~Asher~ What was I going to say to him? Everything now felt so real as I realised I didn’t really have anything in mind to say to him. I don’t know what changed her mind but she finally agreed and sent a text that I could come on Saturday and how I’ll be dead if I tried anything funny with our son. Well her exact words were her son but I’ll need to remind her to start making use of ours from now on but that wasn’t going to be happening today as I didn’t want to jeopardise anything. Was lucky enough to get this opportunity, I wasn’t going to throw it out the door like that. I wanted to do this myself, I didn’t specially prepare anything as I wasn’t sure what to prepare and eventually finalised on coming here like that to say nothing but the truth about how I want him and his mom back leaving only information about the letters out. Sitting in my car parked right outside her closed bakery and it hit me that I should have brought something along or really had prepared what
~Asher~ His words were like small daggers digging through open wounds as we remained seated. I couldn’t find the right words, I didn’t know what to do next. I wasn’t expecting much changes or his hands wide spread open to hug me. I secretly hoped it would go as smoothly and happily ever but this wasn’t some novel shit. His words were strong enough to throw me off balance as I didn’t expect to be not wanted even before assuming the role. I could feel her eyes look up at me directly as I had mine down, completely drowned in thoughts. The thoughts that I wasn’t needed and rejected were like hot brass under the sole of my feet. This was the same pain felt during a normal rejection, now just without the tangible slice of pain cutting through but I still felt pains in my chest and the only thing that felt like a remedy right now was to go back to the pack house. I needed to go back for now and face it myself. I couldn’t turn back the hands of time, I couldn’t try
~Tristan~ “What the hell did you do?” My fists were balled waiting for him to utter anything that would make me more enraged. “Calm down Tristan, just hear me out first” he remained calm and the f**k I was only holding back because of the respect I had for him. Amongst all my men he was specifically chosen for this position for a reason. He wasn’t the best social person for a position like this but anyone could smell his potentials a mile away as he was always the get the job done person. I could only take so little things from anyone and he was luckily part of that short list. “I really don’t want to hear it or I swear I would lock you down with my knees and drive my fists continuously into your face till you can never frown ever again.” I really did want to believe that what I heard wasn’t true and that it was all a joke. I was already fighting with my thoughts about what I told Hazel and now this. My insides were literally burning with flames glitching, beam
~Asher~ “So what are you going to do?” Ross voice interrupts my thinking earning a scowl from me. He kept on asking the same question for the past two days, and still got no response or reaction from me. I had a lot of thinking to do and anything that would help me get Jaden to acknowledge me would be much appreciated. “You shouldn’t be asking the questions Ross, you should be giving answers to it.” I didn’t bother looking his way as I wasn’t in the mood to take note of his expression. “Yeah,disadvantages of taking a major decision without informing people he calls his men.” His murmuring and cheesy talk could be clearly heard and I turned to face him with a scorn. “Really?” “Sorry Alpha” he reads the air and maintains his stance. This wasn’t the tone at all to call me in on what I did in the past. I ignore his statements as I was in no mood for these talks. I was busy trying to come up with what I could do that would make Jaden warm up to me.
~Asher~I got another chance and unlike before, I was prepared and ready to be ignored as Hazel enlightened me way ahead when she opened the door for me to come in. If he doesn’t want to hear anything concerning me then how were we supposed to talk or even hold a conversation? I stood outside his door, knocked lightly on it before entering. I already got permission from Hazel to enter as Jaden would definitely make out guesses and pick out who it was knocking and withdraw me access from entering. I wasn’t going to do that and miss any chance I got as I couldn’t go against his wishes since I was trying to prove a point about him making his own choices about me. I really should be grateful for Hazel this period. I thought I would have more issues trying to convince her to give me a chance but she didn’t have an issue with it and was really hoping I could do something about it. Her warnings were clear and I promised her that I was going to handle it and fix it as long
~Hazel~ I counted every single second that passed by as I was waiting to hear any sound of anything at all from the room that meant they were conversing but none came out. I know he couldn’t get Jaden to talk all at once since he could be real stubborn when he wanted to be. “I’m really surprised you allowed him to enter your home again and it didn’t just stop there. Remember how you wanted him miles away from you and Jaden? and now he’s sitting in there all alone with your son.” There wasn’t a need to repeat it all out to me but she did anyway with a lazy smirk. “You don’t have to point it out to me at every chance, you know?” There wasn’t anything I could do about it. I didn’t want to bring the issue of, if the hospital never happened thing then all this wouldn’t have happened in the first place but it wasn’t really necessary as it would change the course of our discussion and what seemed lighthearted could turn to a think cloud of gloominess and both of us woul
~Asher~ “It’s his choice, I can’t do anything about it.” I tried repeating in my head as I was about going nuts with the last image of Jaden running happily to meet with Tristan. There was nothing as cold and hurtful as that, I couldn’t do anything but just looked and passed by like it wasn’t a big deal. It was a big deal and now I was clearly getting my own taste of bitter rejection. I F**king have myself to blame no matter what I really had In mind. Days turned into a week and I still haven’t gotten a response from Hazel. They were now in control as it was their decision to give me a chance or withhold it. This was the only way I could get to talk with Jaden, since going over there and sitting in his room doesn’t look like it would yield any change. And I had a feeling he was going to come up with a way to keep me out once he found out it was going to become a regular. “Alpha?” He knocked lightly on the door before coming in with all smiles. “Leo, h
~Asher~ I finally came out of the office in a hurry, I couldn’t miss this or be late either. She’s giving me a week and we didn’t need to come back on time meaning I could take him out. “You’re driving” I ordered in a hurry, tossing the keys to Ross as he fell behind me trying not so hard to keep up with my pace. Even if It was just the opportunity staring up at me and not amounting to any changes I was fine with it as long as I get to meet him as going to meet Jaden in a hurry wouldn’t guarantee anything yet. A week was a lot and I’ve had enough time to think of what to say to him or do. I also can not tell him about getting a new heart. I can tell he was way too smart for that and would think that I was only telling him that because I wanted him to open up to him. “Where are we going?” He finally asks as he stepped on the gas after telling him to drive the fastest he can. “Where else do you think could get me this worked up and in a hurry?” “Oh th