Holy Shit

Gianni Summers

"Come on Gianni, you going to love it,I mean its one of those once a year legendary parties" Soph whines "No" I growl out while ringing up a customers groceries.

Currently at my second day job, at 'all you need supermarket' after a long day at university and HuggaMug Cafe, the last thing I need is Sophs tantrums right now.

"And go away you annoying my customers and I'm pretty sure Garry, my BOSS banned you from coming here, now shoo"

It's been exactly two months since my escapades that one faithful night. And Soph is now pestering me to have another 'wild night'.

After the way things went the last time, I'd rather not. Life is basically back to normal, except my wardrobe, I've been feeling extra sexy and then horny all the damn time for some god damned reason.

Im blaming that god of a man with the magic cock.

"I'll stop by to pick you up tonight, tell Garry to pull that stick up on out of his arse, and you have a good day Sir" she salutes the customer that overheard our whole conversation hopping out of here like she won the damn lottery.

I turn to the man "you heard me right, I distinctly remember telling her the word NO" I say confusedly.

After giving the man his change, he leaves but not before waving and screaming 'go wild tonight'

Guess everyone are just wearing their ornaments today.

After a long shift at the supermarket I make my way home, shower and then made me some grilled cheese sandwhiches.

I decide to relax in my bed with a good book from my collection. 'Under the sheets' A steamy romantic mystery, just what the doctor ordered.

So engrossed with the words filling the pages I dont realise that Soph had intruded until she jumps on my bed screaming 'boo!'

Scaring me so bad that I screamed my lungs out and fell hard onto the ground off from my bed. Hearing her booming laughter, I immediately jump up glaring at her.

After a few minutes she's still laughing her ass off and I no longer can take it. Lunging for her, it might have been too forceful because we both go tumbling off from the bed, landing on the ground with a hard thud making us both groan in pain.

Standing up I glare at her once again, she can't help but burst out laughing again rubbing her head as a way to release the pain most probably.

"Soph I said no and I meant it. There's no changing my mind so if you here to do that, you are wasting your own time" I say seriously, my voice dripping with annoyance.

She pouts, rolling my eyes "Nope that's not going to work this time Missy" I say smacking the back of her head.

"Oww, Gigi, stop that! You hit like a man, dammit. Why won't you come Gianni you had the blast the last time, what's stopping you? What the hell are you so afraid of ? Feelings, your own feelings ?"

"Soph you know how much I crave control, sticking to the fucking plan, you know the life I had, you know I need to make a better life for myself and my future, god.

That night I was completely out of control, shit could of had been much worst, yes the sex was great , yes I had a good tim-"

I stop mid sentence,  running to the bathroom, throwing up everything I had eaten today.

Soph is comforting me, holding my hair and rubbing my back. As I continue to throw up until I'm dry heaving.

Finally finished, feeling like I spilled all my insides. Utterly exhausted I lie on the bathroom floor feeling like I'm on deaths doorstep.

"Come on Gigi, lets get you to see a doctor, you look awful" Soph says grabbing my arms.

Pushing her away "No I'm okay I probably just had something bad to eat, I've been throwing up all week, I should be fine soon"

Not having the energy to sit and wait at a hospital, neither do I have the money to go have myself checked out.

"A whole week Gianni!!!" She exclaims loudly "What the hell is wrong with you, lets go!"

"Seriously I'm fine, just give me a few minutes and I'll be good as new again, trust me I know, its been like this all week" I say brushing it off, its true though.

She looks at me for a few seconds, then I see her eyes scan my body and then like a light bulb goes off.

She screams "Oh my god! When was your last period" not seeing how this is relevant.

"I don't get regular periods, it comes when it wants, you know this" I say shrugging it off.

"Yes I know that you dimwit, I mean have you gotten it in the last two months at all ?" She asks making my eyes widen.

Now that I think about it I never got it in the last two months and before that was a week before I gave myself to Elijah.

"No, no I haven't got it in the last two months, and dont even think about it, Im not pregnant, I can't be." I say hurriedly.

"Gigi you might be, I'm going out to get a pregnancy test, stay right there, I'll be back in five" she screams while I scream at her that I'm not fucking pregnant.

But she's out by the door without giving me any response, is no one hearing me today???

I'm pretty sure I told her I'm not pregnant.

"I'm pregnant"

I say slowly looking at the stick showing two lines. "What?" Soph says not having heard me. "I said its positive Soph!" I scream at her.

"I'm pregnant Soph" I start wailing, sliding down to the ground, crying heartbrokenly.

This can't be happening, no, no, god no. Why ? Why dear God, why me ? This was not the plan. This was not my plan.

I was supposed to be successful,  then get married at 30, only then have one kid at 35 and live happily ever after.

This was not the way it was supposed to go. One stupid decision and now my whole life might be ruined.

How could I let this happen?

Feeling Soph shaking me, I realise I'm still crying, lost deep in thought.

Trying to calm myself down, I finally can hear what she's saying instead of just seeing her lips move.

"You need to calm down Gianni, we'll figure this out, I'm here for you, I got you babe" she says in that annoying matherly tone which surprisingly calms me down.

"Soph, pregnancy tests aren't 100 percent right ? Maybe we can go and see and an OB-gyn, to make sure. It might be a false alarm" I say desperately.

Knowing myself it's a long shot, Sophs sympathetic look just makes my heart sink even further, even though she knows what the OB-gyn results would be she agrees, giving me a sad smile.

If theres one person who knows how badly I need to follow the plan I've made for my life it's her, which is why I know she feels exactly how I feel right now.

Exhausted from all tonight's activities I drag myself to bed, and start sobbing all over again. Not knowing how to stop.

Not knowing how I'll ever be okay, how I'll even survive. I can't even take care of myself, how the hell am I going to take care of a baby?

What about my studies? My two time consuming jobs? All my bills ?

My fucking life plan ??

How could I let this happen?

Soph comes into my room putting a box of tissues and a glass of water on my nightstand, then climbs behind me into my bed.

Putting her arm around my waist, she just lays there holding me while I ball my eyes out. Her knowing that I needed to let it all out.

I dont know when I finally stopped crying and fell asleep, but I woke up this morning to a skull breaking headache.

Not seeing Soph anywhere, I make my way to the bathroom. I look like absolute shit.

Doing my business, then making my way to the kitchen feeling extremely hungry.

Surprised to find a table filled with all kinds of yummy food. My eyes light up and I rush to the table, filling a plate and start eating.

Thanking god for Soph, moaning at the delicious food. Grabing a glass of orange juice, I gulp it down.

Just as I'm about to grab another slice of toast, the front door opens, and in glides Soph looking like a model, speaking into the phone.

"Yes, yes, we'll be there, see you then." Ending the call she looks up at me smiling soflty. "How you feeling this morning honey?"

"Like I've got run over then dragged all across town by a train" I say shrugging. She chuckles shaking her head.

She grabs her a plate and then starts filling it with sausage and eggs. The smell of the eggs, making me gag.

"So we got an appointment with my family's OB-gyn, the best NY has to offer at 12, its now half past 10, so I suggest you get ready."

"I dont have the money for that Soph" I say holding myself back from throwing up right here.

"Gianni today is not the day to argue with me, you not going to some cheap hospital, we going to get you the best, and I'm paying. And shut it!"

She says raising her voice, not in the mood to argue with her, also not having a valid reason to argue I let it go.

I feel like I'm slipping into depression. I feel like a total failure, I am way off track, way off from my plans and fucked up.

Now I'm letting her pay my shit for me too.

Feeling that awful bile rising I run to the bathroom puking my guts out, again.

Puking and crying, not a good combination.

Showering and brushing my teeth for the second time this morning. I get dressed.

Throwing my wet hair up into a messy bun, I check myself out in the mirror.

Turning to the side, I lift my sweater and look at my stomach, turning from side to side checking my stomach.

Now it might be too early to see, I inspect it anyway.

Imagining how I'd look when I'm big as a whale, I chuckle now thats a look I'd never thought I'd see on me.

Looking up at my face,  I see Soph standing in the door way, smiling at me. Snapping out of it I clear my throat and pull my sweater down.

"Let's go" she says walking out, knowing that I do not want to talk about it. Im blessed to have her.

We get to the private hospital and make our way to the 5th floor. We give our names at reception, where the woman told us to have a seat the Doc will be with us in a minute.

Suddenly it all comes crashing down, this is really happening, and even though I'm hoping the pregnacy test was wrong deep down I know that it was right.

"Ms Summers, the doctor will see you now" the receptionist calls out. Soph and I stand making our way to the doctors examining room.

Before opening the door Soph says "I'm here for you, always. No matter what happens, you know I'll always have your back"

"I know Soph, thank you" I say hugging her tightly. We make our way in and are greeted by the nurse.

She tells me to pee in the cup. I make my way to the bathroom on the other side of the room, do my business and make my way back to the room.

"Hi I'm Doctor Harris, and I'm going to run a few tests, take a sample of your blood and ask some questions, you okay with that Ms Summers ?"

A beautiful middle aged woman spoke as soon as I stepped out of the bathroom. I nod not trusting my voice.

After she took my blood, inspected my body and asked some uncomfortable personal questions, she steps out.

Soph squeezes my hand reassuringly.

After what felt like hours, which in reality was probably only fifteen minutes, doctor Harris steps back into the room smiling. Oh god.

"Congratulations, you're going to be a mommy" she squeals while Soph chuckles nervously as I squeeze her hand.

Well this would've shocked me if deep down I didnt already know. Smiling tightly at the doctor, turning my head to the window trying my best to keep my tears at bay.

"Would mommy like to do an ultrasound?" Before I can reply to the good doctor. Soph shouts "Yes"

Making me give her a dirty look. She shrugs sheepishly.

"Okay mommy, this is going to be a bit cold, but thats normal" she says rubbing the cold gel over my flat belly.

"Now just watch the screen" as she says this she starts moving that thing over my stomach.

Not really seeing anything,  I look to Soph in question. "Right there, that tiny thing over there" she says pointing to a white dot on the screen " is your baby  fetus"

For some reason I smile, looking at the monitor. My baby.

Im going to be a mother, holy shit.