32M I L OJake dated Bianca Annalise. I don’t even remember who that woman is but she didn’t really matter. What mattered was Jake.Maybe he is bisexual? I can’t stop myself from thinking and worrying about his sexuality because he seems to be around Lindy all the damned time.As soon as I reached the studio, I didn’t think about anything else but the conversation I had with Paige earlier in the café about Jake. I tried to assume that possibly she was talking about the wrong guy or maybe she is lying to me just to get back at me after her modeling career flubbed. But what’s more frustrating to me is the thought that makes me wonder if Lindy did even know about this. Did she know he was a model in New York? Did she just lie to me about his sexuality so that she would live there and I won’t suspect anything?No. A voice in the back of my head heeds.She couldn’t lie to me over that. I know her better and she wouldn’t. What if Jake is the one lying to her about his sexuality and ever
33J A K EI hated school. As soon as I finished college, I only had one goal and that was to become a model and do whatever it takes to become one. I am not very good at academics and hell I don’t even want to lift a bone in studying. I didn’t know how I survived high school and passed all that crap.I hated football too although I used it for scholarship since my father is a completely broke human being. I used to do part-time in waiting tables and it was something I was embarrassed about but I needed the money. Although I almost seemed to resort to joining exotic male dancers but then there’s school. I know I have more potential in me and I know I look damned good. I get it, I am charming and sometimes it’s just so easy to get girls these days. Most people think I am an aloof, or so they say I am because I don’t really like to talk to people who are not really worth my time. I didn’t have much male friends in high school because they are always so intimated by my presence to whic
34L I N D YAfter my last lesson, Jake showed me some images, and as soon as I saw them, a shudder ran down my spine. They were not something that I wanted to see, not with what is happening to me for the past few days. Immediately when I saw pictures of Milo and Paige having a date at a coffee shop, I felt as though my entire world was whirling with rage and fury. Why would Milo meet up with that woman in a coffee shop? What things are there left to talk about? Why in hell was she even meeting him in the first place and what else does she want from him!?How dare she touch his face in such a way!Since he is well aware of how envious I am of her, I find it hard to believe that he had the guts to actually meet with her in public. He was actually meeting her, so it makes sense that he did not even message me at all for the whole day today because he was seeing her.It is absurd that he had promised me that he never cheated on me and yet he is out there meeting an ex who took advantage
35I breathe out heavily, "How could you say that about a guy who actually opened his home for me?!”Milo annoyingly runs his palm over his face before he pushes his hair off his forehead, “That is the problem! He is not a hero here!”“Hero?!" I gaped before I scoff. "Hero or not, he was the one who was here and not you!” I paused and realized that my words went too far knowing the current situation that we are both in. I can tell from his eyes that he was hurt by what I said and I have never been more sorry. “Milo, I did not mean….”“You are right anyway.” He answers as he nods at me and it hurts me that those words slipped from my mouth even before I could think about it. “You are absolutely right. I was never there when you needed me and it fucking kills me every time I think about that Lindy!”There was silence."Do you have any idea how it hurts me so much that I am here and I am not with you?! You have no idea how I want to quit with everything with work and just be with you!"“
36L I N D Y“It’s Gwyneth.” Milo smiles.I was able to breathe as soon as I found out that it was her but I was surprised to know that she is there. Anyways, I am happy that she came to visit me.“I wonder what took her so long to get there.” He adds while I watch him drink his water. “I’ll get it.”He nods and I leave the phone as I rush towards the door. Upon opening it, I see a smiling Gwyneth who quickly leaped towards me and gave me a sweet tight hug. “I missed you!” She exclaims. “I’m so happy I came.”I pulled myself away and smiled at her. She looked exhausted, “I’m so happy to see you being here.” I said as I gestured for her to enter and helped her with her luggage.“Damn Milo did buy a pretty nice house.” Gwyneth commented.I chuckle softly, “Yeah he did buy a pretty big house. I am kind of embarrassed just thinking about it.”“Oh Lindy, it’s for your safety that’s why he bought this place. It took him weeks to find this safe haven for you and your baby. Although he’s an
37L I N D Y The following evening, after we drove Gwyneth to the airport for her flight back to London and bid her a temporary goodbye, Milo and I decided to have dinner in a restaurant. As much as I wanted Gwyneth to join us, she had to leave because she still had paperwork to finish we soon as she gets back. The paps were literally following us everywhere we went to and it was almost pathetically getting me a little annoyed. Despite the struggle of being surrounded and followed, I felt happy knowing that I was finally able to hold his hands in public again as we walked along the streets of Connecticut. It just proved to everyone who doubted our relationship that we are still together and that the news about our breakup was never true. There were even fans coming up to our table asking for a picture and Milo was just kind enough to smile for the camera and sign autographs. Personally, I think they should have respected Milo’s personal time since he was having a meal but then he
38L I N D YIn a blink of an eye, we arrived in Canada a day early than what we planned for. I skipped classes and told my professors in advance that I had a personal family problem back home that I needed to take care of it. They were generous enough to tell me that I can still catch up with the lessons and that I needn’t to worry because I had high grades.I was beyond thankful that Milo came with me and had to pay for the flight. He was the one who orchestrated that I should head back home and reassured me that he would not leave me in these trying times. I was glad he came with me, I needed him.When we were driving to the hospital where my mom was being admitted, my entire body just felt absolutely shaky because I cannot stop thinking and worrying about my mother. This was not the perfect time to tell them that I am pregnant and I think Milo understands this. My dad is already going through a lot because of my mom’s heart attack and I don’t want him to worry more for me. “Hey.”
39L I N D YLater that day, Milo and I spent the entire time with my mother while dad was the one who settled her hospital bills since she will be discharged tomorrow. I was amazed at how Milo was so good at keeping a conversation going despite the age gap that they both have and he even made my mother feel a little happier. He was incredibly good at entertaining people.Dad decided to go home to shower and change his clothes so we decided to stay with mom for the night. I was beyond thankful that Milo was here with me and guarding my mom even if there was only one long couch for us to sleep on.“Where would you sleep?” I ask Milo as we lounge on the sofa while mom had fallen asleep soundly on her bed.“You don’t need to worry about that.” Milo smiles. “I can always sleep while I am sitting down.”“This means a lot to me, Milo.” I smile back at him as he pulls me in so he can kiss my temple.Suddenly the door opens and there enters Avery who had her eyes glued on our mom who has been
E P I L O G U E "Em, just stop screaming, please." Lindy begs. "Think of it as a vacation."VACATION?! Then why can not I use the private jet?! Why do I have to ride a plane in eco... e... Ugh! I do not even want to say the word!""Stop being so overdramatic, Em. We all started somewhere." Milo mocks."I started rich and popular, I am keeping that title." She stood her ground.Milo tilts his head, "Not unless I take that away from you."She gapes.Ezekiel pulled up his pad as soon as he finished writing the words, “Cheer up Em. It is not so bad.” with a smiley face next to the sentence.It annoyed her even more. She loves her twin brother, but she hates the situation that she was in.“Not so bad for you!!” She screams at her brother before she groans. “You can not do this to me!!” Emerald screams like the drama queen she is.Days passed, Emerald found herself arriving in Aidenwoods, New Zealand with two big pieces of luggage and only a hundred pounds in her wallet and the other hund
70‘The famous Beckett duo called EZME called it quits after five years of singing together to their millions of fans due to personal issues, scandals, and health conditions that needed to be taken more seriously. Ezekiel Beckett has been suffering from Muscle Tension Dysphonia which causes the sound and feel of his voice to change due to extreme muscle tension in and around his voice box. As a result, it causes his voice to regularly stop performing more efficiently which broke a lot of his female fans' hearts. The 21-year-old heartthrob and crooner recently lost his voice due to stress, tension, overuse, and overwork and is now going through therapy doing various exercises.On the other hand, Emerald Beckett, who is no longer new to scandals and issues, has gotten some pretty bad press every now and then. The 21-year-old pop star and the other half of the duo called EZME have been known for her horrific diva behavior since her rise in popularity. It has always been rumored that she
69L I N D Y After the honeymoon, I bravely decided to go back to college and finish where I left off. Milo has been very supportive of my decisions and he has been my confidante in almost anything that I do and I want to do. He would confront me about what would be the best and would advise me when things get harder or more confusing. He is just there constantly supporting me which means so much to me after everything.When he asked me if I would move in with him to London, I did not hesitate to agree with him because all my life anywhere with him, whether it is in London, Peru, Spain, South Africa, the Philippines, or anywhere around the world, I would want to be with him. Always. Mom and dad felt sad when they found out that I was moving to another continent which made them feel a little bit emotional before we parted ways. Although they understand that things are going to be different now that I am getting older and wiser and have plans set on ahead of me with Milo. Yet, my paren
68L I N D Y “Welcome home Lindy!!!” I was taken aback as soon as the party poppers popped that came out of nowhere and I see everyone in this house greeting me with smiles on their faces. I see Lucius, Jasper, Silas, and Rowan who came all the way to celebrate this day with me which really means so much to me after what I have been through. It was the kind of support system that I needed after what happened to me and how these people are showing me an unconditional kind of love. These guys, whom I have always considered as my older brothers from other mothers, are all here and this means the world to me. I see Martha who ran towards me in a split second and hugged me tightly with tears flooding in her eyes which made me cry too because this scene is very much making me so emotional. She hugs me tight as she says the words, "I am so glad to see you again. I have missed you. I have missed you so much. I missed you a lot."She makes me bawl my eyes out as I hug onto her tighter, "I m
67L I N D YSaint Francis Sanitarium had a different way of treatment which had been pretty much helpful for my recovery. They also had strict rules about visitors, no one was really allowed to see the patients who are under treatments like me to avoid problems, complications, and miscalculations. There were no cellphones allowed inside and Wi-Fi as well to avoid any social media. Although they allowed gifts from the outside, it was still hard not to be able to see everyone. I didn’t let my negative emotions get the worst of me because I had to be strong for myself and my kids and for everyone else who is waiting for me to head out of this mental facility. I faced this battle head on and even though it was hard for me to accept the changes that I have had, emotionally and mentally, I am still very thankful for the support that I am getting from my family, friends, and of course Milo.Milo has been sending me hand written letters every day which is something I always look forward to
66M I L OWhat did she mean by that?Did she mean it literally?Silence, there was silence between us and I was just utterly and indescribably confused. She didn’t answer while her eyes were looking all over the entire house. Her eyes looked like she was searching for something inside the house and at the same time, she looked like she was in distraught. She looked so lost, sad, and completely puzzled by her own thoughts inside her head.“Are you alright baby?” I holler.She nods and looks back at me, “Yes. Just…. Just a little… awake.”I tried to ignore what I heard from her about hearing them in her head and just walked towards her, “I thought you fell asleep?”She shakes her head, “I can’t.”“Did you even try?”She nods. “Yes. These days it’s just hard for me to sleep.”“Should we visit the doctor?”“No.” Her voice was firm. “No need for that.”I take her hand to mine, “Hey, let’s go back to sleep. Shall we?”She nods and smiles before we walked up to the bedroom.I still hear the
65M I L OThey were so tiny.Very tiny.So fragile. So delicately adorable. I stare at them from outside the glass window and my heart swells with these crazy emotions that are building up inside me the more I stare at how tiny and angelic they looked. Staring at them, I did not know that I could love more my sweet Lindy for carrying my little soldiers who are now battling with their own lives. I had no idea that these tiny creatures would actually make me feel much more whole in some way. I glance at the tubes and machines that were surrounding them to help them survive and grow and I know they are fighters and that they will grow stronger. I know. I know they will. I watch as their chests go up and down while they were breathing as they were moving their tiny hands around and subtly kicked their small feet. It was amazing how they looked and how their tiny movements could actually surprise me and amaze me at the same time. Absentmindedly, I am staring at them with a smile on m
64M I L OI laugh humorlessly as I shake my head sideways, not wanting to believe what I have just heard. No, this cannot be possible. There is absolutely no way. No. I had no idea that Ricky was this selfish and this heartless with everything that had happened. He is and has always been only thinking about himself and no other else. He only and always wants to save himself from everything when the going gets rough then runs away and hides like a frightful little child and pass the blame onto others so he can clear his name.This man is despicable, absolutely and horrifyingly greedy.“I am so sorry.” Ricky apologizes but the more he says it the more it makes me angry.“Ricky! How could you so selfish?!” Gwyneth screams at him..“Of course!” I exclaimed. “Of course you would say it’s me! You freaking asshole!” I pressed my clenched fist against the center of my forehead. I groan in frustration and in anger because I want to hit this person so badly. I want to hurt him as hard as I ca
63M I L OEver since my argument with Gwyneth, we never really talked as much as we used to. I understand why she was feeling that way and I understand why she had avoided me since she hated what I have done. Of all people, I thought she would be the one who would understand me because she is my sibling, but then I was wrong.She made me feel even worst. I tried to understand where her anger was coming from and obviously, she was gutted that I said and did those things to Jolene. I know she could not believe me that I treated Jolene that way because she has always hated it when I do things that hurt women since I was brought up by women too.I wish my words could change anything to what she sees me now but then I know I can never take back the things I did and the things I said to her.Sometimes I wish she could have understood me and why I had to do it. The night before the band’s world tour started, someone came to my house late at night and rang the doorbell many times which woke