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Volume 2: Ch. 4
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2024-10-29 19:42:56-I can do this-
“You scared the shit out of me Jill.” April walks back and sat with her best friend. She leaned her head on Jill’s shoulder, it reminds of hill and its meadowy scent. “You look well dress, are you going on a date?”
“No.” She quickly answered. She looked away and examined the room. It’s been a long time since she came here. She had the same thought as April, she stood up and looked exasperate. “You should burn your room” She suggested. Her eyes roamed again to see if she was right, she gave a nod and said, “yeah! We should burn it. It reeks with Jm’s presence.”
April agreed, a lot of things in her room reminded her of Jm. “Yes, I am planning to do that.” She had doleful eyes, and began to wept. She hugged Jill’s tightly and whispered. “I still misses him and it has been days, I should have
LeGrinchThis scene was differently from the first draft but I like this one! Thank you for making this far! If you like the chapter, you can support me by voting the story! Happy reading!
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