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2021-08-03 19:39:41IVANA'S POV:
I felt as if someone has snatched my most precious treasure from me. But I can do nothing about it. The only thing that I can do is to let my tears flow. Cause at least those tears belongs to me.
I was in my grievances when I felt his tight hold on my hands. He was still panting, sweating and crying. I felt my heart aching to see him this fragile. I started rubbing his cheeks and wiping his tears. His hold on my hand tightened more. His murmurs were not stopping.
Suddenly, he opened his eyes and his breathing turned heavy. He stared at me for sometime and then.... he suddenly hugged me. I was startled with his sudden action and my heart was pounding like it'll explode at anytime.
He was shivering and hugging me so tight I could feel his breath on my neck which was uneven sending chills on my nerves.
I started patting his back to calm him down.
"Everything's all right. Don't worry." Just as I said this, his grip on me tightened e
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