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Chapter 4

Author: Zaysh
last update Last Updated: 2022-11-07 01:36:52

Chris Melberg:I went home. I was very tired after the transformation, so I just wanted to sleep. Even though I didn't know if I am going to come back as me or as him. My PTSD partner, my alter ego Nick Melberg. After that incident in my childhood I created him to get rid of those memories. And now I again want to get rid of him to get my memories back.

I don't know what he has done in my absence but he thought that he had found his mate. And that mate is human. A human can't be a mate of a werewolf. I need to recover.

Ashley Falls: I got kicked out of my room because I didn't pay the rent. I went to my friend Jane but I can't live with her either. She is also living in a room on rent. She came from a small town. I didn't want to cause trouble to her. I went to find a job and thankfully I got a job as a waitress in a small restaurant.

I got a phone call and it was the owner of the house in which I got a room on rent. He said that I can come tomorrow again because the rent is paid and someone also paid for next months. I didn't know what to say. I asked him who paid the rent, but he said that he doesn't know that person. He said that a guy wearing black clothes came.

He not only pays the rent of the room but of the whole house. It was a big house for a person. I was shocked. I said that he shouldn't have taken the money before asking me. But the owner cut off the call.

"What happened?"Jane asked.

"He paid all my rent."

"What? That's really good news."She said

"What? Good news? A bad rich boy is obsessed with me and you are joking right now. What if he only wanted to play with my feelings? Rich guys do such types of things. They change their girlfriends day by day."

"So what? You already know that he is playing with your feelings. You get your benefits from him. At least you will get a place to live for sometime."

"Do you think I am a golddigger? And I will let someone play with me. What if he had been trying to win the bet he made with his friends that he can also get a poor girl."

"Ashley, what are you thinking right now? You let him use you. Pretend like you don't know anything. If he is using you, you will use him also. You need money right now. let him think that he is winning you. You will get a good life for some time." Jane said.

"No, I am not the type of a girl who needs a sugar daddy to live a good life. I knew the very first moment he came in front of me and said I love you. I thought he was doing an internet prank like picking girls on the street. I am sure that he made some kind of bet with his friends or maybe he is just trying an experiment on me."

"What? He said I love you at first eye contact." Jane said.

"Yes, he was pretending to be in love at first sight. The scene from typical romantic movies."

"It's okay, even that's good. Let him chase you and think that you are a naive girl who got trapped in his plan. You need him right now. You are a smart girl. It's not that you are doing something wrong. He is the one who started it." Jane said.

(Phone's message notification sound)

I looked at the phone and it was his message." He messaged me."

"Who? Haaaa, he? What?" Jane said. 

"Come outside."

"Is he here?" Jane said.

I got up and went outside the house. He was standing there with a rose in his hand. I went close to him and asked, "what are you doing and why did you pay my rent?"

"Will you go out on a date with me?"He said seriously while extending his hand forward with a rose. I was shocked. I asked him questions and on the contrary he asked me a question.

Jane's words were roaming in my mind. Let him use you? And you use him. She was right. I am also smart.

"Yes, I said and extended my hand to get the rose. "I will send you the address of the restaurant and the time".He said again with cold expressions." Okay then bye". I said and quickly turned to enter the house.

"I am looking forward to spending time with you. He shouted from behind".I didn't say anything.

I saw him from the window. He was also going his way. 

"What did he say?"Jane asked.

"He asked me out and I said yes".I told her.

"That's good news. Why are you worried?" Jane asked.

"He said that he is looking forward to spending time with me. So…."

So……. Jane said.

"Maybe he has something else in his mind." A message came on my phone." He will be waiting for me at a high class restaurant at 8:00pm.

Maybe I shouldn't go."

"What? You will go. I am just a call away. If you feel anything wrong, just call me or message me. Keep your phone on and in your hand. You still have two hours." Jane said.

I need to do this. I wore a dress that was not so special, just casual wear. I wasn't very happy and excited to see him. I was nervous and terrified. My biggest problem was that I am too talkative usually and when it comes to nervousness, I talk way too much.

I walked to the restaurant and entered. The whole restaurant was empty. It was a big fancy restaurant. Only celebrities or rich people come there. A waitress came in front of me and she took me to a table, where he was sitting. He was also wearing the same casual look. The dark themed clothes. I knew it was all a plan. You just pretended to fall for me. I thought. Judging by his look and then it came to my mind, maybe he is thinking the same for me.

"Hy bad boy". I said nervously.

"Oh, sorry. I didn't know your name". He tried to say something but again my bad habit,....

"By the way, thanks for paying my rent. You really are rich. Huh."

"Yes I am". He said.

"When you asked me out. I was very happy. That's why I wore casual clothes. I thought you should know how I look normally. I have been single for a long time. My ex always wanted to see me in fancy clothes. I hope you are not thinking that I am not interested and that's why I wore casual clothes."

"No, I don't judge people by their clothes". He said.

"Yeah, same here". I remembered why I called him a bad boy and it was because of his looks. I laughed nervously, hiding the true facts.

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