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Am I... really in love?
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2021-08-03 19:41:59JUSTIN'S POV:
I felt a lot relieved when I told her everything. I felt as if I've lifted a heavy stone from my heart. I let those tears to flow. After all, they wanted to do that years ago. When I asked her the question which was going on my mind since that day, she hugged me.
And I found a shelter in her arms, which was ensuring me that I'm not alone. Her hug was giving me all the warmth which I yearned from years. She asked me whether I trusted her or not, I wanted to tell her that I've started trusting her more than myself. But then, I just gave my hand cause that was the best way to show that I trust her.
I was lost in my thoughts whole way and I didn't even realize that she brought me to seaside until she stopped the car. That's when I realized that she was holding a bouquet in her hands.
She took me to the sea, waves hitting my feet and giving me a different kind of peace. The endless water in front of my eyes where absolutely describing the emotion
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