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Chapter 22: Lust and Love
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2022-04-21 20:49:55Nahihirapan na akong huminga dahil sa sobrang pag-iyak. I really don't know what happened after that night. All these years I resented him and missed him at the same time for leaving me hanging.
"I am really sorry, Alex. Hindi ko alam," I said between my sobs.
Hindi ko talaga alam!
"I can't remember clearly what happened that night. I was drunk and I drove Tito's car papunta sa inyo." He paused. I can clearly see how confused he is while telling me his story.
"The next thing I know I was in a comma for two fucking months!"
What?
I just keep on saying sorry. Wala akong makitang salita maliban sa "sorry".
"It was my fault. I'm really sorry," paulit-ulit kong sabi sa mga salitang iyon.
"You know what hurts me most?" He asked me while crying. "It's the fact that you didn't look for me."
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