I'm roused from a particularly lovely dream when I feel something shift beside me. Sleep tries to lure me back again, but a sharp jab to my ribs has me opening my eyes with a start."Good, you're awake." My sister's grinning face looms over me. "Are you going to invite Jenny over to meet the family?""Why are you in here? What time is it?" I groan, reaching for my phone to check the time. "Kira, it's barely four in the morning.""I know. So, are you bringing Jenny over today? I'm out with Lottie and don't want to miss her." She says, as though it's perfectly reasonable to wake someone up at the crack of dawn, but for her I guess it is."No, I wasn't planning to. Can I go back to sleep now?""God, you're so grumpy in the morning." She bounces onto her feet, waving as she heads towards my door. "I'll see you tonight, have a nice day. If you change your mind about her coming over, let me know please.""Where are you going at five in the morning? I know Lottie won't be awake yet, she's mo
My parents are pretending Kenji doesn't exist. He's become a taboo subject in my house without anyone officially announcing the fact, but any time my cousin's mention his name, they are silenced and the subject is quickly changed. On Christmas Eve, Danny comes to visit and my parents dote on him as though he is royalty, but even his passing question about whether Kenji would be visiting was quickly diverted by my Amma piling our old photo albums onto the table in front of him, insisting she go through each one with him so she can point out whether it's Priya or I in each one.While we're sitting there quietly, my phone starts vibrating in my pocket and seeing Kenji's name on the screen, I excuse myself to talk to him in the privacy of my own room."Hey." My stomach flutters like it's filled with butterflies when I hear his voice."Hi, how are you?" I whisper back, locking my bedroom door so no one walks in while I'm talking to him."Are you at home? Can you talk?" He asks and he's wh
I've never been more excited about a work event than I am about tomorrow night and it's not even because of the event, it's the ability to be out with Jenny without the constant stress of having to hide from her family.I haven't seen her since Christmas Eve, we've spoken on the phone but it's all whispers on her end. I don't know who ever said sneaking around was fun, but they're a bunch of liars. It's annoying, frustrating and generally just shit. I thought she'd be able to get away for at least a day this week, but Christmas is apparently a bigger deal with her family and they've kept her busy with something practically every minute of every day. Part of me is wondering if they're actually pretending not to know what we're up to and are doing it on purpose just to keep us apart, but that is probably just frustration turning into paranoia."Hey, Ken, get your head out of your ass, you've just missed your cue for the third time now." Harrison tosses a pick at me, pointing at the othe
"Are you sure I look ok?" I ask my friends, turning my body left and right to look in Rory's mirror. Tonight is Kenji's work party thing and I spent a small fortune on a dress, dragging my friends along and also texting pictures to Akira to get her approval too.It's a figure hugging black dress that reaches my knees, with a v neckline and sheer long sleeves, then, just because it's a music party, the entire thing looks like it's been doused in glitter. I loved it in the shop and everyone agreed it was perfect, but now I'm dressed and ready to leave, I'm not sure if I should be wearing something entirely different. I might be underdressed or even overdressed.If Kenji turns up wearing jeans, I'm changing!"You look stunning." My sister tells me, holding out the silver necklace that I chose from Shane's mum's collection earlier and everyone else voices their agreement, but my nerves are making me doubt everything."Listen…" Rae takes my hands in hers and pulls me away from the mirror.
The work event was wonderful and getting to fall asleep with Jenny beside me made it pretty much perfect, it reinforced my desire to have her in my life permanently and it was on the tip of my tongue to ask her to come visit the house with me today. Luckily she has a full day at uni, so left with her bag straining under the weight of all her books. I stretch out in her bed, not wanting to get up yet but knowing I have to if I want to look presentable for this estate agent.The house is unexpectedly and unnaturally quiet as I head downstairs, it's not often that every one of Jenny's housemates are out at the same time, but I guess with the new term they're all out studying somewhere, or that's what I assume until I hear the high pitched scream coming from the kitchen.Instantly I take off running, thinking someone's slipped or cut themselves or something, but what I didn't expect was to see Priya, scantily clad, being held down by a guy in a black balaclava."Help, please, someone." S
"Bye, see you tomorrow." Maeve calls out as she and Maeve leave me in the lecture hall, my eyes on Michael Carpenter as he packs away his paperwork."You got a ninety-seven, will that do?" He sighs. Almost as if he senses me there, he places my repeated assignment onto the desk in front of me without looking up. "Yes, thank you so much." I clutch the paper to my chest and grin from ear to ear."This was a one time arrangement Jeniliya, you are a very capable student but I cannot make these sorts of arrangements again." He says, sitting down and looking at me over the rim of his glasses. "It's not fair on the other students and more importantly, I don't have the time for it.""I understand, thank you. Thank you so much." I'm so happy I'm practically dancing from foot to foot in front of him."Ok, go, do whatever it is you do to celebrate." He waves his hand at me and I bow, because apparently my brain isn't working properly. Michael chuckles and returns to sorting papers as I swiftly
I'm so tired and we're only halfway through the tour, don't get me wrong, it's fucking amazing and the fans are great. But we've performed thirteen nights out of fourteen, with after parties that we're expected to show our faces at for at least a few hours before travelling to the next town. At least this year we've got hotels to sleep in, last time we were here we had to try and sleep in a tour bus as we travelled around. I barely knew my ass from my elbow by the end of that tour. I've always struggled to sleep during the day but I must have been that tired last night that I passed out as soon as I got into bed and I'm feeling pretty good when my alarm finally wakes me up. It's always the same routine when on tour, wake up, shower, big breakfast meeting with Fred and the guys, few hours to do what we want and explore wherever we are, then head over for a soundcheck and practice before the show. This year I've also been calling Jenny every day between showering and breakfast, becaus
I sit on my bed staring at my phone, I'm not sure what time it is or how long I've been sitting here, but I just can't bring myself to move. Texts come through, making my phone buzz in my hand but it's like my brain's shut off because I can't fathom quite what they say. Well, at least that part of my brain isn't working, there's another part that is more than active. The part that's going wild about the fact that Kenji actually thought I'd slept with those men. I never doubted him, even with the photos, but he didn't even question it, I can't shake that look in his eyes from my mind. He didn't trust me and without trust, how can we say we're in love? It feels like I've been in a sort of bubble since getting together with Kenji, there's been so much drama, one way or another, maybe that's why it feels like we've fallen for each other so quickly. But what do we really know about one another? Why do we like each other? Aside from physical attraction? Do we even have anything in common?