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Fifty-eight: Taleen
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2021-03-03 19:03:42More than two months have passed over Josh’s reconciliation with his dad. I have never seen Josh this happy before. He is so happy, to a great extent that I sometimes fail to comprehend. He is also very relaxed. I feel like Mr Dahlberg wants to make it up to Josh in any way. Even though Josh is here with me in Portland, he is remotely working at his dad’s company in the marketing department.
I’m basically living with Josh now. I’m barely in my dorm room. I spend two or three days there while the rest of the week is spent with Josh.
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