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First of Jesse XVIII
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2024-10-29 19:42:56We went outside because Oliver said it is good to talk about these matters outside. I agree and we went to a familiar place. The central park.
It’s already evening that’s why there are almost no people outside. He led me to the bench near at the fountain and we sit together.
I am uncomfortable now that I know he already know me plus he also said that he likes me. I am happy but I am still afraid to what will happen in the future.
I cannot say a word or even take a glance to the person beside me and I am so quiet.
“Hey, why so silent?” He asked me.
I just look at him and I don’t know what kind of face I am making but I want to tell him I am embarrass and uncomfortable at the same time. I am trying to make myself comfortable but I still can’t so I just stare at him and I saw him smile.
“I am sorry for the sudden confession but I am just being honest with my feelings because I waited for almost decade” He said.
He sound so sad and
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