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Tristan The cemetery's rows of silent gravestones and the smell of fresh earth greeted me like an old friend. Over the past five years, this place has become my second home. I sat on the damp ground, wiping dirt from a gravestone. My fingers traced the name and read it over and over. “Shawn Lewitt, a son and a friend.” I bit my inner cheek, lingering on the pain that word was giving me. Each stroke felt like a whisper of the past, and the heaviness in my chest grew with every letter. Memories tugged at my heart as kept on caressing his tombstone. The weight of his loss was still pressing down on me despite the passing years. My childhood was far from the life that most of the wolves my age was dreaming. Yes, I had everything, but not the family I wanted for myself. My parents were always busy and I grew up alone in our big home. Shawn, an omega, became my best friend and constant companion. He had always been there for me, especially when my parents chose their Alpha duties
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Tristan I stormed down the hallway of our family's sprawling estate, each step echoing my anger and frustration. My heart pounded with betrayal as I approached the ornate study where my parents often gathered after dinner. Pushing open the heavy doors, I confronted them. “Is it true that you asked the doctors to give Shawn’s heart to Elaine Scott?” My mother and father looked at each other. I saw my Mom nod at Dad, signaling him to speak. “We owed Elaine," he said firmly as if that justified everything. My jaw dropped from what he said. I honestly hoped that Megan and the doctor were telling some lies about my best friend’s death but apparently, it was the most bitter truth I had to swallow. Stunned, I only managed to ask, “Why? Why would you do that?” My father's eyes were cold and unyielding, devoid of remorse. " "She saved your mother's life. Without her, your mother would have died." I staggered back, stunned by his words. "So, Shawn's life was the price?" B
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Elaine"Oh, come on! What the hell is this?”I managed a crooked smile, attempting to convey my disapproval as I glanced at Anita, who seemed entertained by the spectacle unfolding before us. This morning, we were greeted by an array of assorted flower bouquets that lined the corridor up to my desk. I couldn't help but roll my eyes and fold my arms, confronted with the floral display that resembled a garden. Every imaginable kind of flower was present, from roses to tulips. The corridor looked like it had been transformed into a florist's shop. All that was missing was a cash register and I would be ready to open this “flower shop.”"Seems like your almost ex-husband isn't ready to throw in the towel," Anita remarked, her lips curling into a teasing grin. She shared my discontent with the stunt, especially after I had confided in her about my issues with Tristan. "He's managed to spoil your morning two days straight. Quite an achievement!""Tell me about it," I responded as I carefully
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ElaineMy hands clenched into fists, and I could feel the heat rising in my face. My breath came in short, sharp bursts as I struggled to composure as I continued talking to Tristan."Are you kidding? I hate them! So, call someone to pick up your garbage, or else...""Else what?" he challenged"Else I’ll kill you, got that?!" I yelled, my voice shaking with fury. I slammed down the phone, the loud bang echoing in my ears. My body trembled with anger, my hands shaking as I massaged my temples, trying to calm down. My head throbbed in pain. How did I tolerate being married to this jerk for three years? The thought of all those wasted years made my stomach churn, and I felt a wave of nausea. This wolf was the worst. Tristan was the worst thing that ever happened to me.I leaned back in my chair, realizing my anger had drained some of my energy. That was when I noticed a single stem of deep pink rose sitting quietly on my desk. Attached to it was a small white card that read:I bit my low
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ElaineI wasn’t expecting a call from Megan. After all, our friendship had shattered when she started an affair with Tristan. It was a betrayal that cut deep, leaving me grappling with hurt, anger, and disbelief.As Megan’s name flashed on my phone, I took a deep breath before answering.“What do you want?” I asked, my voice strained with coldness.There was a hesitant swallow on the other end before Megan spoke. “Let’s talk. Are you free to meet at our favorite cafe from back in the day?”I was caught off guard. Memories of our laughter and shared moments at that cafe flooded my mind, and for a moment, my heart tightened painfully. I clenched my fists to steady myself, refusing to show any vulnerability to Megan. I wouldn’t give her the satisfaction.“What are we going to talk about?” I asked sharply, ensuring my guarded curiosity was evident.Megan took a deep breath before answering. “Everything, Elle. This conversation is long overdue.”A knot formed in my stomach as I heard her sa
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ElaineThe air in the café suddenly felt heavy as Megan shifted uncomfortably in her seat. Her cheeks turned a shade redder though I wasn’t sure if this was due to embarrassment or unease. She took a deep breath before opening her mouth. "I... I lied," Megan began hesitantly. "About Tristan and me being engaged. It wasn't true. I made it all up to mess with you.”I stayed silent, staring at her, waiting for her to say something else. Honestly, I was waiting for her to apologize, to say sorry for everything she did to me. I waited for a while until I realized that it was the only thing she came to talk to me about. To say that I was disappointed was an understatement. Megan's irritation flared instantly. Her brows furrowed, and she leaned forward defensively. "I came here to come clean but you keep giving me this attitude. It’s insulting."Anger simmered within me at Megan’s defensive reaction. I couldn’t believe she was turning the situation around on me. I took a deep breath, trying
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MeganYes, I’m the bitch.A slut, a whore, a homewrecker—you name it, I am all that and more. I wasn’t the first she-wolf to do it, and I certainly won’t be the last. Being a mistress is heavily frowned upon in our society, but in my case, I didn’t mind. I was just a she-wolf who was in love. What was wrong with that?After all, all is fair in love and war.My name is Megan Smith, and I am known as that ‘best friend’ who slept with her best friend's husband. Do I regret my actions? Of course not. I had been in love with Tristan Hale for as long as I could remember, and the night I gave my virginity to him was one of the best nights of my life.He was best friends with Shawn, my cousin, so I had known him before Elaine did. There wasn’t a night that passed when I didn’t wish for Tristan to be my mate. He was perfect in my eyes, and nothing, not even the mate bond, could erase my feelings for him. I was 18 when I found my mate, John, but I decided to reject him because I couldn’t see mys
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Elaine“This is it! You can do this, Elaine!” I told myself as the elevator opened to my desired floor. My stomach churned with nerves as I stepped at the Marketing Department flood. I clutched my bag a little tighter, trying to steady my breathing. This was my first day working under Nancy's supervision, and the anticipation was nearly overwhelming. The office was busy with activity. Wolves were talking, keyboards were clicking, and phones were ringing. The space was clean and modern. There were rows of cubicles and meeting rooms with glass walls. Bright posters of successful projects decorated the walls. Large windows let in a lot of natural light, making the office feel open and bright. Groups of employees gathered around tables and coffee stations, discussing some ideas with lively gestures.But as soon as I entered, the energy seemed to shift. Conversations stopped, and curious eyes turned toward me, assessing the new arrival. I felt a ripple of unease pass through the room but I
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TristanI felt the oozing lust in the way Elaine looked at me. But at the same time, I caught a glance of tremendous desperation in her. That broke me into pieces.“I promise. We will get through this night together,” I responded.Elaine smiled. There was still some sense left in her. I knew it was the drug that was doing this to her.Soon enough, Elaine folded her knees and held onto her chest. The pain struck her.“I feel warm inside… so warm that I can’t take this anymore… help me, Tristan.” Then violently, Elaine pulled my arms into a hug.After years of struggling through a life without her, the embrace that felt like home touched my skin again.“Your hug is like water quenching decades of thirst in my body.” Her breathing became heavy in my ears.Elaine pulled the back of my head.“Hey, handsome.” Her voice started to sing a different melody. Elaine now wore a tune of seduction.I instantly pulled away from her embrace.“No, Elaine. Stop this.”Earlier, Elaine was begging desper
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TristanI carried Elaine until we reached the camp. I put her inside our quarters before confronting Elsa. Elsa was completely calm. From the outside, we could hear Elaine’s agony, but these wolves seemed to have no care at all. By the way they stood and portrayed strange calmness, it was like everyone expected it to happen.“Something is off about your medicine!” I shouted at Elsa. “You’re not deaf to hear those screams, are you? Why are you standing here doing nothing?!”Elsa suddenly jumped from the porch, launching at me. It was good that my reflexes were fast enough to dodge the attack. I jumped away from her group.“What the fuck was that?” I exclaimed. Ruther and Mike didn’t bother to help and just watched.The second I removed my eyes from Elsa, she launched another surprise attack. This time, I saw an injection in her hand. I jumped to the side, dodging another shot.“Stop running away,” Elsa told me.Elsa twisted her left ankle and pounced on my whole body. She managed to
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TristanI looked at Elaine, checking every detail of her body. Clearly, the exhaustion in her body was pushed to its limits. We made it up to the last second. The training was a success. But at what cost?“Elaine… Can you hear me?” I asked her.I felt something was odd with her body heat. I touched Elaine’s forehead using the tip of my fingers. It was as hot as a kettle. Her body temperature was soaring high.“This is bad…” I muttered, turning my head around, seeking Elsa and Ruther.Elaine started moaning because of the fever. She twitched her body in different directions. I saw how Elaine clenched her fist, battling against the pain in her.“Elsa!” I called out to her.I gently placed Elaine’s head on the soft pillow and grabbed the towel I threw earlier. Then I soaked it deep into the water in the sink, ran back to Elaine, and placed it on her forehead.“Don’t worry, you’re gonna be alright.” I carefully wiped her head down to her neck, hoping the wet towel would help with the high
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TristanA soul binding? I have never heard such a word. I never knew such a thing existed in our timeline.I put my hands on my head, feeling helpless, not knowing what to do or how to help. Is it even safe? Will it throw Elaine into danger?“This is the most vital part of being a Silvermare. Finally, her wolf wholeheartedly accepted Elaine.”“I don’t understand a single word you say. But this could kill Elaine. She’s not ready to morph. She’s not ready for this.”Elsa countered with a much louder voice.“It wasn’t you who would decide that. It’s her wolf.”Elsa has a point. I have no right to any part of Elaine’s life. I wish to know what’s running inside Elaine’s wolf. Why did she choose Elaine over everybody else? Her gift only leads her to more pain.Elaine continued the process. I could barely stand the sight. The groans of pain drilled into my head. I tried to turn away my gaze.My heart ached and pierced right through my soul. I slammed my arms against the ground in frustration
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TristanElaine suddenly emitted a beaming light coming out from her body. Those bursting beams penetrated the whole area. We took more steps away from Elaine. Elsa and Ruther stood tall in front of Elaine who levitated more into the ground. Probably the same height as the tall trees around us. Fear succumbed to my heart. I was scared and confused as hell. I’m like a child witnessing some things only adults could understand. “ELAINE!” I called out to her. My veins popped on my neck as I tried to scream her name. Her eyes were glowing yellow, shining so much that it made my eyebrows scrunched protecting my eyes. Elsa smirked. While Ruther remains unshaken. These two looked at Elaine like they had witnessed this kind of stuff before. “Now, you will see a Silvermare’s true form,” Elsa proudly declared. Elaine flows with the air. She dances with it. Elaine totally lost will over her own body. The place soon filled with more blazing lights, sparkling magically on the river and any li
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TristanThe waterfall crashed down with so much force. It had overpowered many before, and now, it was pushing Elaine to her limit.“10 more minutes!” I shouted as loud as I could. “It’s just a blink of an eye, and you’ll be done!”From where I stood, I could see how much she was struggling. Her whole body was shaking, her legs barely able to keep her up. She was trying so hard to stay standing, but I knew she was almost at her breaking point.At that moment, I had to accept the truth.Ten minutes probably felt like forever to her. The training had reached its hardest point, and Elaine just couldn’t hold on much longer. No matter how badly she wanted to, her body was giving out.Hope left in me. I know as Elaine’s mate, there was nothing more to do. I threw the towel in already, as a way of saying we did well at this training. This is brutal enough for Elaine’s physique. I knew from the start it was an impossible task. “That’s enough,” I shouted at Elsa. I went down to the water, tr
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ElaineAnother boost of energy surged through my body, but exhaustion was creeping in. I knew 30 minutes wasn’t that long anymore. I was so close to the finish line. Yet, the relentless force of the waterfall felt heavier than before, pressing down on my shoulders like a mountain. My muscles screamed in protest, and my breathing turned ragged.My knees started to bend, trembling under the weight of my own exhaustion. I clenched my fists, digging my nails into my palms, desperate to keep myself upright. I couldn’t fail now. Not when I had come this far. Not when Tristan was watching, his eyes filled with silent encouragement.“20 more minutes. Hang in there a little longer, please.” Maybe Tristan saw how I was about to lose consciousness that’s why he’s yelling desperately. I know I have little to no strength to continue. But I am almost there at the finish line. At that point, I decided to call out to my spirit wolf. “Neeya…” I whispered at the back of my head. My body lost balanc
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ElaineHis words mean a lot to me. It added some boost to my energy. This training improved my relationship with Tristan. We learned to work like a real team. We did well until the first 3 hours. My knees gave up on me again. Elsas stood up from her spot and yelled. “3 hours wasted, Elaine. You let the 3 hours of hard work be taken away by that fall.”Her yelling added another weight like usual. Soon, my mind and body won't work as one. As I see the disappointed face of Elsa, my mind sends signals of pressure and discomfort. My body reacted along with Elsa’s words. It lost half of its strength because I was nervous. Under the waterfall, I feel like a warrior battling for the lives of others. As long as I don’t master this special gift as a Silvermare, more lives will be put in danger. This is war already. So I gathered my strength again and stood tall. I didn’t guard the time. Until I realized how much time had passed when Ruther called out Tristan. “You did it, Alpha Tristan.” T
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ElaineThe next day came, and everyone acted like nothing happened. But I could somehow sense Ruther’s awkward stance towards us. Meanwhile, Mike was left in the cabin like usual.I tried to read Tristan’s mind. But he was strangely quiet throughout our journey. I’m not sure if everyone still dwells in the story of Elsa’s past. I was staring behind her. My heart aches for Elsa. I could definitely not handle her tragedy if that was me. Truly, as a she-wolf, Elsa is an admirable lady for her strength and resilience. “I forgot to tell you something…” Elsa suddenly speaks, still leading our way to the waterfalls. “What is it?” I humbly asked. “If you can’t pass the training today, I believe this has to stop. It’s gonna be pointless anyway.”Tristan suddenly stopped from walking. I bumped into his huge back. “Did I hear it right?” Tristan asked. Elsa didn’t say anything. Tristan chased her. It’s not just him. Even I was shocked to hear about this last training. Though my body recovere
