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Chapter Sixty Five
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2021-08-30 12:54:44Enrique seemed like he was taken aback by what I said which had me laughing.
"I'm not dreaming, right?"
"Huh?" I asked, teasing him as if I didn't what I had just said.
"You said something..." his voice was laced with sadness but I went on with the act.
"I wasn't saying anything," I uttered. "Did you hear a ghost?"
Enrique pouted.
I smiled.
"I love you," I repeated which caught him off-guard again.
"For real?"
I chuckled.
"For real... this time."
My mouth went agape when I realized that tears were welling in his eyes but he didn't care, even when they started to fall. I suddenly felt sad that I made him wait for so long just so I could be sure with my feelings, but I wanted to find the right time--where I wouldn't even question myself if my feelings were right or wrong.
I wanted to be sure of him. Without any reservations, without a doubt.
I wanted to love him unconditionally
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