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Elaine“This is it…”We stepped into the reception of the ritual ceremony. Golden lights from lanterns filled the big hall. It made everything look warm and bright. The air was full of voices, with people talking and the occasional loud howl. The crowd was so big that Liz and I thought we were the last ones to arrive.“This is finally happening, huh?” Liz whispered in my ear as we walked straight to the main hall.I glanced at her and noticed her quick but hesitant steps. It was like she wasn’t sure if she wanted to keep going. The golden lights reflected in her wide eyes, which made her nervousness even more obvious.“Yeah. The day you find your happily ever after.” I couldn’t help but tease her as I tried to lighten the mood. Liz giggled slightly at my joke, but her grip on my arm tightened as we continued. She looked around as I did as well.“Are we in the main hall already?” I asked while glancing at our surroundings. Liz nodded to confirm. The room felt huge and overwhelming. A
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ElaineMy heart was beating so fast, like horses running in a race. It was beating hard and nonstop. The effects of this unfamiliar scent inside me were undeniable. I could feel it in every part of my being. The scent was so intoxicatingly strong that my body refused to obey my will. It was incomparable to anything in this world. I couldn’t move the way I wanted. All I could think about was where this spring-like, heavenly scent was coming from. Suddenly, I felt that my feet turned in its direction.“No—” I whispered in my head.Trevor is waiting for me. I can’t let this control me. This is not what I expected but I would try my hardest to resist. But the scent pulled me gently like it was holding my hand. I tried to stop, but I couldn’t fight it.“Please… no,” I told myself.Unknowingly, I began walking in the opposite direction. I weaved through the crowd of wolves, not minding if someone bumped or collided with me. All that mattered was finding the source of that mesmerizing sce
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Elaine"How could this be possible?” I whispered to myself. My hand trembled as it covered my mouth. “It can’t be.”Tears spilled from my eyes and streamed relentlessly down my cheeks. I took a shaky step closer and my hand fell away from my lips.Is this real? I asked myself. Another step forward would confirm my fear. As I looked again, my lips quivered uncontrollably.“Why does it have to be you!?”My mind resisted the truth. I already rejected the idea of someone’s soul being tied to mine. Let alone, to be tied with him. I forced myself to take another step. I inhaled deeply and closed my eyes. I pulled the air around me into my lungs. My instincts confirmed it. I couldn’t lie to myself any longer.Seeing the wolf in front of me, there was no denying it anymore.I broke down, collapsing to my knees as sobs wracked my body. I didn’t understand. I refused to understand. Of all the werewolves on this continent, why did it have to be him? Why did destiny insist on binding us like an i
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TristanI despised myself for setting foot in this boring place. Why had I let my foolish inner thoughts take over? And wouldn’t it have been insane if someone caught me there, knowing I had a wife?Until now, I didn’t even know what I was doing here. In fact, I had my means not to participate. Everyone knew I wasn’t a bachelor Alpha. That means my body wouldn’t be as receptive to the effects of the mate bond as long us I would keep the council informed. And yet, here I was. It was like I was put in a trance that convinced me that something good would happen tonight.As if I cared. I didn’t understand why I allowed this part of me to win and dragged me to a place I knee I didn’t even enjoy. The polished floor reflected my image at me, and I couldn’t believe how much effort I’d put into witnessing such nonsense. My plain black suit and red necktie mocked me in the reflection. It did nothing but remind me how low I had sunk tonight.“SHALL WE START?” a loud voice rose above the murmurs
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ElaineWhat I thought was the end between Tristan and me turned out to be the start of my own misery. Seeing Tristan standing right in front of me made me believe that the moon goddess was treating me unfairly. It felt like she was playing favorites, and I was the one she cared for the least.Why else would she make me cross paths with him again? Why would she tie us together for the rest of our lives? It was as if she wanted to see me suffer, to remind me that no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t escape his grasp. My heart felt heavy, and the pain was impossible to ignore.Tristan was silently watching me cry. No words could express how furious I was at every living creature. Life hadn’t been kind, and now they had dealt me the final blow. I was falling apart in front of Tristan. Perhaps that was enough to make him stay rooted in place.“I can never accept this, Neeya. Not now, not in the future, not any day of my life.”I wiped the tears that kept pouring down like a stream. Sinc
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Elaine“What do you mean?” Holding my tightened chest, I could barely manage to ask. Neeya’s words made no sense. My head spun as I tried to understand her. But when I looked down, I saw blood dripping from my mouth and pooling on the floor. I coughed hard, more blood coming out, and fear filled my mind.This couldn’t be real. My chest hurt more, and my breathing became faster. I needed answers, and I needed them now.“How can a simple rejection spiel kill?” I added. Neeya took a deep breath before answering. “It will, if your wolf power is like mine.”Her words were calm and sounded convincing. Yet still, it was still hard to process. Wolf power like hers? What did she mean?My head spun as none of her words made sense. I placed my fingers on the side of my head and massaged it. I wanted to ask more questions, but the tightening in my chest and the stabbing pain that came out of nowhere held me back. Perhaps sensing my weakened state, Neeya continued to shed some light.“I am not a
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TrevorTwo hours had passed, but still, there were no signs of Elaine and Liz. The mating ritual didn’t usually take this long. It was just a matter of moments to see who your fated mate was. Two hours had been more than enough time for a lot to happen. Deep down, I couldn’t help but feel anxious about the outcome.My body couldn’t stay still. I paced back and forth inside our apartment, waiting for them to tell me I could fetch them. I constantly glanced and hoped to see a message from Elaine or Liz coming out of the screen.But as the seconds passed, there was still none. I pulled out my phone and checked for missed calls or messages, but the empty inbox only added to my frustration. I heaved a deep sigh. I had waited long enough to expect at least an update, but I heard nothing from either.“Should I follow her?” I asked my wolf, almost ready to drive into the place myself.“Don’t be impatient. Relax, Trevor,” he responded calmly.My heart raced, my instincts screaming that someth
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ElaineWalking down the aisle toward the man of my dreams, I couldn’t imagine this day being any more perfect. The eyes of the lovely guests were all on me. Their bright smiles lit up their faces. The joy of this day radiated through everyone in the garden.I still couldn’t fully grasp the reality. I was finally going to marry the man of my dreams. As they say, things are sweeter the second time around. It would be my second marriage but this time, I would be married out of love.Happiness enveloped me as I reached the end of the red carpet. At that moment, I knew all the sacrifices had been worth it. I had finally reached the peak of life. I could hardly wait.But then, something strange caught my attention and made me restless. Trevor wasn’t facing me. Perhaps he was crying and didn’t want to show it to everyone. The thought made me smile.I was about to call out his name when he turned around. My jaw dropped, and my lips trembled as I saw a different face. My body’s immediate react
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ElaineTrevor made an effort to prepare a warm meal early in the morning. He got up early, worried that I would go to work with just a cup of coffee. His fried bacon, sunny-side-up egg, and sandwich with mayo and fresh lettuce completely filled me up. I gave me enough energy for the day. While I ate, he sliced some sweet apples for dessert.I was about to make some coffee, but Trevor didn’t allow me. He said my stomach needed a change from my usual routine.Instead of black coffee, he poured me a glass of fresh milk with powdered cocoa. It was refreshing. I felt like a child having breakfast before school.We were both getting ready for work, but Trevor still managed to find time to clean and wash the dishes while I wiped the table with the cloth he handed me.“Getting spoiled like this isn’t so bad,” I joked while wiping the table. I knew I was smiling again, like usual. It was the kind of smile only Trevor could bring to my face.I could understand why other she-wolves were jealous.
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TristanAfter everything I had witnessed, I knew I had to do something. My mind was filled with countless thoughts about the conflict within my own territory. I knew I had to act, or I would lose my head in front of everyone.I had no idea how long I had been staring blankly at the empty seats inside the council room. But soon, I decided to head back to my office. I didn’t want to go home. As much as possible, I wanted to learn more about the welfare of the pack. I had been left behind, so I needed to adapt and make everyone realize I was still someone they could rely on as a leader.On my way to my office, I felt the urge to go to the bathroom. I stepped inside one of the cubicles, relieving myself after holding it in since the meeting. Until I heard a group of wolves enter the bathroom.“I admire your patience, Gamma Jeff.” From the deep pitch of his voice, I knew right away that Gamma Ben was the one speaking.“If I were in your shoes, I would have totally lost it. It’s impossible
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TristanOnce the final decision was made, the council members quickly moved on. They gathered their notes and folders and stacked them on the table without a second thought. Their focus was elsewhere. Their movements were smooth and natural. Again, they acted as if I wasn’t even there.Not one of them looked my way. Not one of them showed the slightest hint of interest or even acknowledgment after the meeting ended. It was as if I was just another wolf sitting among them. That I was present only out of formality and nothing more.As they got ready to leave, a tight feeling settled in my chest. I couldn’t ignore it. My pride as Alpha wouldn’t let me sit there in silence. I couldn’t hold back anymore. So, I raised my hand and tried to get their attention.“I don’t appreciate being made to feel like I’m no longer needed here.”My voice was calm enough but I am sure they all realized the firmness and authority I wrapped beneath those words. I might be disregarded but I am still the one
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TristanThe morning air was crisp as I woke before dawn. The faint glow of early light barely crept through my window. I stretched, running a hand through my tousled hair My mind was already set. Today, I had made a decision, one I hadn’t made in a long time.Pushing back the covers, I rose from the bed and moved through the familiar routine of getting ready. The mirror showed a face I hardly knew. I saw a wolf with tired eyes, a hard jaw, and a shadow of the Alpha I once was. For too long, I had stayed away and neglected my duty. My mind had been full of thoughts of Elaine and all the mistakes I made and the things I could no longer fix. I forgot my responsibilities while drowning in my past.But now, the divorce was final. The last connection was broken, and nothing could hold me back anymore. Today, I decided to pick up the pieces and focus on the work I had neglected for so long. For today, it was time to get back that Alpha side of me. My shoes tapped against the wooden floor a
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ElaineSpending time with Trevor always made me happy. Dinner was wonderful. We decided to go to a nice French restaurant for a change. While we both loved Chinese food, we agreed to try something different this time.I twirled the last bite of pasta around my fork and enjoyed the creamy sauce. Across from me, Trevor leaned back in his chair. He was looking happy and relaxed. The soft light from the restaurant’s chandelier made his eyes shine.I felt my cheeks warm. He looked so handsome in my eyes! "You always do that," he said with a small smile, looking at my plate.I tilted my head. "Do what?""Save the best bite for last."I laughed. "Of course! The last bite should be the best one, right?"Trevor chuckled. "That makes sense. Maybe I should start doing that too.""Or maybe you should stop eating so fast," I teased.He laughed louder this time, shaking his head. "Hey, it’s not my fault. The steak was really good."I smiled and felt warm inside. Everything about this night felt ri
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Trevor"Good morning, Sir Trevor!" A she-wolf from the distant desk enthusiastically greeted me.As usual, these she-wolves never let me have a peaceful morning at work. One of them approached."Are you free later for lunch? A new store just opened right in front of our building. Wanna check it out?"She leaned her body against my arm. I slowly pulled away and freed myself from her grip."Well… I already told you, I have a girlfriend. And she wouldn't be impressed with the attention you're giving me." I chuckled playfully.“Aww…But it’s just lunch—”"Sorry, ladies, you came too late. Someone already owns my heart."The she-wolves surrounding me pouted."Come on… saying yes just once wouldn’t hurt her feelings."Awkwardly, I tried to change the topic."If you want, I can set up a date with some guys I know from our sister company. I’m sure they’d love every single one of you.""But no one will ever beat you.""YEAH!" another one exclaimed. "I mean, who wouldn’t want a guy like you? YOU
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TristanMy hands shook as I held the piece of paper I had received on my desk.“This can’t be real.”I checked every corner of the paper to verify the legitimacy of the signature and the mail. Seeing the real signature and stamp made it even more convincing. At that moment, reality hit me like a slap.“It’s over…” My soul whispered to me.Yes, Elaine was gone. She was no longer tied to my life, and this divorce paper served as proof. I had lost this battle, despite doing everything to win. My hands slowly pulled the paper into my palms and crumpled it with all my might.How had I let myself lose my wife? The thought alone was unbearable. Maybe it really was too late. Maybe, at some point, Elaine’s decision had been right. My anger crawled through my veins, surfacing in my office. I growled before slamming my arms onto the desk, which seemed fragile under the force of my rage. I shoved everything in front of me…pens, papers, even the glass of water and sent them crashing to the floor.
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ElaineThanks to Trevor, my normal routine was back on track. Those little things that always warmed me inside were finally back. His presence made everything brighter. Trevor was finally home. And this home finally felt complete.“Let’s eat,” I said, smiling at Trevor.Trevor’s smile suddenly faded. I looked at him, wanting to ask what was wrong.“Umm… you know…” he said hesitantly. “About what happened.”“Shhh.” I stepped closer and hugged him. “It’s alright now, my love. Let’s leave that in the past.”I saw the relief in his eyes as he hugged me back.“I’ll try to be better… for us,” Trevor assured me.“You’re always doing your best, my love.”Trevor pressed a sweet kiss to my forehead and thanked me.“Did you order the usual?”I nodded and carefully laid out the food on the table. He went to the kitchen cabinet and grabbed some plates for both of us. As he carefully served the food, I noticed a change in his smile. And I knew mine had changed too. Our happiness was intertwined. Wi
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ElaineFinally, after a long week, Sunday came. No office papers, no work, no pressure. Nothing beats the morning sun with nothing ahead in my time. It’s 8 o’clock. My body is already used to waking up early even during the weekend. A quiet and peaceful day. I played some soft music and decided to start my day doing some chores. During my work days, I didn't have plenty of time to clean. So usually, Sunday is a cleaning day. The soft music calmed my brain activity. Every worry left in me. For the first time in a week, I feel lighter and stress free. I started cleaning the living room. It didn’t have much mess since I was here all alone. The 2 rooms were also almost nothing to clean aside from the dust remaining in desks and shelves. Since I haven't been preparing food much lately. I only ordered food outside and was expecting a Chinese food delivery around lunch time. “A good day isn’t it?” I suddenly told my spirit wolf. “Hmmm. I’ll say a better day compared to what you had late
