I know she was hurt, and that's because of me, because of my stupid actions she suffered a lot. She experienced the things she shouldn't experience, and now, I don't know what to do. I can't bear seeing her in pain, the pain that I gave her because of my stupidity. I choose to believe others than her who did nothing but to be a great wife, what I did in return broke her. Now the only thing I want to do is to keep her again and stay by her side.
I don't know what I have done in my past life why I had this life now, a life I can't tell if I'll survive or not, I can't take it anymore, but I'm trying to be strong even if I'm too weak because of this life inside of my tummy, I'm not that selfish to not give him chance to see the world even if it's very hard for me to do.
YSABELL'S POVAko nga pala si Ysabell Englatera, 23 years old, I graduated at Smith University as a Suma cumlaude with the course of business administration, pero di ako naka pag trabaho dahil ipinakasal ako ni dad kay Xavier Smith. Yes! they are the owner of that University at magkaibigan yung dad namin.Xavier is known as a business tycoon and a beast when it comes to business wala siyang sinasanto. Kahit sino pa yan hindi niya uurungan dahil may sarili siyang batas dahilan kung bakit maraming mga negosyante din ang takot na maka bangga siya.Maaga akong gumising para maka pag handa ng almusal ni Xavier kahit di naman niya kinakain, gusto ko lang talaga siyang pag silbihan kahit na palagi niya akong sinisigawan dahil ayaw niyang pinag luluto ko siya.Pagkatapos kong mag luto ay hinanda ko na sa mesa para kung sakaling gusto niyang kumain na sa tingin ko di niya gagawain kahit kailan ay
YSABELL'S POVI woke up early today because Xavier told me last night na may bisita siya at kailangan na malinis daw yung bahay pag dating nila.Nagsimula na akong maglinis. I don't know kung bakit ako sumusunod sa kanya or bakit ako nag tiya- tayaga na maglinis nitong bahay kaya naman niya na mag bayad nang kasambahay eh pero di niya ginawa dahil gusto niya na parusahan ako o pahirapan. Marami nga ang nagsasabi na bakit di ko daw gamitin yung natapos kong kurso dahil sayang daw at matalino pa naman ako at marami ang mag hahabol sa aking mga companya pero di ko kasi yan magagawa eh lalo na at di pumapayag si Xavier, palagi niya nalang akong pinapagalitan kapag sinasabi ko sa kanya na gusto kong magtrabaho dahil alam daw niyang makikipag landian lang ako, yan yung masakit eh yung pinag bibintangan ka sa mga bagay na di mo nagawa at di mo magagawa.Kahit kailan di ko yan gagawin. Hindi ako ganung klase na babae and h
XAVIER'S POVArgghhh fuck! Shit, after slapping Belle I walk out from the kitchen. I don't really mean to slap her it's just my body who react and did that to her, it's late to realize what I did to her, when I saw tears running from her eyes, I stop.But then I realized that it's good for her after what she did to me way back then, I won't let her be happy, but let her taste the life of hell. That's my plan before agreeing to marry her. I want to have my revenge, kung gaano ka sakit ang pinaramdam niya sa akin ganun ang ibabalik ko sa kanya."Bro we saw what you did, why did you do that? She did nothing. She just asked us if we want something to drink, what's wrong with that?" Francis ask me in a very low tone but I know na nagagalit na siya because he used to be Belle's friend too, just like me they also care for her wala kasi silang kapatid na babae kaya ganun nalang ang turing nila kay Belle.
YSABELL'S POVI was happily washing the plates when I hear the the doorbell rang at parang may nag uusap sa labas so I go there to open the door but to my surprise I saw two people kissing each other na parang wala ng bukas, at sino pa nga ba? Si Xavier lang naman ang mahilig sa ganyan eh, when they felt that there's someone looking at them mabilis itong lumingon at imbes na mahiya they both smirk at me as if nothing happened, parang nasiyahan pa sila na may naka kita sa kanila.Really? Anong dapat ikasaya dun eh nakaka suka nga sa labas pa talaga ng bahay di man lang nahiya."Xavier nag dala ka na naman ng babae mo dito, di kana nahihiya sa pinag gagawa mo? Bahay ko rin naman to ahh pero di naman ako ganyan." Sabi ko dahil sa sobrang galit at selos nang makita sila kanina dito pa talaga? Respito lang sana.(Pakkkk) sampal niya sa akin na nag pa baling sa akin sa kabilang gilid."HOW FUC
XAVIER'S POVAfter fucking the bitch that I brought here in our house nakaramdam ako ng uhaw kaya naisipan kung bumaba para kumuha ng tubig."Babe where are you going?" the bitch ask me while laying down in the bed very tired, she's very wild."None of your business." I answered to her and immediately went outside the room.I was about to turn my back and go to the stairs when I saw Belle's room slightly open, and because of my curiosity I started walking to her room.When I was in her door wala akong narinig maybe she's sleeping already pero napansin kong wala naman siya sa kama niya and my heart beats faster of that thought so I enter her room looking for her, maybe she was just in the bathroom busy for something.I waited for how many minutes but no one open the bathroom door and I heard nothing. I felt very nervous and worried thinking na umalis siya sa ganitong oras, it's very late
YSABELL'S POVNaka upo lang ako ngayon sa couch habang nag aantay kay Xavier, ipapaalam ko lang sa kanya ang sinabi ni dad sa akin na gusto niya kaming bumisita sa mansyon.Mabilis akong lumingon sa pintuan ng bumukas ito at pumasok si Xavier."Ahhh Xavier ahhmm dad wants us to visit them to the mansion tommorow, is it okay to you? Hindi kaba busy?" I ask him in a very low tone."Okay then," tanging sagot niya at pumunta na sa taas hindi man lang niya sinagot yung iba kung tanong.Nag pupungaspungas pa akong bumangon at tsaka nag stretching muna sandali pampawala ng antok bago bumaba.Pagkababa ko nakita ko si Xavier na naka upo lang sa sofa, dumaan ako sa harap niya para pumunta sa kusina and prepare breakfast for me since di naman siya kumakain dito.After kung makapag handa ay kumain na ako nang mabilis para maka pag bihis narin at ng maka alis na k
XAVIER'S POVPauwi na kami ngayon at ramdam kong tahimik lang si Belle, pansin ko rin na kanina pa namamaga ang kanyang mga mata pagkatapos nang paguusap nila ng dad niya, di ko alam kung ano ang pinag uusapan nila.I just didn't mind her and continue driving. When we reach our house, agad siyang bumaba and didn't wait for me, I just let her and wait for a minute to compose my self, I'm still bothered about her, ahhhh shit YSABELL what are you doing to me?I can't forget her face awhile ago and it really bothers me a lot seing her problematic, sabayan pa ng paminsan minsang pag tulo ng luha niya, I can't understand what I felt kanina na nakikita siyang nasasaktan.Pumasok na ako sa loob ng bahay at nakita ko siyang matamlay na nag lalakad patungo sa itaas, I only stare at her hanggang di ko na siya maaninag at nakapasok na ng tuluyan sa kanyang kwarto.Because of this sudden feel
YSABELL'S POVNagising ako na parang may mabigat na nakadantay sa aking bewang at pag tingin ko dun nanlaki ang mga mata ko at tsaka ko lang naalala ang nangyari kagabi ahhh shit why did I let it happen? Bakit ako nag padala huhuhu pano na to ngayon.Pero diba sabi naman niya na we'll make this marriage works at mahal niya ako kaya okay lang naman siguro yun at tsaka di naman ako nag sisi na sa kanya ko ibinigay ang pina ka iningatan ko eh! masyado lang maaga para sa akin na gawin ang bagay na yun, dahil nahihiya parin ako, agad akong bumangon sa kama at nag madaling isuot yung mga damit ko kagabi at pumunta sa sarili kong kwarto.Napag desisyunan kong mag luto ng agahan namin ni Xavier, hanggang ngayon nahihiya pa rin ako, parang ayaw ko munang mag pakita sa kanya baka asarin pa ako nun eh kahiya kaya, yun palang namumula na nga ako na sa isip ko lang eh pano na kaya kung andito talaga siya.Natigil ako sa pag pr
XAVIER'S POVNandito lang ako sa bahay kasama yung mag ina ko na nasa kusina at nag ba-bake.Dinala ko kasi ang mga paperwork ko dito para makasama ko pa din sila.Nag tataype ako sa laptop ko nang napansin ko si Zyrielle na parang di nakukuntento sa pagka upo niya.Nasa gilid ko si Zyron na naglalaro lang sa phone niya.Nakatingin lang ako sa laptop at nakikita ko si Elle sa peripheral vision ko na sobrang likot.Tulad ngayon, titingin siya sa kusina pagkatapos ay kay Zyron tapos sa akin at pag feeling niya walang naka tingin eh tatalikod siya at yuyuko at babalik ulit ang tingin sa amin.Ano ba yang nasa likod niya at parang di siya mapakali? Tinignan ko lang siya kahit di niya na papansin at pinagmamasdan ang ginagawa niya.Napakunot ang noo ko nang umiigik-ik pa siya at tatalikod ulit tapos yuyuko.&n
XAVIER'S POV"Hahhahaha stop Tito stop I won't do it again," tawa tawang sabi ni Zyron hahaha ganito kasi yun.I'm not really sure narinig ko lang sila na nag uusap. I'm not chismoso ah! narinig ko lang, dun kasi sila nag uusap sa malapit sa kinarorooanan namin ni Belle eh.Kumakain si Zyron nang chocolate. Tapos biglang tinopak itong si Francis kaya si Zyron ang kinausap niya na alam naman niyang hindi maganda ang mood ni Zyron basta nandiyan siya dahil lagi nilang inaasara."Do you know that will damage your teeth?" Sabi ni Francis kay Zyron na walang pakialam."My great grandfather live for 112 years." Zy replied to him. At napa kunot naman si Francis dun."Was it because of eating chocolate?" Tanong ni Francis at matagal bago sumagot si Z. Buti nga sumagot pa yan eh."No, he was always minding his own business," matagal bago nak
XAVIER'S POVNandito ako ngayon sa office kasama si Zyrielle, may lakad kasi si Zy at Belle eh!Napa hinto ako sa pag pirma dahil may tumawag and yun pala si Clinton lang."Yes?" I answered him habang nilapag yung signpen."Dude, ayos na daw yung request ni Belle na bisitahin si Jhika sa mental hospital at next month na daw iyon, swerte mo sa asawa mo ang bait nakuha pa niyang mag alala kay Jhika, punta kami diyan inuman tayo." Sabi niya at agad akong humindi."I can't, the little devil is with me may lakad sina Belle eh! Ako na iwan kay Elle." Sabi ko sa kanya pero sabi niya na pupunta parin sila."DADDY!!!" Agad akong kinabahan dahil sa tili ni Zyrielle."Huh? Anong nangyari may masakit ba sayo?" agad kong tanong pagka lapit ko sa kanya."Nothing, I just want to shout." She said then shrug her shoulder, putek naman
XAVIER'S POVAkala niyo totoo yung sinabi ni Jhika? NO! Lahat yun ay kasinugalingan lamang, narinig ko lahat nang sinabi niya kay Belle mula sa pag kakaroon kunuhay namin nang anak at pag tataksil ko kay Belle.Lahat ng iyon ay gawa gawa lamang niya at lahat ng pictures ay photo shop lahat, nangidnap din siya nang bata sa bahay bantayan at kinuhaan niya ng litrato at pinag sama kaming tatlo sa isang picture.At nalaman ko din na isang lingo na pala siyang nakatakas, dadalhin sana siya sa mental hospital pero nakatakas siya nang papunta pa lamang doon.And when shekissed me, hindi ako pumalag dahil yun yung plano nang team, ang paamuin muna siya saka namin itatakas si Belle dahil baka pag ginalit namin ay barilin niya kaming lahat dahil hindi tama ang pag iisip niya.Pero huli na dahil bigla nalang niyang tinutok kay Belle yung baril niya. That time
YSABELL'S POV"Let me go." I said while groaning in pain. My head hurts like hell and my body felt numb. Oh! My baby I'm so sorry, I'm sorry if I haven't take care of you."Let you go? And then what? You will go to Xavier again and be happy? Huh? That's what you're planning? While me here feeling miserable and so broken? I won't let that happen. You will die today I'm telling you hahhaha." Shesaid laughing sarcastically and gripping my jaw very tight."Because of you, our plans was ruined and even my family was ruined. You took my daughter's right to have his father, because of you my daughter haven't experienced how to feel to have a complete family." She said very mad.And I was shock. I can't speak, her revelation is like a bomb whom I didn't expect.I have a lot of questions, how? When, and why? Is it true? Xavier won't do it to me. I wanted to cry after hea
XAVIER'S POVI am here in Z's room, I'm still upset for Belle kaya dito muna ako, kanina pa ako nakauwi at ganun din di Belle pero di ko siya pinansin."Dad I don't feel like sleeping, let's just talk some things," Z said while still holding my hands.I don't know kung bakit ang bait niya ngayon. Basta pagpunta ko rito ay bigla niya lang ako inaya na humiga tapos agad siyang humiga sa dibdib ko at nakahawak yung kamay niya sa kamay ko at nilalaro ito."I just want to ask this if you don't mind, ahm why did you hurt mommy back then? Did you know that she suffered a lot?" Tanong niya and I was caught off guard."I know son, I know and I hurt her before because of the thought that she only used me we were frame up and I regreted that." Saad ko naman."And pinalayas mo siya,did you know thatwala siyang mapuntahan? She just stay in the park alone if I was th
XAVIER'S POVWe are going to Belle's dad now for lunch he invited us dahil gusto niya kausapin si Belle."Dad where's my apples?" My son ask me, like God! We are going in he's Lolo's house and he's still thinking about eating apple?"It's on the backseat." I said and then I saw him running now to my car.I waited for Belle para maalalayan siya sa pag sakay.Nag uusap kami ni Belle nang bigla nalang nag reklamo si Zyron."Dad, Yaya is not good in picking fruits." He said then bite again to his apple, not good in picking fruits daw eh kain naman siya ng kain."What made you say that?" Si Belle na ngayon ang nag tanong, this past few days di lang si Belle ang nag bago pati rin si Zyron ayaw na makinig he always have explanation to everything, at kung pag sasabihan mo naman ayaw na ding mag pa talo, he's very hard headed. When I told Be
YSABELL'S POVI just got home from shopping, yes! Shopping as what mommy, (Xavier's mom) ask me since she wants to have a bonding with me.And the funny thing is, she almost buy everything she wants and likes to give it to me.Hahahaha I declined her offer once but she told me she would get disappointed if I declined it so I have no choice but to accept it besides all those things are one of my favorite and I dream to have those.She bought a lot of shoes, dress and bags she spoiled me a lot.I took a rest first and I decided to make our dinner since it's been weeks that I haven't use the kitchen.I came up to making soup, a pork one it's my favorite and Zyron too.Speaking of which I don't know if where is he, Xavier texted me when I was still in the mall that he's busy and he have someone to take care for Zy.I had observed this
XAVIER'S POVWe are preparing for a dinner kaya busy kami ngayon, hands on kasi si Belle dahil parents namin yung bibisita dito. And syempre as Belle kung makapag handa parang pasko na.We are planning to visit them on their houses, but Belle came to an idea na why not invite them in a dinner para hindina hassle at complete pa hindi narin kami mahihirapan sa pag biyahe lalo na at laging puyat itong si Zyron."Love, pahinga ka nalang kaya muna, hayaan mo na si manang dyan siya na bahala, pawis ka na oh!" I told her but she just shook her head saying na okay lang siya at kaya niya.I don't know what's gotten in to me but this year I just found my self being over protective to Belle and Zyron, di ko lang mamalayan kung asan silaay nag papanick na ako at lagi akong kinakabahan and it scares me lalo na kung maisip ko na baka iniwan nila ako or may nagawa akong kasalanan.&nb