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A secret should remain a secret.

Author: Jolante424
last update Last Updated: 2024-02-08 21:06:22

I am leaving and not coming back.

This was a big mistake, I shouldn't have come here.

" Milla!!"

The call is loud and clear, capturing the attention of those near and certainly pulling me to a stop.

It would have been far better to not know who called me, this way I would have continued to run away.

Damn my ears for recognising that voice too well. It hasn't even been a full on 24 hours since his return, and already he has crossed the line.

' This is what happens when there is a lack of communication.' My conscious hits me with its own opinion at the wrong time.

" Milla?" I hear my name being called again, but it comes from a female voice now.

This relieves me a bit.

I turn around to see who has called me this time.

I get nervous when I see both Mr and Mrs Myers come my way. I briefly glance upstairs and that's when I see him.

He's making his way down the stairs.

My feet may be rooted in place but that doesn't mean I'm not freaking out inside.

" You actually came, I'm glad." Mrs Myers says, when they finally reach where I am.

They now stand before me.

'Does she really mean that?'

'Well, she sounds welcoming enough, I think.'

' Are we really okay or am I already overthinking everything? No, it's only one night, I'll take what I can get.'

Anyway, she looks lovely and expensive. The diamond earrings she wears are a standout and I bet she intended for this to happen. Her green evening gown hugs her body perfectly and displays her curvy frame. She stands proudly next to her husband.

" Yes, it's been so long." Mr Myers, the older version of William agrees.

The two look so much alike, with those golden brown eyes that are way too expressive, skin more on the tanned side, tall in height and with brown coloured hair. William inherited well from Mr Myers, from his built to his character at most.

Obviously there are parts of his mother in him too, it's just that majority comes from his dad.

Mr Myers breaks away from his wife's hold and steps closer to me. He reaches out his hands and in response, I do the same with my own.

" We shouldn't have let time pass on like this," he says, giving my hands a gentle squeeze.

Words have failed me and all I can manage is a small smile.

" How have you been dear, your mother? Tell me." He asks, his interest and focus sorely on me.

My face warms up in shyness. It's a little overwhemling to have the attention on me at this moment.

" We've been okay, surviving...." I trail off.

I immediately wish to take back my words when his face falls for a moment.

" Oh, Will, look who came to see you tonight." Mrs Myers speaks up, making us all aware of him.

As he draws near, the more I wish he remained where he was a moment ago.

I take a much needed breath before I completely face him.

It's those golden brown eyes again.

The ones that belong to William Myers.

One thing about him is that his visuals have always been striking. He was quite an attractive boy growing up and now, in the present.....Lets just say he's all grown up.

At times, simply saying he was goodlooking felt like such an understatement.

Even I can't deny that I was mesmerized the first time I saw him, 2 months ago. I didn't recognise him fast enough, my mind went blank but all that ended, after a lengthy eye contact.

Those goldon brown eyes of his took me back to the past. No longer did I see this handsome stranger but the boy, who crashed into my life with no intention to leave.

I wish he did it sooner, maybe then, all that happened wouldn't be haunting me till this day.

When the realisation had hit, I swear that I felt like running away and oh my, did I run?

I thought running and hiding, would help but I had no clue that it was simply a hint, to us bumping into each other more often than I would have liked to.

I remember how near impossible it felt to avoid him.

' You know Milla, you're so different. You might not be aware of this but you're a sight in my eyes.' I remember those words because those words were his.

I can't tell the place or time I heard this, but he said this so clearly.

Till today I wonder, ' what the heck he meant by that.'

The moment our paths crossed again after so many years, everything changed.

In a few occasions, I've found myself regret taking that opportunity, because it was through that, I was thrown straight to his path. None of this was ever meant to happen in my eyes. He should have never involved himself in my business, I warned him so many times to stay away but did he listen? No.

He swore that we never had to see each other again, until things were set right , but here we are.

We meet again.

William Myers broke a promise he made and I can't look past that. My life hangs on the line here but he can't seem to understand that. I don't think I'll be able to go to bed easily, knowing that something hangs over my head.

William and I have known each other for years but through our families. Our fathers were long time friends and in their view, it only made sense that a friendship would easily bloom between us.

At first, I wasn't interested in anything to do with the Myers but something changed overtime. From simple greetings to conversations, his presence no longer bothered me so much anymore. In some way or the other, we would bump into one another and before we knew it, an event would lead to us being around each other.

One thing led to another and before I knew it, a friendship developed. Unfortunately, I didn't get to see how far and deep the friendship would go, because everything suddenly changed.

I had been perceived as the wrong in his life, the bad influence and I was demanded to leave him alone.

I respected everyone's decision and stayed away.

My decision still remains the same. I'm trying to not get myself heavily involved with them.

I learnt my lesson then and I don't wish for another.

'Do you really think that's possible, when a secret hangs in the air.' My conscious reminds me.

I wish things were different, truly.

' I wish you never did what you did, 2 months ago Liam.' I mentally address him.

" You came." He finally speaks.

The deepness in his voice reminds me that he's grown now.

We all have.

" I was invited," I respond, making it clear why I'm actually here.

" Well, the most important thing is that you came." Mrs Myers jumps in quick.

" It's been a while," he says, causing my heart to race a little. " You are so different."

There he goes again.

What meaning lies in those words?

I simply can't interpret his words.

"It's been years, we all grew up."

He needs to take my words as a reminder. He can't let anything slip.

A secret should remain a secret.

" Will?" Someone approaches us and it is none other than his companion, the one I saw standing beside him upstairs.

She really is an attractive young woman, tall, elegant looking and quite fitting with the Myer family. Her dark shiny hair is kept to the side and her forest green eyes, are really pretty.

When she stands next to him, the image from earlier comes to mind. I was a witness then, in which had to admit to herself that they match each other too well.

I feel quite uncomfortable now, standing among them.

" Oh, Lola, good thing you joined us, let me introduce you to Milla, William's childhood friend."

I now learn through Mr Myers her name, despite wanting to correct him.

" Milla." I frown by the questioning tone at the end. " Oh, you're that Milla?"

" That Milla?" I ask.

" Yeah, Will told me about you."

He talked about me?

He should have forgotten about me.

" You were brought up in a conversation, when he mentioned his life back home."

I spare him a glance.

I hope he didn't mention anything embarrassing or ------

" Don't worry, it was all good things." Lola continues to say, as if she read my mind.

" Milla, dear, why don't you get something to drink." Mr Myers suggests, already giving me a reason to look away from Liam's intense gaze.

I bet he can tell that I'm feeling a little overwhelmed.

" Excuse me," I excise myself.

I let out a relieved sigh as more distances between us increases.

'Thank goodness I was able to get away.'

With a drink in hand, I slip out through the back door with a desperate move for some fresh air. I walk around a bit as memories from the time I was here come back to me in pieces.

The back yard has always been pretty, but it gets prettier with all the lights during the night.

The sight of the pool makes me imagine the many pool parties the Myers kids would host. I'm sure Liam would be one of them because last I remember, he loved being around people.

I take a seat on a nearby bench and before I know it, I get lost in my own world, staring up at the pretty night sky.

' I swore that I would never return here but look where I am now. Have I truly betrayed myself, my word?'

Tension returns to my body when I sense eyes on me.

Why can't I be left alone for a while?

" Milla?"

My eyes close when I hear his voice.

It's clear that tonight, he won't let me walk away without having a conversation.

But that's the thing, how do I have one with the guy who tricked me into marrying him.

" Will you finally talk to your husband?"

The audacity to say that.

I'm on my feet now.

I face him. " You are no one to me."

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