LOGINShare
Chapter 3
Last Updated:
2022-11-07 01:36:23Ashley Falls: "At least you are admitting that he has feelings for you."Jane said.
"Nooo… he is a stranger to me and you gave my number to him. I didn't even know him. I saw him for the first time."
"Well, you need that stranger. If he is playing with you even then you can get some benefits. He looks rich." Jane said.
"What are you talking about?" I said.
"It's for your good. You don't have any choice. Maybe you need him. Maybe that's what fate is, you need someone and that person showed up for you." Jane said.
"You are confusing me. And I don't think he will come back. I made it very clear to him that I don't want him."
"Let's see what happens." Jane said.
"Let's see." I said.
"I know he's gonna come."She patted my shoulder and teased me.
"Come on. Don't do that." I blushed and said.
"Let's go and eat something. I will pay." Jane said.
Chris Melberg: I woke up in the afternoon and saw a note beside my bed. It was a picture of a girl and behind that picture Nick, my alter ego wrote that she is her mate and didn't try to do anything to her. He will come again.
I didn't know what to do, should I be happy because my other personality came out and now I can get a proper treatment or should I be sad because my other personality has found himself a mate. And I don't know anything about her.
I need to go to the bank to get the money my dad sent me. I am working as a freelancer but I am also getting money from my dad because of my expenses and treatment.
But tonight is a full moon and I am nervous about it. The season of mating is on its peak. Whenever I turn into a wolf at full moon, my body releases an intense scent to other wolves for mating. I don't want a mate right now. How can I have two mates at the same time? It's kinda impossible.
I went to the cave present in the mountains behind the forest. I always go there at full moon night. I left my clothes there. I began to transform into a wolf and went into the forest. After running and protecting myself from other wolves, I went back into the cave for sleep. I didn't want to mate. So, this was the best decision for me to go back into the cave. It was huge but nobody came there in all that time. So, I knew that I was safe.
I got up in the morning. My body was covered in sand and dust. I tried to free myself of dust with my hands as much as I could. I quickly began to wear my clothes. I wore my pants and sneakers. Then I wore my shirt, I was going to button up the shirt but I heard some noise. I slept near the entrance of the cave, so I knew nobody came inside.
I slowly moved two steps ahead and tried to look at the alley going inside the cave. I slowly moved my head to see who was there but before I could do anything, a girl quickly came in front of me. She put her hand forcly on my mouth and pinned me to the wall of the cave. Her other hand was pressing the wall. My eyes widened with shock and I was looking at her. I looked at her and then I looked at her hand on the wall. She gestured to me with her thumb and face that someone was inside the cave. So, don't make noise.
I was staring into her eyes. She had long black hair, some of her hair was coming to her face. She had tanned skin and it was matching with her beautiful hair. She was having fangs and she looked like a vampire. But I didn't get her scent when I came into the cave and still she was covering my scent to spread in the cave. She was standing very close to me. I was feeling her warm breaths on my face and probably she was also feeling my breaths.
How can she do that after being a vampire? She had green eyes and I hadn't seen any vampire with this color of eyes. Something was different in her. She was still looking into my eyes and her hand was on my mouth. However, she slowly moved her hand from the wall. My heart was beating very fast and I knew she could hear it.
It was mating season and werewolves' hearts beat that fast after meeting the mate or after having eye contact with her/him. I knew that she was a vampire so I skipped that thought of her being my mate. But I was feeling a strong connection with her. She slowly moved her hand from my mouth and took my hand into her hand.
She moved out of the cave and took me with her. Though she looked like a vampire, her eyes were filled with life. She took me outside the cave and I was looking at my hand in her hand. I didn't even notice when I was walking behind her and we came out of the cave. I just got lost in the moment.
"Who are you?"She asked.
"Chris." I said unintentionally, still lost in the beauty of her.
"Chris who? A lone werewolf? Right?" She asked.
"Yes, Chris Melberg."I put my hand forward and said, "And you?"
"Emma,...... Emma Gray." She put her hand forward slowly and shook with mine. I again felt a strange feeling all over my body. I wondered if she felt the same.
"So, what are you doing here? Are you a vampire?" I asked.
"No, I am not a vampire and I came here with my fellows. They told me that she found a new cave. So, I came with them."She said,
"Then, what are you? You are definitely not a werewolf." I said.
"I am a hybrid, a werewolf and a vampire."She said,
"What? How is that possible?"
"I was a werewolf and I was dying, so a vampire I knew tried to convert me into a vampire and he succeeded. So, I became a vampire."She explained slowly.
"Thank you for saving me from them." I said.
"It's okay. I got some benefits of being hybrid. I covered our scents. Are you in search of your mate?" She asked.
"No, I don't want to mate. What about you? Are you…….. in search of a mate." I asked nervously.
"What? Then she laughed. A mate,..... me. I am a hybrid. I don't need to mate like you wolves. I don't have any effects of the mating season."
"Oh, that's….. I frowned and then tried to cover it and said, that's good."
We both were awkwardly silent.
"You need to button up your shirt."She said,
I was still lost in thoughts of her. And I didn't realize what she said. So, i just said,
"What?"
"You need to button up your shirt." She looked at my body and gave a sign with her hand.
"Oh, I am sorry. I didn't notice. I quickly buttoned up my shirt." She laughed nervously.
"I need to go. They will notice that I am not in the cave." She said,
"Oookay. Hope we will meet again." I said,
"Maybe."She said,
"Definitely, we will." I whispered but I knew she heard that after all she is a hybrid.
Related chapters
I Am Not Myself Chapter 4
Chris Melberg:I went home. I was very tired after the transformation, so I just wanted to sleep. Even though I didn't know if I am going to come back as me or as him. My PTSD partner, my alter ego Nick Melberg. After that incident in my childhood I created him to get rid of those memories. And now I again want to get rid of him to get my memories back.I don't know what he has done in my absence but he thought that he had found his mate. And that mate is human. A human can't be a mate of a werewolf. I need to recover.Ashley Falls: I got kicked out of my room because I didn't pay the rent. I went to my friend Jane but I can't live with her either. She is also living in a room on rent. She came from a small town. I didn't want to cause trouble to her. I went to find a job and thankfully I got a job as a waitress in a small restaurant.I got a phone call and it was the owner of the house in which I got a room on rent. He said that I can come tomorrow again because the rent is paid and s
Last Updated : 2022-11-07I Am Not Myself Chapter 5
Ashley Falls: "When I told Jane, she asked me not to trust you. She said he is a bad rich brat who wants to use you but I said nooo, his feelings for me looked pure. So, I should give him a chance. You know she also said that you probably made a bet with your friends to win me. That's why you came after me." I laughed nervously."Then, what did you say?" He asked with cold expressions.I was happy that he was actually believing me and I said, "what did I say……. I said that nooo, he didn't look like that. He looked cool"."But you said that I am not your type". He said."Hah, haha, I was joking back then. I thought that you were pranking me. I am totally into bad cold boys". I again laughed nervously and drank water.Waiter came and he handed me the menu. I was looking at the dishes and I didn't know any of them. It was my first time in a fancy restaurant. Have you decided ma'am. Waiter asked.Ah,..... I was just speechless and then he said, "we want pizza of all flavors. And we want
Last Updated : 2022-11-07I Am Not Myself Chapter 6
Ashley Falls: He took a bite of the piece of cake and asked me to take a bite. I took a bite of the piece of cake from his hand. He put that piece on the table and licked his two fingers which were holding the cake. He was looking very hot. I was looking at his fingers.He again cut the cake and I burst the party pooper. A loud sound came and glittering substances began to fall from the sky. I was looking at them and unintentionally I was smiling. It was the first time that I smiled genuinely in all troubles. I looked at him and noticed that he was staring at me all the time."What happened?"I gestured with my eyes."Your smile is magical." He said with rude, cold expressions and in a serious voice.I didn't know what to say. Somebody never said that to me."Oh, aaaa thanks. Thank you very much." I looked at him. He was still looking at me. I quickly started to look at the room. "Waoo. You did a great job. All these balloons and decorations. I thought that you would like to celebrate y
Last Updated : 2022-12-27I Am Not Myself Chapter 7
Chris Melberg: "Yes, because of you." Emma shouted as loud as she could, making a fist and pointing her index finger at me."No way, I came here first. You were the one who started talking". I said and tried to maintain a normal voice."Oh really, and you were a little child who didn't know how to talk. I forced you to talk to me". She said in a sarcastic way, lowering her voice."What's the problem with you? You got what you want, A book"."What about my self respect? You are such a big werewolf but you don't know how to whisper". She said,"Okay," I shouted after hearing the word werewolf and then said in a low voice, "Okay I didn't know how to whisper. I am sorry". I tried to finish the fight.She was staring at me and then she said,"I thought it's hard for male werewolves to admit their mistakes because of their so-called ego. But you are not like that, it's a good sign". "Can I get that book?" I asked because I really needed help to stop Nick."Actually I also need that book. To
Last Updated : 2022-12-27I Am Not Myself Chapter 8
Ashley Falls: "I'll pick you in an hour" I mimicked him with ugly expressions. You idiot, stupid. You hung up on me. I am just not saying anything because I need money otherwise I won't even look at you. I murmured in my mouth and Jane heard. She started laughing."What?" I said in anger to Jane. She stopped laughing and shrugged her shoulders.How could he not even listen to my reply? He was just ordering me. I do have self respect. I felt humiliated. And I was very much in anger. I got ready to go out with him. Again I didn't wear any special clothes. Slight makeup on my face with my casual clothes. I wasn't dying to go out with him. He should know that. Someone knocked at the door. After checking out who was outside, I opened the door. He also didn't wear any special clothes. Same black clothes. Black t-shirt, black jeans, black jacket, black and white sneakers, black chain around his neck and he was wearing two black rings on his fingers. One on the middle finger and one on the t
Last Updated : 2022-12-27I Am Not Myself Chapter 9
Ashley Falls: "Well you know what? That's not funny. And if your mission was to scare the hell out of me. Then congrats! You freaked me out". I was being serious with him."I wasn't joking". He looked at me."Just look at the view. Mountains, beach and waterfalls. I really like being here". I ignored his ridiculous joke and enjoyed the view."Let's go". I looked at my watch and said."Do you want to jump down with me or the old typical human way". He asked with seriousness."Hey stop. It's not funny anymore". I said annoyingly."Just answer the question". He was sitting beside me. He looked at me and ordered me.I didn't like the way he said. But I needed money. So, I answered grudgingly." The old typical human way. I have many things to do in life. So no jumping from this height".He looked down and shouted to the man to lower the Ferris wheel. I said that I wanted to go home. He said he would walk with me to the house."Listen, I knew about your creepy obsession with wolves. But I d
Last Updated : 2022-12-28I Am Not Myself Chapter 10
Ashley Falls: I spend my day without any calls from Nick. I was slightly worried. And I was waiting for his call. It was evening and my phone rang. I quickly picked up the phone without seeing the number on the phone."Hello love". The voice came from the other side of the phone. And I was sure that it wasn't Nick's voice. Because I remember that voice very well."Why are you calling me?" I asked as badly as I could."Soooo rude, darling. Don't you remember me? I am your first and only love". A laugh came from the other side after these words."I don't want to talk to you. So, don't call me ever again". I said and was about to hung up the phone but then I heard,"Stop…. Stop… don't hang up the phone. Why are you in a hurry darling? I called you because I wanted something from you". He said."What do you want from me now? I have nothing to do with you or to give you". I said while being worried to hell."I heard that you started dating the richest boy on the island. This island is ver
Last Updated : 2022-12-29I Am Not Myself Chapter 11
Chris Melberg: I woke up in my bedroom. I saw a bandage on my hand. My hand was hurt and I didn't know what happened. I looked at my phone and there was a video of Nick for me."Hello Chris! If you think that you can easily get away from me then you are a fool. You said that I can't feel my wolf mate with Ashley. And you felt it with Emma. But did Emma feel it? No, because she is a dead wolf. And how do you know I didn't feel it with Ashley? Maybe I did. Since I am a whole other person. And you know who Ashley is?"He was sitting on the bed and making videos with my phone. He smiled after asking about Ashley. He didn't give an expression till now. I was nervous and worried. I continued the video,"Ashley is the girl due to which we share a body. She is the girl from that incident which happened years ago. She is the cause of our trauma, my trauma. She is making me strong. Because she is my first love. She is the one who became the cause of our first early wolf transformation, my transf
Last Updated : 2023-01-02
Latest chapter
I Am Not Myself Chapter 31
Emma Gray: "What type of question is that? Emma!" While showing worry in his eyes, dad asked. "That's not an answer ". I replied. Mom put her hand on dad's hand and looked at me. "Honey! Are we really talking about this? It's been twenty three years. None of us aged. Of course, we adopt you because we won't age and have any children. And you are just like us"."So, you are saying that Daniel Morris didn't ask you guys to adopt me and he is not giving you any money till now for adopting me". Getting up from my chair, keeping my voice low, suppressing the fits of anger surging in me, I said. My eyes were dark green."Emma! Who said that?". After hearing me, dad asked, And they both also stood up from their chairs. "Did Chris say that?". Mom asked. They both looked nervous. "It doesn't matter who said that. What matters is that you both are not denying it". I shouted."Emma! Baby, look we both were waiting for the right time to tell you". Dad said in a low voice, extending his hands, gest
I Am Not Myself chapter 30
Ashley Falls: "yes, you are". Finally he answered. "Then who is she? I can't ignore your suspicious behavior anymore"."She is a vampire. She can't be my mate. She just likes me and I like you". Again seriousness and cold behavior was very evident. The same emptiness was glowing in his eyes. How can someone change his style so often? I was surprised and was looking at him carefully. He didn't speak a word."So, I am your mate? Right?" I again tried to confirm."Yes". One word answer, am I being stupid for trusting him? I can clearly see the red flags. Why am I ignoring them? Is that what true love is? I was thinking all these things and he was just looking at me like he was seeing me after a long time. "I am scared and I need some rest. We will talk later". After hearing me, he just turned and walked away.I was also going in the house but at the same moment, Jane came to meet. "Can I stay with you today?" She asked. She also looked tired and sad. I asked her, "What happened?" Did she
I Am Not Myself Chapter 29
Chris Melberg: Both me and Ashley quickly turned around. Emma was standing right there, watching us. It was shocking to see Emma in front of Ashley's house but it was more terrifying to see her with fangs, burning in anger. She didn't give a chance to speak anything and without blinking an eye, she was in front of us, trying to attack Ashley but fortunately I was there and I held Emma by grabbing her by the shoulders. Ashley was hiding behind me and she said in a shaky voice, "Nick! Who…..is she?""Ashley! You need to go to your house now and lock the door". I said while holding Emma from attacking Ashley. Ashley went inside her house. It was hard for her to move but she managed to get in the house."Emma! Please come to your senses. What's happening to you? It's not what you think it is. Please! Listen to me first". While pushing her back, I said. " It is what it seems". She said and gave a punch to my face. "No, it's not like that". I again tried to hold her by grabbing her shoulder
I Am Not Myself Chapter 28
Ryan Morris: When I opened my eyes. I was still sitting on the chair, but in a room. "What….. happened?" I hardly spoke and found it hard to speak. I was even finding difficulty in opening my eyes properly. Everything looked blurry. I tried to move my hands and was shocked that they were chained with the chair by a silver chain. And my legs were also chained with the chair."What's happening here? What are you doing?" I completely came to my senses and asked in a loud voice. Because I couldn't see anyone there. "Nothing darling! You are being tested". Jane's voice came from behind."Tested? For what?" Looking here and there by moving my head, trying to find Jane, I said. "For being dangerous. Ever since I met you, bad things have been happening to me. And now I come to know that you were messing with me. Since you are a son of a vampire". Jane slowly came in front of me and said those words."I am not doing anything to you". I replied.Jane Miller: I tied Ryan to the chair with silver
I Am Not Myself Chapter 27
Ashley Falls: Jane woke me up by hitting on my shoulder. I woke up quickly. "What happened? Jane!". She was shivering with fear. She pointed at the window with her hand. "Someone's hitting the window". She said in a low voice. Sweat was pouring out of her face and hands. Even some of her hair was also covering her face. I slowly looked at the window. And I realized who was striking the window. I got up from the bed. " Be careful!". Jane said quickly. I opened the window. And Nick was there. He sometimes knocks on the window at night. As he always comes to meet me at night. .I opened the door for Nick and told Jane that Nick struck the window of my room sometimes to wake me up. He didn't know Jane was staying at my place. Jane was still in the room, trying to sleep.I was in the living room with Nick. "Jane was scared to hell because of your hitting on the window". I said to Nick."Why's she here at your house?". Nick asked.I told Nick that Jane was sensing someone with her. Nick to
I Am Not Myself Chapter 26
Ryan Morris: "What do you want to tell me?" Emma asked on the phone. Before I could say anything, I heard Chris' voice instead of Emma from the phone. "Ryan! We are busy right now. She will call you later". He hung up the phone. Emma was with Chris when I called her. He stopped me again from telling her the truth.Emma Gray: I was with Chris in the cafe and Ryan called. He wanted to tell me something but Chris butted in. I thought there was something suspicious but I didn't ask Chris about it. The look on his face was giving the signs that something is wrong. I asked him if Ryan told him anything about his parents. But Chris just said, "No, nothing yet. But we are getting close to each other. And I am sure he will soon tell us about his parents. He pretends to be happy but he is a lone teenager who needs anyone to care for him"."I hope, he just tells us about his parents quickly. So I would become a wolf again and be with you as your true mate". I said to Chris.While taking a sip o
I Am Not Myself Chapter 25
Emma Gray: "You are completely covered with a smell of some filthy werewolf". Raising her voice, my mom said."Mom! It's not what you think". Getting extremely nervous, I said."Then, what is it? Sweetheart! We are worried about you". Dad asked.I felt like I was in an interrogation room but I wasn't in their place. Maybe that's why I didn't understand them. What should I have told them? I made a lie."I went to see my old house and my old wolf fellows. I secretly saw my old biological parents. I asked a werewolf about that vampire who converted me. And all that"."Emma, baby! How many times have I told you that you can't go back to your old life? Suppose you find that vampire, how are you gonna fight him? Are you as powerful as him? He is one of the oldest vampires and he has support of that powerful witch. It's dangerous for you. You can't do that to us, to yourself. So, please no more werewolves". Lowering her voice, trying to explain to me, mom said.I didn't say anything in resp
I Am Not Myself Chapter 24
Chris Melberg: I was staring at Ryan. I gestured to him to say no to her invitation by moving my face a bit and by rolling my eyes. " Of course. I am free tomorrow. I would love to come to the party". Ryan said to Jane."Perfect, then we would meet tomorrow. Also you are the first to get an invitation". Jane said to Ryan, letting his hand go."We will discuss the preparation later". She said to me while thinking that she was talking to Nick. Finally, she departed."You don't dare to go to that birthday party". I looked at Ryan and said. "Why? I am the first guest to get an invitation, man". Ryan said to me."Because it's my friend's party". Annoyed by his answer, I replied. "So what? I would love to see you there tomorrow. Bye". Ryan said to me and left the house. Emma Gray: I was driving to Chris's house. Yesterday, I answered him on the phone. I was eager to meet him. I desperately wanted to become a wolf again. He didn't know that I could also feel the mate bond that he felt with
I Am Not Myself Chapter 23
Chris Melberg: I quickly put my hand on the phone's speaker. I asked Ashley to wait for a minute by gesturing my hand to her. I went out and asked Emma," Which question?". "That one you asked me when we first met". She answered."Really?". Surprised by her answer, I asked in excitement."And the answer to that question is yes. I am ready to date you. I am ready to enter into a new relationship with you. I remember you said that people love each other, so that they can go on a journey of different emotions, together. I am ready to go on a new journey with you. I am ready to make memories with you. We will take our relationship to a next level after I turn back into a werewolf again". She said all these things quickly. She sounded excited and happy."I am really happy. And I can't wait for the time when you will turn into a werewolf again. When you will feel our mate bond for the first time. When your heart will beat fast and your eyes will turn colour after seeing me, after touching m
