Let's Talk About This

I texted Asher saying that I wasn't feeling well and that I needed to cancel our date before I left school.

My mom picked me up from school and held me while I cried in her arms.

She's usually traveling, so the fact that she was here and is willing to stay a few days because of me makes me feel happy.

She immediately took me home without any words and placed me in my room.

"What's wrong, pumpkin?" She asks me as she hands me another carton of Ben and Jerry's ice cream

I accept the carton and start to eat out of it as I look at the blank wall and continue to play the conversation in my mind of the argument

The face he made before I walked away is currently haunting me.

I feel bad.

Even though he hurt me I feel like I was being a brat when I put all of the blame on him.

"It's nothing that ice cream won't fix" I say with a weak smile as my heart continues to hurt with every beat that it takes

"I know that I'm barely here, but I know when you're lying" she says which makes me look down as I stir the solid ice cream which causes it to become soft

"My ex boyfriend and I got into a disagreement during ELA" I say which makes her frown

"About what?" She asks which causes me to sigh in sadness

"It started with Romeo and Juliet, but ended with a problem that we had in our relationship that caused us to break up" I say as I take a bite of the now soft ice cream

And now the problem thinks that they're dating him.

"Do you want to stay home tomorrow? You look really drained" she says with a small smile which makes me give her a weak smile

"Yes. I think I'm going to take a nap" I say which causes her to smile at me before she takes the ice cream out of my hand and kisses my forehead.

I get comfortable under my blankets as she leaves my room.

But I can't help but think about the argument again.

He says he loves me and that he won't let anyone tear us apart yet that's exactly what he did.

That's all I can think of before I fall into a deep sleep.

-

I wake up from my deep sleep and feel refreshed.

I check my phone and see that it's four in the morning. I get out of my bed and walk downstairs so that I can get a bottle of water since my mouth feels very dry.

I don't hear any movement so I guess that my mom is asleep.

I weirdly feel like going for a walk so I jog upstairs and put on a pair of grey sweatpants along with a random band tee. I put my hair in a messy bun before I put on a pair of converse and head outside.

I walk towards a park that Easton took me to when I was thirteen.

When I reach the destination I see someone sitting on the bench. As I get closer I realize that the person is Easton and he still looks sad.

I walk up and sit beside him before we stare at the scenery around us, without saying anything to each other.

"You know that I still love you, right?" He asks which causes me to turn my attention towards his sad grey eyes

"You broke my heart, but I'm still madly in love with you" he says with a sad smile

"I didn't meant to" I say in a small voice

"I know" he says with a understanding tone

"I'm sorry for not immediately talking to you though" he says

"It's okay. I probably would've done the same thing" I say with a joking tone which makes him laugh.

He reaches his hand out and places it on my cheek before he rubs his thumb along my cheekbone.

"I miss you" he says with a sad tone that causes me to look down at my hands that are resting in my lap

"I have a boyfriend" I say since I don't want to lead him on and end up in a bigger mess than we're already in

"I know. Stella told me" he says with a sigh as he drops his hand

"I never stopped loving you" I say after a couple of minutes which causes him to at me with relief in his eyes

"Neither have I" He says which makes me smile

"Do I still have a chance with you?" He asks with hope evident in his voice

I shake my head at him.

Of course he does, but I don't want him to know that since we're trying to work through this rough patch in our lives.

I think we both need a break from all the craziness in our life and I doubt that us getting back together will help that.

"I'm not going to stop fighting for us" he say seriously which makes me blush and smile at him

"Do you think that we could be friends again?" I ask him since I miss his presence in my life

"Of course" he says with a smile that makes me smile back as we both lean in for a hug.

We hug for a couple of minutes before we pull away and stare into each other's eyes.

I feel this strong attraction to him.

As if he's a magnet and I'm a silver coin.

When our noses are touching and we're both practically breathing each other's air, I look down.

I can't do this.

It wouldn't be fair to Asher.

He doesn't deserve this.

Easton kisses my cheek before he pulls me into his side.

"I love you" I say which makes him laugh a little

"I love you too" he says before he kisses my head.

We just continue to watch the sunrise and listen to the birds chirp.

When we both finally parted it was six in the morning and I felt better than I did when I left school yesterday.

When I make it home, my mom is up and on a phone call.

"You look happier" she says to me which makes me smile wider since I feel happier

"I am happier" I say

"That's great, sweetie" she says before she answers another business call

I want to go to school now.

I'm actually excited for school.