As a result, it causes his voice to regularly stop performing more efficiently which broke a lot of his female fans' hearts. The 21-year-old heartthrob and crooner recently lost his voice due to stress, tension, overuse, and overwork and is now going through therapy doing various exercises.On the other hand, Emerald Beckett, who is no longer new to scandals and issues, has gotten some pretty bad press every now and then. The 21-year-old pop star and the other half of the duo called EZME have been known for her horrific diva behavior since her rise in popularity. It has always been rumored that she
69L I N D Y After the honeymoon, I bravely decided to go back to college and finish where I left off. Milo has been very supportive of my decisions and he has been my confidante in almost anything that I do and I want to do. He would confront me about what would be the best and would advise me when things get harder or more confusing. He is just there constantly supporting me which means so much to me after everything.When he asked me if I would move in with him to London, I did not hesitate to agree with him because all my life anywhere with him, whether it is in London, Peru, Spain, South Africa, the Philippines, or anywhere around the world, I would want to be with him. Always. Mom and dad felt sad when they found out that I was moving to another continent which made them feel a little bit emotional before we parted ways. Although they understand that things are going to be different now that I am getting older and wiser and have plans set on ahead of me with Milo. Yet, my paren
68L I N D Y “Welcome home Lindy!!!” I was taken aback as soon as the party poppers popped that came out of nowhere and I see everyone in this house greeting me with smiles on their faces. I see Lucius, Jasper, Silas, and Rowan who came all the way to celebrate this day with me which really means so much to me after what I have been through. It was the kind of support system that I needed after what happened to me and how these people are showing me an unconditional kind of love. These guys, whom I have always considered as my older brothers from other mothers, are all here and this means the world to me. I see Martha who ran towards me in a split second and hugged me tightly with tears flooding in her eyes which made me cry too because this scene is very much making me so emotional. She hugs me tight as she says the words, "I am so glad to see you again. I have missed you. I have missed you so much. I missed you a lot."She makes me bawl my eyes out as I hug onto her tighter, "I m
67L I N D YSaint Francis Sanitarium had a different way of treatment which had been pretty much helpful for my recovery. They also had strict rules about visitors, no one was really allowed to see the patients who are under treatments like me to avoid problems, complications, and miscalculations. There were no cellphones allowed inside and Wi-Fi as well to avoid any social media. Although they allowed gifts from the outside, it was still hard not to be able to see everyone. I didn’t let my negative emotions get the worst of me because I had to be strong for myself and my kids and for everyone else who is waiting for me to head out of this mental facility. I faced this battle head on and even though it was hard for me to accept the changes that I have had, emotionally and mentally, I am still very thankful for the support that I am getting from my family, friends, and of course Milo.Milo has been sending me hand written letters every day which is something I always look forward to
66M I L OWhat did she mean by that?Did she mean it literally?Silence, there was silence between us and I was just utterly and indescribably confused. She didn’t answer while her eyes were looking all over the entire house. Her eyes looked like she was searching for something inside the house and at the same time, she looked like she was in distraught. She looked so lost, sad, and completely puzzled by her own thoughts inside her head.“Are you alright baby?” I holler.She nods and looks back at me, “Yes. Just…. Just a little… awake.”I tried to ignore what I heard from her about hearing them in her head and just walked towards her, “I thought you fell asleep?”She shakes her head, “I can’t.”“Did you even try?”She nods. “Yes. These days it’s just hard for me to sleep.”“Should we visit the doctor?”“No.” Her voice was firm. “No need for that.”I take her hand to mine, “Hey, let’s go back to sleep. Shall we?”She nods and smiles before we walked up to the bedroom.I still hear the
65M I L OThey were so tiny.Very tiny.So fragile. So delicately adorable. I stare at them from outside the glass window and my heart swells with these crazy emotions that are building up inside me the more I stare at how tiny and angelic they looked. Staring at them, I did not know that I could love more my sweet Lindy for carrying my little soldiers who are now battling with their own lives. I had no idea that these tiny creatures would actually make me feel much more whole in some way. I glance at the tubes and machines that were surrounding them to help them survive and grow and I know they are fighters and that they will grow stronger. I know. I know they will. I watch as their chests go up and down while they were breathing as they were moving their tiny hands around and subtly kicked their small feet. It was amazing how they looked and how their tiny movements could actually surprise me and amaze me at the same time. Absentmindedly, I am staring at them with a smile on m
64M I L OI laugh humorlessly as I shake my head sideways, not wanting to believe what I have just heard. No, this cannot be possible. There is absolutely no way. No. I had no idea that Ricky was this selfish and this heartless with everything that had happened. He is and has always been only thinking about himself and no other else. He only and always wants to save himself from everything when the going gets rough then runs away and hides like a frightful little child and pass the blame onto others so he can clear his name.This man is despicable, absolutely and horrifyingly greedy.“I am so sorry.” Ricky apologizes but the more he says it the more it makes me angry.“Ricky! How could you so selfish?!” Gwyneth screams at him..“Of course!” I exclaimed. “Of course you would say it’s me! You freaking asshole!” I pressed my clenched fist against the center of my forehead. I groan in frustration and in anger because I want to hit this person so badly. I want to hurt him as hard as I ca
63M I L OEver since my argument with Gwyneth, we never really talked as much as we used to. I understand why she was feeling that way and I understand why she had avoided me since she hated what I have done. Of all people, I thought she would be the one who would understand me because she is my sibling, but then I was wrong.She made me feel even worst. I tried to understand where her anger was coming from and obviously, she was gutted that I said and did those things to Jolene. I know she could not believe me that I treated Jolene that way because she has always hated it when I do things that hurt women since I was brought up by women too.I wish my words could change anything to what she sees me now but then I know I can never take back the things I did and the things I said to her.Sometimes I wish she could have understood me and why I had to do it. The night before the band’s world tour started, someone came to my house late at night and rang the doorbell many times which woke