(Renata Pellegrini)“Is this all you are taking?” Filippo asks, looking at my one suitcase.“Yes,” I answered with a small smile.This apartment came already furnished, nothing in here but my clothes, it is mine. And I'm only using one big suitcase, because of the clothes that Filippo gave me at the mall, otherwise it would just be a small suitcase of old and worn-out clothes.Besides this suitcase, all I will take with me are the memories. Everything that I have experienced here, the romantic moments with Filippo, the funny and happy Sundays with Amanda...“You look beautiful, do you know that?” Filippo say and came toward me like a hunter aiming at his prey. Even today I still get goosebumps when his hands touch my skin directly.“I dressed up especially for you,” I say, smiling shyly.Filippo puts his hand on my face and I close my eyes enjoying his warm and loving contact. Although his hands are full of calluses, I love it when they touch me. His thumb caresses my cheek, making me
(Renata Pellegrini) "This is going to go to shit"- My mind alerts me as I hold the doorknob of the door, I suspect is the basement. I close my eyes and the image of his dark look makes a shiver run down my spine, Filippo when he is angry is very scared, his eyes become horrifyingly cold and dark, like those of an evil wolf... This was the first expression I saw on him. Even today I remember the constant feeling of danger I felt when I looked into his eyes, my warnings were right, I fell into the trap and today I am in love and willing to live next to him. But what expression will he make when he finds out that I did exactly what he asked me not to do? Just imagining his face disappointed in me makes my heart squeeze. Okay, I don't think we should have secrets between us, even more so when we are living together now, but I have to wait his time, no one is obliged to open up like this. And also, we haven't been together that long, I'm sure that as time goes by, he will not only tell
(Renata Pellegrini) All the hunger I was feeling has simply vanished, the emptiness that echoed in my stomach is now opening in my heart, again, the feeling of being betrayed. He calls me to live in his house, and when his mother calls, he says I am just a friend? What kind of friend visits a single man late at night? I don't even want to think about the answer... My stomach is upset, I take my plate and put it back in the fridge, feeling the tears stuck in my throat. I walk with hurried steps back to the bedroom, but before I can open the door, Filippo comes out of the guest bathroom and holds my arm. “What is it?” He asks me with a serious face. “Nothing," I answer and try to let go, but he just squeezes his hand even tighter on my arm. "Please let go of me, I'm sleepy." I speak dryly without looking into his eyes, I don't want him to see the tears pooling in them. “I told you not to lie to me, ragazza,” he holds my chin and forces me to look at him, I bite my mouth holding back
(Filippo Valentini) After two hours, being sure that Renata is sleeping soundly, I carefully take her head off my chest, switch places with a pillow and Renata clings to my replacement. The night didn't end as planned, I figured that bringing her to live with me would make me get to my goal of fucking her faster, but every time I get close to sinking into her flesh, something happens to get in the way and it's driving me crazy, I'm on the verge of losing my patience, which is already very little. Today I almost lost my mind, I ended up saying what I shouldn't have, I didn't plan to throw in her face that I used to have sex with her a lot, I could see the disappointment on her face, but my anger and frustration spoke so loudly that I was glad I said it, I've been holding back too long and this way she will soon get a shock of reality, I'm a man and I need to attend to my needs. She thinks she can play with me, but that's not how it works. In this game, the champion will always be me
(Renata Pellegrini) I wake up to the shrill noise of my cell phone alarm clock, I lazily stretch out on the bed, I ended up sleeping better than I expected, I look to the side and Filippo is not here, I didn't even see what time he came back, I simply blacked out last night. The bathroom door is opened and the smell of Filippo spreads throughout the room, I look away in his direction and my whole face heats up. I still can't get used to his body being so exposed like this. He is only wearing a towel on his hips and at this moment, watching him in detail, I feel a slight envy of the little drops of water that glide shamelessly across his body. “Buona giornata, ragazza!” He greets me from the back, I stare at his broad, strong back, I want to run my nails over it. “Good morning!” I greet him back. “I think you'll enjoy the view more this way," he says, turning around, taking me by surprise. I stare wide-eyed as his towel falls to the floor, leaving all his masculinity exposed. I sw
(Renata Pellegrini) “Is there a problem, miss?” Mr. Lucas Parmanel suddenly asks as he enters the elevator. Since I became Filippo's secretary and personal assistant, I never needed to speak directly with the vice-president, the information exchange was always between me and Sofia. “N-no, sir,” I answered, finding her question strange. “You were lost because Filippo didn't show up today. Did I get it right?” “Well, yes.” “Take my advice, get used to it, it has happened that he has not shown up for more than a week.” “Why is that?” I ask puzzled. “It is none of our business, Filippo is not the kind of man who likes to explain himself.” “I understand," I say, picking up my cell phone and checking once more that there are no messages. I am upset, he didn't show up and didn't even send a message. I leave the elevator dialing the driver's number, but the new message notification makes me stop and open the message application: Filippo, mio amato: I'll meet you at the movies, let's
(Renata Pellegrini)"Don't come close, get out! No please, stop, stop, STOP!" Filippo shouts, making me wake up scared. I turn on the light of the lamp beside me. "No dad, please, it hurts, stop!" Filippo whispers in a voice choked by crying.I look at his sweaty face, his frightened look, Filippo begins to stir in bed, his arms all the time covering his face and chest, as if he is trying to protect himself from something. My heart squeezes, he is crying while having the nightmare."Please stop!" He keeps shouting. "Leave my brothers alone, I'm to blame!""The fever is making him delirious." - I think as I get up, I go to the nightstand next to his bed, I soak the flannel in cold water, and his pillow is soaked with sweat."Don't come any closer! Don't touch me!" He continues shouting, now moving his legs too.I feel a shiver run down my spine, I've never seen him like this before, it scares me, this is the first time I've seen someone delirious with fever. I know this is normal, but
(Filippo Valentini)I open my eyes and feeling dizzy from the stabbing pain I have been hit with, I close them again. Not only my wound hurts, but also my head, my bones, my joints, absolutely everything in me! Cazzo!I feel dehydrated and burning, as if fire were splashing directly on my skin, I wriggle around in a futile attempt to get rid of this infernal heat. Oh, shit! I feel trapped! I hate feeling this, it makes me have memories that follow me through the night in the form of horrible nightmares.After a while, trying not to focus on the pain, I suddenly feel a pair of gentle hands come down on me with a damp cloth, being gently wiped across my face. I let out a sigh of relief and lifted my hand to the source of the coolness and softness, grasping it desperately, as if it were the last thread of hope, the last ray of light."Filippo, don't," she complains to me. "Lie still, let me take care of you, amato."It is Renata's voice, her command overriding my maddening pain, and obey