44M I L OI woke up from my sleep in the middle of the night and found Lindy sitting on the single couch reading a book while she was facing the floor-to-ceiling glass window. She has always been like this since the trial started and I am worried about how she is coping up with her studies while juggling this trial at the same time.I know she has been worried and she’s even tried avoiding watching the news and reading social media because she has always been worried about what the people would say. Also, I wanted her to do so since she wouldn’t take more stress in her life especially now that she is pregnant.I slowly rise from the bed and as soon as she saw me sitting up, she smiles weakly. “You’re still awake.” I tell her as I grab my phone from the side table begin to walk towards her.“I tried to sleep but I just can’t.”As I stand in front of her, I pulled out my palm towards her, “Come.”She puts her book down and giggles as she takes my hand with a smile, “And where will you
45M I L OWhen I was younger, much younger, I always had a thing for older women. I was always attracted to them quite a lot in my early ages. I guess I was influenced by my friends in high school and well, women of various ages were throwing themselves at me because I am famous. It was overwhelming at first.To be honest, There’s just something about older women that’s so enticing and enthralling. It’s like a taste that you didn’t know that your taste buds would like.People talked about it a lot and made fun of it too which I didn’t really want to bother about since it was petty. I hate to admit that it got me the first time people mocked me about my interests but aren’t we all interested in weird-ass kind of shit?I did like older women but not way older, take note of the word did since it was already in the past now. Something that I have been pushing in the back of my head.I used to go for women who are in their 30s when I was a teen even though people constantly seemed to hat
46M I L OAfter that night, I left her flat and she was just crying and begging me not to leave yet because she was scared. I didn’t want to be in that kind of mess with her and her husband. All I thought about was to leave and save my career. Leaving that place, I had no intentions of going back. I was frightened at the thought of it. I didn’t know who else to talk to about this because I know it is all my fault for being friends with benefits with a married woman. This is all my fault because, to begin with, I should not have initiated all this.A week passed after that night and I never heard from Jolene but even though I was curious about how she has been doing, I tried to stay away. She has not contacted me and I carried on with my life as nothing happened. Although the guilt kept building inside me that it caused me to have trouble in sleeping. The lads have noticed about it too but I never tried telling them about it, not even Gwyneth. She would fucking kill me if she knew a
47M I L OI can never forget how she cried for help that night and how she begged for me to help her. Until this day, I can still hear her voice in my ear and it even brought me sleepless nights which bugged the hell out of me because the guilt inside me was still there.Even until now.I wasn’t able to do anything.That night as soon as she called me and begged for help, I told her, “Where are you right now?” I’m going to get you, were the words I wanted to tell her but then that would mean that I am risking my fame for the kind of mess that only married couples should be involved. If I butt in and people would know about it, they would be suspicious. You fucking coward, I scolded myself as my heart was pounding hearing Jolene’s cry over the phone. “I’m hiding in our bedroom, He is outside banging the door. He is bloodshot drunk and he… he is holding a knife.” She cries again. “Milo I’m scared.”I can hear Leo’s loud and roaring voice from the other side of the door as he kept ban
48L I N D YThere was something else behind those green eyes that I cannot seem to figure out. He looks completely lost right now as if he was drifting further and further away from me. Further away.So far that I can’t seem to meet his eye.“Milo?” I call out.No response.He was obviously thinking about something as he purse his lips with his eyes staring at something from the distance.What was wrong? I thought to myself.“Milo, are you okay?” I tried again but still, there was no answer.Can’t he hear from the other end? I was just talking to him about how Calvin has been doing for the last couple of days but Milo literally had an impassive look on his face with a distant gaze. He seemed inattentive. “Milo!” I call out to him for the third time while he was obviously zoning out during our video call.He finally snapped out of it and traveled his eyes back at me, “Oh, baby sorry. What were you saying?”“Is there something wrong?” I can’t help but ask. “You look exhausted.” He n
49M I L OThe moment she showed me the note, I knew it was Jolene’s handwriting and a bolt of lightning ran throughout my body electrocuting me.I was pretty nervous as I keep glancing away from Lindy’s penetrating gaze which was making me even guiltier. I think she could instantly tell that I was. Damn, she looks so determined in wanting to know about Jolene and I know one way or another, I have got to let her know everything.Holy freaking shit, I cannot believe that this is really happening and what’s more concerning is that Lindy got the same gift like mine. Heck, same-colored wrapper and ribbon too. There has got to be no way that this was just coincidental. Rather, this was more intentional.Whoever is behind that all this, whether it is really Jolene or not, that person has some motive towards me and could possibly target Lindy too.Fuck, and then there’s still Griffin. Why in the hell did Lindy have to receive that kind of gift in the first place?My heart is pounding inside
50L I N D Y “Do you think it’s really Jolene?” I ask him.Milo shrugs his shoulder, “I don’t know. Fuck, I wish I knew but I don’t know Lindy. I have been having that problem for days now after I got it and I can’t seem to think of anyone who could do it.”“What do you mean?”He breathes, “I got the same gift as well days ago with the same box color and ribbon.” His eyes look lost. “The handwriting is most definitely hers and I know because I saw it a lot in her paintings.”I sigh heavily as I tried to tell myself that there was no longer any reason to be jealous of Jolene. There was no point in getting jealous because Milo had chosen me now and we are having our own babies soon. Moreover, she is only just a part of his past that he wants to forget and get rid of. But there’s still this voice in my head that tells me that I am still freaking jealous. Then there is this fear creeping somewhere in my mind which makes me worried that Milo might suddenly do the same thing to me that
51L I N D Y “What?” Milo gapes. “What do you mean he knew about the gift?” “He was rambling about how I shouldn’t live life in fear and then he brought up something about a gift.” I mumbled with my words.“How did Griffin bring it up?”“He went like you don’t deserve to live a life filled with fear. The gift must have made you feel scared. Those were his words Milo and it’s driving me nuts just thinking and wondering about it right after he threatened me with his knife again.” I cry and cry for more. “Oh my God.” Milo commented. “Are you home? Are you safe?” His voice thickens with worry and fear. “I am home. I feel safe here. Bailey was there to help me and Griffin had run away as soon as she arrived. I was so glad she arrived..” I replied. “Made sure you locked all doors, okay?” I nod even though he cannot see me, “Okay. I already did that.”“Jesus Christ, I don’t know what Griffin has something to do with Jolene. I mean I have known her for years and she never mentioned the