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Chris Melberg: I woke up in my bedroom. I saw a bandage on my hand. My hand was hurt and I didn't know what happened. I looked at my phone and there was a video of Nick for me."Hello Chris! If you think that you can easily get away from me then you are a fool. You said that I can't feel my wolf mate with Ashley. And you felt it with Emma. But did Emma feel it? No, because she is a dead wolf. And how do you know I didn't feel it with Ashley? Maybe I did. Since I am a whole other person. And you know who Ashley is?"He was sitting on the bed and making videos with my phone. He smiled after asking about Ashley. He didn't give an expression till now. I was nervous and worried. I continued the video,"Ashley is the girl due to which we share a body. She is the girl from that incident which happened years ago. She is the cause of our trauma, my trauma. She is making me strong. Because she is my first love. She is the one who became the cause of our first early wolf transformation, my transf
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Chris Melberg: I tried to sleep but I remembered the scene when Emma fainted in my arms after listening to that old wolf. She must have remembered all her past. The old wolf asked me to give him Emma's blood. A hybrid bite can only be cured by his/her blood. Emma bit one of their wolves. I dropped her home. I didn't want her to meet Nick in morning. So it was better to drop her home. She wasn't feeling well.And my heart was also in pain. Emma didn't feel a bond with me because she had a mate. I wanted to tell her how strong our bond is. She didn't feel my pain but I was feeling hers. The thought of her not being my mate was torturing me. Her old mate died and I am her new mate. But she didn't accept the reality. And what was more painful than that was that she couldn't realize the intensity of my feelings towards her.I knew werewolves don't cry or weep but tears were coming out of my eyes and I couldn't stop them. Maybe it was because I was feeling Emma's pain besides suffering fro
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Chris Melberg: I woke up early in the morning. I felt tired because of the transformation. Maybe Nick tried to hold the transformation and fell ill. I took breakfast, sitting on the table alone made me realize how lonely and depressed I was. I was feeling completely helpless like all the things in my life were turning against me. Emma already had a mate that died. Nick was getting stronger day by day because of that girl Ashley. I was afraid that I might disappear somewhere in Nick and become a part of him. After my last meeting with Emma, I was stressed out. She cried on my shoulder for her dead mate while I was trying to hold the ocean of my love for her in my eyes. I got up from the table and went to my psychiatrist. She gave me some new pills but this time, I didn't tell her about my pain. I just took medicine for stress. I was on my way home and Emma called me. I quickly picked up the phone," Hy, how are you?". She asked me in a normal way."I'm fine. What….aaa.. about you?" I
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Ashley Falls: "I was enjoying free time in college. Jane said to meet her in the cafeteria. I went there. She was already sitting there. We ordered some food to eat. "What? He was sick?" Jane asked after I told her that Nick was sick yesterday. I didn't tell her about him being a werewolf."So, you treated him like a doctor. Oh my god, it sounds so romantic". Jane said."He was sick. It wasn't romantic". I hesitated while admitting."Oh my god, you were worried about him. You didn't fall in love with him. Did you?" Jane asked."No no…. What are you talking about? I didn't even tell him I love you too. I pretended to like everything he likes and dislike everything he dislikes"."Very good. You shouldn't repeat your mistake. You shouldn't forget about Tim". Jane advised."But he looked nice. I don't think he has any friends to make a bet. He isn't like Tim". I defended Nick."You should be careful. I know that he is one of the most rich and handsome guys on the island. So any girl can
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Emma Gray: I was in the car with Chris. He was sitting on the driving seat. We were stuck in the traffic. We were going to have dinner like normal humans do. Chris was nervous and worried at the same time. I could tell by looking at him. Then the scents coming from him were enough for me to know about his emotions. He looked at the time from his wrist watch."Do you need to go somewhere?" I asked."No, I am just tired". He said and looked outside the window.Suddenly, I heard a mild growl. I looked at him. He was still looking outside the window." Did you do that? " I asked him."Do what?" He looked at me with curiosity.His eyes were red. "Your eyes. They are red. What's happening?" I asked surprisingly.He saw himself in the mirror."I don't know what's happening. It isn't a full moon." He said.His eyes were now more red. His nails were also black and longer than usual. Then all of a sudden, he started growling slowly. He held his forehead with his hands. "My head is in pain". He sa
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Ashley Falls: We reached his house. Jane helped me in taking Nick out of the car. We went to the door. I asked Nick about the keys of the door. He searched keys in his pants pockets and then jacket pockets. He couldn't find them. Finally, I searched for them and they were in his jacket pocket. I opened the door. We went in. Jane helped me in laying him on the bed."Oh my god, I always wanted to look in this house. Look at it. How big is this room?" Jane said."Yeah". I hardly said because I was still trying to put Nick's legs on the bed. He was totally drunk and was about to sleep.Jane was looking at every corner of the house. "I think I should go. I need to reach home on time". Jane said."I will come after he falls asleep". I said to her,"Okay. Take care of yourself. Don't let him do anything to you. Be careful. If you need me, just call me". Jane instructed me.I said I will be careful. She went home. I took off Nick's shoes, covered his legs and upper body with a blanket. I was
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Ashley Falls: I went to college. Nobody called me the whole day. I was constantly thinking about Nick. But he didn't call me. In Fact he didn't usually call me during the day. He always calls me at night. He even came to meet me at night. I did my part time job as a waitress. After a long wait, the sun sets and the sky turns dark.All I did the whole day was wondering about him while doing my routine work. I made hundreds of fake romantic scenarios in my mind with him.At last, his phone call came. Sitting on a chair, holding a hot coffee mug in my hand, I was studying some painting techniques. I quickly took the phone. I was going to attend it but then I wondered if I would attend it quickly. He might think that I was waiting for his call desperately. Yes, that was the truth but I didn't want him to find out.I attended the call. No one said anything from the other side."Hello, Nick!Are you there?" I asked."Yes". He answered. I heard his voice after a long time. The rasp in his voic
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Chris Melberg: I didn't know why I was hugging Ashley, unintentionally. Emma saw us and she disappeared from there in a second. I was feeling bad for her. Suddenly, I felt severe pain in my head… and this was the moment when I knew that Nick was coming out.Ashley Falls: I fainted in the arms of Nick. When I woke up. I looked around and figured out that I was in Nick's room, lying on his bed. Nick was there, sitting on the bed besides my feet, watching me. "What happened". Hardly tried to speak, I asked him."You fainted". He said.I tried to remember what exactly had happened and then I remembered all those scenes. Me going to a psychiatrist, me getting those memories back. "I remembered all those things, that vampire did to my family, to you". I told him."What are you saying? I don't know any vampires". Seriousness and calmness in his voice were shouting that he didn't know anything. Maybe he doesn't remember anything. I tried to think and asked," So, you don't know about a wooden
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Emma Gray: "What type of question is that? Emma!" While showing worry in his eyes, dad asked. "That's not an answer ". I replied. Mom put her hand on dad's hand and looked at me. "Honey! Are we really talking about this? It's been twenty three years. None of us aged. Of course, we adopt you because we won't age and have any children. And you are just like us"."So, you are saying that Daniel Morris didn't ask you guys to adopt me and he is not giving you any money till now for adopting me". Getting up from my chair, keeping my voice low, suppressing the fits of anger surging in me, I said. My eyes were dark green."Emma! Who said that?". After hearing me, dad asked, And they both also stood up from their chairs. "Did Chris say that?". Mom asked. They both looked nervous. "It doesn't matter who said that. What matters is that you both are not denying it". I shouted."Emma! Baby, look we both were waiting for the right time to tell you". Dad said in a low voice, extending his hands, gest
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Ashley Falls: "yes, you are". Finally he answered. "Then who is she? I can't ignore your suspicious behavior anymore"."She is a vampire. She can't be my mate. She just likes me and I like you". Again seriousness and cold behavior was very evident. The same emptiness was glowing in his eyes. How can someone change his style so often? I was surprised and was looking at him carefully. He didn't speak a word."So, I am your mate? Right?" I again tried to confirm."Yes". One word answer, am I being stupid for trusting him? I can clearly see the red flags. Why am I ignoring them? Is that what true love is? I was thinking all these things and he was just looking at me like he was seeing me after a long time. "I am scared and I need some rest. We will talk later". After hearing me, he just turned and walked away.I was also going in the house but at the same moment, Jane came to meet. "Can I stay with you today?" She asked. She also looked tired and sad. I asked her, "What happened?" Did she
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Chris Melberg: Both me and Ashley quickly turned around. Emma was standing right there, watching us. It was shocking to see Emma in front of Ashley's house but it was more terrifying to see her with fangs, burning in anger. She didn't give a chance to speak anything and without blinking an eye, she was in front of us, trying to attack Ashley but fortunately I was there and I held Emma by grabbing her by the shoulders. Ashley was hiding behind me and she said in a shaky voice, "Nick! Who…..is she?""Ashley! You need to go to your house now and lock the door". I said while holding Emma from attacking Ashley. Ashley went inside her house. It was hard for her to move but she managed to get in the house."Emma! Please come to your senses. What's happening to you? It's not what you think it is. Please! Listen to me first". While pushing her back, I said. " It is what it seems". She said and gave a punch to my face. "No, it's not like that". I again tried to hold her by grabbing her shoulder
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Ryan Morris: When I opened my eyes. I was still sitting on the chair, but in a room. "What….. happened?" I hardly spoke and found it hard to speak. I was even finding difficulty in opening my eyes properly. Everything looked blurry. I tried to move my hands and was shocked that they were chained with the chair by a silver chain. And my legs were also chained with the chair."What's happening here? What are you doing?" I completely came to my senses and asked in a loud voice. Because I couldn't see anyone there. "Nothing darling! You are being tested". Jane's voice came from behind."Tested? For what?" Looking here and there by moving my head, trying to find Jane, I said. "For being dangerous. Ever since I met you, bad things have been happening to me. And now I come to know that you were messing with me. Since you are a son of a vampire". Jane slowly came in front of me and said those words."I am not doing anything to you". I replied.Jane Miller: I tied Ryan to the chair with silver
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Ashley Falls: Jane woke me up by hitting on my shoulder. I woke up quickly. "What happened? Jane!". She was shivering with fear. She pointed at the window with her hand. "Someone's hitting the window". She said in a low voice. Sweat was pouring out of her face and hands. Even some of her hair was also covering her face. I slowly looked at the window. And I realized who was striking the window. I got up from the bed. " Be careful!". Jane said quickly. I opened the window. And Nick was there. He sometimes knocks on the window at night. As he always comes to meet me at night. .I opened the door for Nick and told Jane that Nick struck the window of my room sometimes to wake me up. He didn't know Jane was staying at my place. Jane was still in the room, trying to sleep.I was in the living room with Nick. "Jane was scared to hell because of your hitting on the window". I said to Nick."Why's she here at your house?". Nick asked.I told Nick that Jane was sensing someone with her. Nick to
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Ryan Morris: "What do you want to tell me?" Emma asked on the phone. Before I could say anything, I heard Chris' voice instead of Emma from the phone. "Ryan! We are busy right now. She will call you later". He hung up the phone. Emma was with Chris when I called her. He stopped me again from telling her the truth.Emma Gray: I was with Chris in the cafe and Ryan called. He wanted to tell me something but Chris butted in. I thought there was something suspicious but I didn't ask Chris about it. The look on his face was giving the signs that something is wrong. I asked him if Ryan told him anything about his parents. But Chris just said, "No, nothing yet. But we are getting close to each other. And I am sure he will soon tell us about his parents. He pretends to be happy but he is a lone teenager who needs anyone to care for him"."I hope, he just tells us about his parents quickly. So I would become a wolf again and be with you as your true mate". I said to Chris.While taking a sip o
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Emma Gray: "You are completely covered with a smell of some filthy werewolf". Raising her voice, my mom said."Mom! It's not what you think". Getting extremely nervous, I said."Then, what is it? Sweetheart! We are worried about you". Dad asked.I felt like I was in an interrogation room but I wasn't in their place. Maybe that's why I didn't understand them. What should I have told them? I made a lie."I went to see my old house and my old wolf fellows. I secretly saw my old biological parents. I asked a werewolf about that vampire who converted me. And all that"."Emma, baby! How many times have I told you that you can't go back to your old life? Suppose you find that vampire, how are you gonna fight him? Are you as powerful as him? He is one of the oldest vampires and he has support of that powerful witch. It's dangerous for you. You can't do that to us, to yourself. So, please no more werewolves". Lowering her voice, trying to explain to me, mom said.I didn't say anything in resp
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Chris Melberg: I was staring at Ryan. I gestured to him to say no to her invitation by moving my face a bit and by rolling my eyes. " Of course. I am free tomorrow. I would love to come to the party". Ryan said to Jane."Perfect, then we would meet tomorrow. Also you are the first to get an invitation". Jane said to Ryan, letting his hand go."We will discuss the preparation later". She said to me while thinking that she was talking to Nick. Finally, she departed."You don't dare to go to that birthday party". I looked at Ryan and said. "Why? I am the first guest to get an invitation, man". Ryan said to me."Because it's my friend's party". Annoyed by his answer, I replied. "So what? I would love to see you there tomorrow. Bye". Ryan said to me and left the house. Emma Gray: I was driving to Chris's house. Yesterday, I answered him on the phone. I was eager to meet him. I desperately wanted to become a wolf again. He didn't know that I could also feel the mate bond that he felt with
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Chris Melberg: I quickly put my hand on the phone's speaker. I asked Ashley to wait for a minute by gesturing my hand to her. I went out and asked Emma," Which question?". "That one you asked me when we first met". She answered."Really?". Surprised by her answer, I asked in excitement."And the answer to that question is yes. I am ready to date you. I am ready to enter into a new relationship with you. I remember you said that people love each other, so that they can go on a journey of different emotions, together. I am ready to go on a new journey with you. I am ready to make memories with you. We will take our relationship to a next level after I turn back into a werewolf again". She said all these things quickly. She sounded excited and happy."I am really happy. And I can't wait for the time when you will turn into a werewolf again. When you will feel our mate bond for the first time. When your heart will beat fast and your eyes will turn colour after seeing me, after touching m
