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TrevorI couldn’t take my eyes off Elaine. The sorrow in her eyes and the downward curve of her lips sent a sharp pain through my heart. It was a sight unbearably painful to witness.There was no benefit in hiding things from my girlfriend. I was about to utter a few words, just a fragment of what had happened in the parking lot, but my tongue felt locked in place. Remembering Elaine’s struggles and how she always stressed about Tristan held me back. I couldn’t just add to her worries, right? I promised to take care of her so thinking that I would give her unnecessary burden was wearing me down. Obviously, a part of me wanted to shield her from this problem. But it was her genuine care that made it so difficult to keep it from her.“It’s not right, Trevor. Elaine must know the truth. You can’t keep things from her.”Dillon’s voice echoed inside my head. I already found it difficult to form my words but since my wolf had decided to chime in, it tangled my thoughts even further.“I know
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ElaineA few days had passed.I sat at the table with Trevor while listening to his quiet hum as he happily ate his food. The barbeque ribs he had spent hours making were right in front of me. It looked tender, with a shiny glaze that looked so good. Steam was still rising from them as Trevor had just recently gotten that from the grill. The smell of the smoky meat mixed with the sweet sauce, tempted me to dig in. It was the kind of meal that usually made my stomach growl.But tonight, I didn’t feel hungry. My fork hovered over the ribs, and I couldn’t bring myself to take a bite. Instead, I pushed the food around on my plate. I felt a tightness in my chest that made it hard to enjoy the meal. The warmth of the food seemed so far away, and all I could think about was the emptiness inside.I took a heavy sigh as I glanced at my phone on the side.“Have you heard any news about Liz?”It’s been a week since the mating ritual. But Liz hasn’t contacted me yet nor updated me about her.“I’
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ElaineThere’s no way I’m letting myself stand out at the Elite Five’s Thanksgiving party. I still personally think I’m not suited for that kind of event. I’d be totally out of place. It’s a world above mine.So, I made up my mind and went with a simple dress, something formal enough but not too noticeable. I decided on a high-slit black gown paired with my jet-black hair, which I simply let down. I didn’t do much to it. And, of course, some light makeup for formality’s sake, finished off with a touch of light red lipstick.I smiled as I looked at myself in the mirror. “A proper attire for the event,” I told myself. It was subtle enough not to attract too much attention. I just wanted to survive the night peacefully.Before leaving the room, I faced the huge mirror, turning around and checking every angle of my dress. Everything was set.As I descended the stairs, I spotted Trevor standing patiently in his black suit. He looked stunning, even in something so plain. I caught myself sta
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ElaineWe watched as the founders of Elite Five walked onto the stage one by one. The room grew quieter with each step they took. All eyes were fixed on them. There was a certain air about them, one that made it clear why they were at the top.As I took in the moment, Mr. Lyndon leaned in close and spoke softly.“Will you look after Leo for a bit?”His voice was quiet, his breath warm against my ear.I turned to him and nodded. “Yeah, of course.”He gave a quick nod before straightening up. His focus shifted back to the stage. It was clear he had more important things on his mind.Mr. Lyndon nodded and excused himself. Along with Peter and Lucian Everett, he welcomed the guests with a warm speech. The emcee handed the microphone to Lucian Everett. The noise settled, and every attendee’s attention locked onto the founders.“A pleasant evening to everyone. I am thrilled to see each and every one of you here today!”A loud applause echoed throughout the hall.“I deeply appreciate your he
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Elaine“YOU!” I blurted out. My voice was louder than I intended. Unintentionally, it drew a few curious glances from the people nearby and yet I didn’t care. My heart pounded with a mix of anger and disbelief. My eyes locked on Tristan, and every part of me recoiled. Seeing him again after everything felt like a slap in the face. He had no right to show up here. No right to be anywhere near me.I couldn’t hide the irritation that bubbled up inside me. My glare was sharp as I stared at him. I hadn’t realized how much his presence still annoyed me until now. “What the hell are you doing here?” The words felt sharp, cutting through the air between us. I couldn’t believe he’d show up in front of me again, after everything that happened.“Well…” he said, chuckling. “I just want a dance, that’s all,” he answered casually. “A dance?! Are you serious?!” I snapped, quickly moving to another chair. But Tristan followed and sat next to me. “Are you following me?!”He rubbed the back of his
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Elaine“You ready?” Tristan asked me as he pulled me closer to him.With his gentle touch, he slowly locked his hands against mine. I turned my eyes away and didn’t respond. And the melody of the classical music played loudly in the background.Like a falling dry leaf, Tristan and I glided smoothly on the dance floor, holding each other and never letting go. With Tristan’s lead, the music and the movements of our feet synchronized with the beat.Soon, our movements became more and more calm. As if we’re the tall grass dancing with the breeze. My eyes couldn’t escape his gaze. We both got stuck staring at each other.I lost track of time as we stared at one another. The world around us faded into the background. It felt as though we owned the entire party, like no one else existed but the two of us. Tristan gradually eased his movements, and, surprisingly, I didn’t feel the usual hate or disgust that his gaze usually stirred within me.Then, out of nowhere, something jolted me back to
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ElaineWhen I lost my memories, I wasn’t even interested in getting them back. Liz’s words, combined with fleeting glimpses of forgotten memories I remembered from time to time, were enough for me to know that I never truly found happiness with Tristan. I didn’t have the urge to uncover anything beyond my lost memories. I never craved to discover that unknown part of myself. But now that the Moon Goddess had chosen to reveal the truth, no pain could ever compare to what I was feeling at this moment.Why? Why did I have to confront my past now? More importantly, why did I have to learn the truth? I was okay now, at peace. This was something that should have remained buried, along with the missing part of my identity. And yet, the Moon Goddess had chosen to bring it all to the surface.My eyes were rivers of tears. I cried relentlessly in the dark corner of the parking lot, releasing the frustration and anger that had been suffocating me for so long. My nose was clogged with snot, and m
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Elaine“My, my. Look at that. The little she-wolf's shy, huh?” A voice rumbled from the shadows, dripping with menace.The bushes shook. A heavy thud of footsteps echoed in the air. My instincts flared, pushing me into the shadows and out of their sight. I scrambled for cover under the gnarled tree, desperate to hide my bare skin.“Damn! This is our lucky night, fellas!” Another voice cackled, its laughter dark and cold.“We’re about to feast, boys!” the first one growled with hungry anticipation.The moonlight sliced through the trees and cast an eerie glow over the cliff. The shadows receded and revealed the roguesThey were hideous, with their foul-eyes and hunger for something much more than food. They stared at me like wolves circling a wounded deer. Their eyes glinted with dark intent.“Nice to meet you, sweetheart,” one of them purred. His slow steps were heavy with malice as he closed in.I looked around the area, fear rising inside me. I knew exactly who they were by the way
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TristanI felt the oozing lust in the way Elaine looked at me. But at the same time, I caught a glance of tremendous desperation in her. That broke me into pieces.“I promise. We will get through this night together,” I responded.Elaine smiled. There was still some sense left in her. I knew it was the drug that was doing this to her.Soon enough, Elaine folded her knees and held onto her chest. The pain struck her.“I feel warm inside… so warm that I can’t take this anymore… help me, Tristan.” Then violently, Elaine pulled my arms into a hug.After years of struggling through a life without her, the embrace that felt like home touched my skin again.“Your hug is like water quenching decades of thirst in my body.” Her breathing became heavy in my ears.Elaine pulled the back of my head.“Hey, handsome.” Her voice started to sing a different melody. Elaine now wore a tune of seduction.I instantly pulled away from her embrace.“No, Elaine. Stop this.”Earlier, Elaine was begging desper
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TristanI carried Elaine until we reached the camp. I put her inside our quarters before confronting Elsa. Elsa was completely calm. From the outside, we could hear Elaine’s agony, but these wolves seemed to have no care at all. By the way they stood and portrayed strange calmness, it was like everyone expected it to happen.“Something is off about your medicine!” I shouted at Elsa. “You’re not deaf to hear those screams, are you? Why are you standing here doing nothing?!”Elsa suddenly jumped from the porch, launching at me. It was good that my reflexes were fast enough to dodge the attack. I jumped away from her group.“What the fuck was that?” I exclaimed. Ruther and Mike didn’t bother to help and just watched.The second I removed my eyes from Elsa, she launched another surprise attack. This time, I saw an injection in her hand. I jumped to the side, dodging another shot.“Stop running away,” Elsa told me.Elsa twisted her left ankle and pounced on my whole body. She managed to
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TristanI looked at Elaine, checking every detail of her body. Clearly, the exhaustion in her body was pushed to its limits. We made it up to the last second. The training was a success. But at what cost?“Elaine… Can you hear me?” I asked her.I felt something was odd with her body heat. I touched Elaine’s forehead using the tip of my fingers. It was as hot as a kettle. Her body temperature was soaring high.“This is bad…” I muttered, turning my head around, seeking Elsa and Ruther.Elaine started moaning because of the fever. She twitched her body in different directions. I saw how Elaine clenched her fist, battling against the pain in her.“Elsa!” I called out to her.I gently placed Elaine’s head on the soft pillow and grabbed the towel I threw earlier. Then I soaked it deep into the water in the sink, ran back to Elaine, and placed it on her forehead.“Don’t worry, you’re gonna be alright.” I carefully wiped her head down to her neck, hoping the wet towel would help with the high
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TristanA soul binding? I have never heard such a word. I never knew such a thing existed in our timeline.I put my hands on my head, feeling helpless, not knowing what to do or how to help. Is it even safe? Will it throw Elaine into danger?“This is the most vital part of being a Silvermare. Finally, her wolf wholeheartedly accepted Elaine.”“I don’t understand a single word you say. But this could kill Elaine. She’s not ready to morph. She’s not ready for this.”Elsa countered with a much louder voice.“It wasn’t you who would decide that. It’s her wolf.”Elsa has a point. I have no right to any part of Elaine’s life. I wish to know what’s running inside Elaine’s wolf. Why did she choose Elaine over everybody else? Her gift only leads her to more pain.Elaine continued the process. I could barely stand the sight. The groans of pain drilled into my head. I tried to turn away my gaze.My heart ached and pierced right through my soul. I slammed my arms against the ground in frustration
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TristanElaine suddenly emitted a beaming light coming out from her body. Those bursting beams penetrated the whole area. We took more steps away from Elaine. Elsa and Ruther stood tall in front of Elaine who levitated more into the ground. Probably the same height as the tall trees around us. Fear succumbed to my heart. I was scared and confused as hell. I’m like a child witnessing some things only adults could understand. “ELAINE!” I called out to her. My veins popped on my neck as I tried to scream her name. Her eyes were glowing yellow, shining so much that it made my eyebrows scrunched protecting my eyes. Elsa smirked. While Ruther remains unshaken. These two looked at Elaine like they had witnessed this kind of stuff before. “Now, you will see a Silvermare’s true form,” Elsa proudly declared. Elaine flows with the air. She dances with it. Elaine totally lost will over her own body. The place soon filled with more blazing lights, sparkling magically on the river and any li
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TristanThe waterfall crashed down with so much force. It had overpowered many before, and now, it was pushing Elaine to her limit.“10 more minutes!” I shouted as loud as I could. “It’s just a blink of an eye, and you’ll be done!”From where I stood, I could see how much she was struggling. Her whole body was shaking, her legs barely able to keep her up. She was trying so hard to stay standing, but I knew she was almost at her breaking point.At that moment, I had to accept the truth.Ten minutes probably felt like forever to her. The training had reached its hardest point, and Elaine just couldn’t hold on much longer. No matter how badly she wanted to, her body was giving out.Hope left in me. I know as Elaine’s mate, there was nothing more to do. I threw the towel in already, as a way of saying we did well at this training. This is brutal enough for Elaine’s physique. I knew from the start it was an impossible task. “That’s enough,” I shouted at Elsa. I went down to the water, tr
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ElaineAnother boost of energy surged through my body, but exhaustion was creeping in. I knew 30 minutes wasn’t that long anymore. I was so close to the finish line. Yet, the relentless force of the waterfall felt heavier than before, pressing down on my shoulders like a mountain. My muscles screamed in protest, and my breathing turned ragged.My knees started to bend, trembling under the weight of my own exhaustion. I clenched my fists, digging my nails into my palms, desperate to keep myself upright. I couldn’t fail now. Not when I had come this far. Not when Tristan was watching, his eyes filled with silent encouragement.“20 more minutes. Hang in there a little longer, please.” Maybe Tristan saw how I was about to lose consciousness that’s why he’s yelling desperately. I know I have little to no strength to continue. But I am almost there at the finish line. At that point, I decided to call out to my spirit wolf. “Neeya…” I whispered at the back of my head. My body lost balanc
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ElaineHis words mean a lot to me. It added some boost to my energy. This training improved my relationship with Tristan. We learned to work like a real team. We did well until the first 3 hours. My knees gave up on me again. Elsas stood up from her spot and yelled. “3 hours wasted, Elaine. You let the 3 hours of hard work be taken away by that fall.”Her yelling added another weight like usual. Soon, my mind and body won't work as one. As I see the disappointed face of Elsa, my mind sends signals of pressure and discomfort. My body reacted along with Elsa’s words. It lost half of its strength because I was nervous. Under the waterfall, I feel like a warrior battling for the lives of others. As long as I don’t master this special gift as a Silvermare, more lives will be put in danger. This is war already. So I gathered my strength again and stood tall. I didn’t guard the time. Until I realized how much time had passed when Ruther called out Tristan. “You did it, Alpha Tristan.” T
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ElaineThe next day came, and everyone acted like nothing happened. But I could somehow sense Ruther’s awkward stance towards us. Meanwhile, Mike was left in the cabin like usual.I tried to read Tristan’s mind. But he was strangely quiet throughout our journey. I’m not sure if everyone still dwells in the story of Elsa’s past. I was staring behind her. My heart aches for Elsa. I could definitely not handle her tragedy if that was me. Truly, as a she-wolf, Elsa is an admirable lady for her strength and resilience. “I forgot to tell you something…” Elsa suddenly speaks, still leading our way to the waterfalls. “What is it?” I humbly asked. “If you can’t pass the training today, I believe this has to stop. It’s gonna be pointless anyway.”Tristan suddenly stopped from walking. I bumped into his huge back. “Did I hear it right?” Tristan asked. Elsa didn’t say anything. Tristan chased her. It’s not just him. Even I was shocked to hear about this last training. Though my body recovere
